Lana
I'm nine months pregnant with a child that's going to be born into the world of Voldemort. I still don't know what the gender is… Papa promised he'd be there when it's born, and then he'd name it. I gave him a list of both boy and girl names James and Severus helped me pick out, and he's going to pick the best out of them. I hope it's a girl; I've always wanted a daughter. If it is a girl, I pray to God its Severus'. Maybe she'll be a remake of the little girl he and I had… That was almost three years ago. It's hard to imagine, I'm almost twenty years old now. I'm married to two different men, and I've been attacked by one of the most evil wizards of our time. How lucky can a girl get?
I'm scared. I've been scared ever since I've found out. James has been as supporting as anyone could expect him to be; he's helped me out around the house when my ankles are too swollen for me to walk, he's served me all kinds of exotic foods, even in the middle of the night. Severus has been there for me every moment of every day, mentally. When I start playing "what if"s in my head, he talks to me and tells me it's all right. He tells me how much he loves me and even if the baby isn't his, he says he's going to love it just as if it was his own. When I wake up in the middle of the night and I'm too afraid to wake James up, Severus is always there. He claims he wakes up at the exact moment I do, it seems. I tell him my dreams and my nightmares, he tells me it's going to be ok.
I'm due in less than one week, and I'm so afraid. I've heard how painful delivery is; I'm only 19, why do I have to go through this all? And with James, to top it off? Why couldn't I have been with Severus? I begged with James to allow Remus to come to the hospital with us, and Remus promises he'll bring Severus. I hope James faints so Severus will be able to hold my hand instead of him. He promises he'll be talking to me the whole time, and he'll be right outside. But God, I'm so scared…
What if I'm a terrible mother? What if James finds out about Severus? What if James gets drunk and tries to kill it? I know he would never do that, but he's been drinking a lot lately, and I can't get him to stop. He says its just stress, with the ministry watching Dumbledore and us, his group, like hawks. Rita Skeeter, a Ravenclaw girl that was in our year, has been sensationalizing stories of how our group has been taking on the Death Eaters single-handedly and reporting them in the Daily Prophet. I'm glad she hasn't gotten any whiff of Severus and I; she'd be all over it, I'd never be able to leave the house again.
It's almost midnight now, and I'm dead tired. James is still away, I'm not sure where he is at the current time, but I'm not worried. I know he'll come back.
Lily Snape,
July 30th, 1980
Lily woke up the next morning in a cold sweat. Putting a hand on her bulging stomach, she suddenly felt a burst of pain come from her abdomen. She turned over to look at James, who was sound asleep. Hitting him in the arm once or twice, he finally opened his eyes a crack.
"What?" he asked, his voice hoarse.
"James… I think I'm having the baby…" Lily gasped, her eyes wide with fright.
"What? Now? No, it's too early… Go back to bed." James insisted, rolling over.
"James…" Lily whined, tugging on his sleeve. "Come on… I'm serious…"
James stuck a pillow over his head, refusing to listen. Realizing he was either drunk or suffering from a hangover, she tried to wake Severus up.
Sev… WAKE UP!
A moment later, he responded: Lily? What's wrong?
I think I'm having the baby…
Wake James up, do you want me to get Remus?
I already tried… He's not listening to me.
She heard a few choice curse words, and a moment later, she saw him appear.
"Come on… I'll take you." Severus glanced over towards James, who was lying on top of the sheets stark naked. "Lovely sight, but he's rather tiny."
Lily laughed, then quickly stopped herself. "That hurts right now. Come on, I want to go now…"
Severus walked over to her side of the bed and helped her up. "Can you Apparate?"
"Sure." Lily nodded, "St. Mungo's then?"
"Let me conjure up a note for this git really quick…" Severus muttered a few words and a piece of parchment appeared where Lily was lying moments before. "That should do it. Shall we?"
Lily took his arm and the two Apparated together to St. Mungo's, where a plump nurse quickly moved her into one of the blue wheelchairs. Severus followed them, keeping his head down low as to not be seen.
"Sev… Go get Remus and Papa, ok? I'll be fine for a while." Lily said, craning her neck to face him.
"Are you sure?" Severus asked, looking uncertain.
"Damnit Sev, get Remus and Papa!" Lily yelled as another wave of pain hit. Severus Apparated directing to Remus Lupin's house, where the man was making himself breakfast. Banging on the door, Remus opened it after a moment. The look on Severus' face was all he needed to see.
"You go back to Lily, I'll go get Dumbledore… I'm assuming you haven't gotten him yet?" Remus asked.
"No, and thank you. Don't bother with James, he's being a prick." Severus said. The two nodded goodbye and Severus Apparated back to Lily, who was now lying on a hospital bed with her eyes closed.
"Remus is getting your Papa, then he's coming back here, ok?" Severus asked. Lily nodded, not bothering to open her eyes.
"What about James?" she asked.
"Do you want me to go get him?"
Lily thought for a moment, "It would be too weird… When Remus gets here, I'll have him go get James. I want you to stay here with me."
Severus nodded, "Who do you want to be there with you, if James doesn't come?"
"You, even if James comes. I don't care anymore; I'll come up with something to tell him… He knows we're still friends, at least, and I could just tell him I was too pissed off at him to see him at the time."
"Lily baby, you know I can't do that… Let your Papa be with you. I'll see if I can at least be in the room with you, is that ok?"
Lily sighed, "Ok, but if I have any extra hand, you're taking it."
"Yes Ma'am."
Nearly two hours later, one of St. Mungo's doctors announced it was time. James still hadn't shown up; Remus said he was passed out cold and naked, just the way Lily and Severus had left him.
Each time she had a contraction, Lily screamed with pain. Dumbledore was on her left while Severus and Remus stood at her right, both Dumbledore and Severus holding onto her hands.
"GOD F-CKING DAMNIT! This HURTS!" Lily exclaimed, squeezing her eyes shut and pushing like the doctor in front of her was telling her to do.
"Severus, I swear to God if you ever put me through this again, I'll kill you." She muttered through clenched teeth. Severus' eyes widened and he tried to let go of her hand, but her grip was too tight.
"No you don't… You're staying right here. Remus, make sure he doesn't move. Bite him if you have to."
Remus laughed while Severus just glanced at him, halfway terrified of Lily.
"Lily, just breathe… I'll take care of James afterwards,
don't worry." Dumbledore said, patting her forehead down with a wet cloth.
"Papa, can you please kill him? Please? I'll make
sure no one knows, ok? Please?" Lily asked just as the doctor instructed
her to push once more.
"GOD DAMNIT! SEVERUS, YOU'RE DEAD!" Lily screamed, just as James burst through the door.
"Lily, sweetie… Move it…" James pushed Remus aside and tried to push Severus also, but Lily wouldn't let go of his hand.
"James, you have no idea how f-cking dead you are." She growled, glaring at him as she pushed one last time.
"I HATE YOU BOTH!" she screamed, just before another sound filled the room; the sound of a baby crying.
"Congratulations, Mrs. Potter. You have a baby boy." The doctor announced.
Lily smiled with relief through her tears and took the baby in her arms once the nurse had cleaned him up. She turned to her grandfather, who was smiling.
"What's his name, Papa?" she asked, offering the baby to him. Dumbledore took him, leaning down so far his nose just touched the baby's cheek.
"His name is Harry James Potter."