A/N: Ok, on the last one Heero said he doesn't believe her so this is what happens after that! Be nice to me, I'm trying my hardest. Love ya all ;)
"I was just so happy you were alive that I didn't have time to think…," Heero said with his eyes closed. Jessica's eyes where wide with shock.
"Heero, this is so random, how-"
"Jessica, I need some time to think ok," Heero turned around and walked out of the room.
"Heero!" Jessica called but he didn't answer. No, she thought softly to herself. She didn't know what to say, it was so all of a sudden. Jessica sniffed and looked down. 'This doesn't mean where finished does it? If not then what is he doing? 'Where am I going?' Jessica asked herself. She walked out of the room and down the halls to her room. She sat in there and turned on the radio. She sat on her bed, still in shock and picked up her pillow. She put it on her lap and looked down at it.
"Heero, I love you," She said to it. The pillow obviously didn't answer back. She didn't know what she was doing, talking to pillows and then them not answering, she needed hope. She chucked it across the room. Then she turned into the bed and sobbed for hours.
Heero peeked in to Jessica's room because he heard music. She was tearing and her eyes were closed her head tilted up to the ceiling and had her hands pressed against her heart. She was mouthing the words of the song. It sounded like men's voices talking like they would …never hurt her.
"And I promises you never, will you hurt anymore, I give you my word, I give you my heart. This is a battle we've won." at that verse, her silent tears turned to sobbing. She was crying. Heero looked at her sadly. Why did he have to say that? Look at her, she obviously loves him. 'But that's not the point what if she still… No she loves me too much to lie to me. ' Heero thought
Looking at her Heero started to tear. He wiped them away quickly.
"Every word I saw is true, this I promises you," that was the end of the song. She pressed a button, fell to her knees, and cried. She hide her face in her hands. Heero walked away. He put his hands in his pocket and he heard a voice.
"Hey, budddddddy!" Heero looked up to see Duo standing there holding a bag.
"Guess what I went out to the store and got! Porn! It's to improve your mood!"
Heero snorted. He highly doubted that that would help.
"Come on, you know you wanna watch! We're making it a guys thing!"
"IT already is a guy thing!" Heero retorted.
"No, I mean our guys thing! All the boys are going to watch it!" Duo said putting his hands on his hips.
"Including Wufei?" Heero asked puzzled.
"We had to drag him in, but he's there! All we need is you, the main event!"
"I can't believe you get Trowa and Quatre too! Well, maybe Trowa,"
"I'm good with people!" Duo said excitedly.
"Whatever, I'll come then," Heero followed Duo to the room with the TV. Trowa and Quatre were sitting on the couch and Wufei was standing against the wall.
"I can't believe I'm doing this," Wufei mumbled.
"Me neither!" Trowa said sitting back against the couch.
"Alright!" said Duo popping in the video and pressing play. He ran up to where Quatre was sitting and stole his pillow. Duo lay on the ground with the pillow under his arms, which were folded under his head.
"Ok, Duo I don't mind," Quatre said sarcastically.
" but sense he's so excited, I think it's better that he stays over there" Trowa said to silence Quatre. The movie started. By the next two seconds, all of the boy's mouths were wide open. A half of hour later, there was a loud knock on the door. There stood Jessica. She was scowling as she looked at the TV. Duo jumped up and turned it off. She sucked up her pride and started talking, but Heero could tell she was hurting inside.
"I just came to tell you that Hilde is on her way," Jessica frowned.
"Hilde?" Duo asked widened.
"We were just uh- " Quatre stuttered.
"She went out to calm down and should be here soon, Duo. So I suggest you throw that stuff out!" Jessica said she turned around quickly and left.
"Heero go after her!" Quatre said.
"No," Heero said looking at the ceiling. He got up and crossed the room stood against the wall with his arms folded and his eyes closed.
"Heero," Quatre said softly.
Jessica was walking quickly down the hall. ' I can't believe him… The nerve. I bet that was Duo's idea!' Jessica was saying to herself. "This base has no intelligent life!" Jessica said angrily. She stopped where she was and was in furious thought. Then in the middle of those thoughts, she smiled. She started laughing. She sat down against the wall and just laughed.
"Those- Gundam pilots, killing machines were watching were watching Porn!" She laughed. "Now I'll put myself back in the girlfriends place," she talking while moving her hands as if she was explaining something to someone. "Wow, now that I'm back in my place, it's not that funny, well, I'm not that mad anymore, but it's not hysterically funny like before. But still, Gundam boys watching porn!" she said starting out laughing again. Jessica knows when she hides her pain everything seems funny. Jessica was still hurting inside. She still couldn't believe that Heero doesn't believe her. Jessica just sat there for what seemed like hours until Hilde walked by.
"Hey Jess!" she said enthusiastically.
"Hi," Jessica said looking up at her. Hilde's smile faded when she saw the look on Jess's face.
"Tell me what's wrong," Hilde said sympathetically.
"Hilde, go on Duo's waiting for you!" Jessica said more happily so she will stop worrying. Hilde smiled and left.
Hilde's smile made Jessica feel like she's not alone. A couple minutes later Heero came walking toward her. Jessica was surprised, until she released that Hilde probably made him. Heero walked up to her and sat down besides her. They watched the wall, across them like it was a sunset. For a couple minutes, Heero said nothing. If Jessica was not so upset this would have been uncomfortable, but when she's upset she doesn't talk that much. Jessica knew that for Heero not talking was normal. Heero opened his mouth, then closed it as looking for words. Then he decided and started to speak.
"I was saying that, Jess, I can't apologize, it's not something I do, but here." Heero pulled the surprised Jessica into a kiss. It was one of those kisses that you know that will end up passionately. However, they pulled out of it. Heero starred at her hazel eyes. He released that they were actually green with brown around the pupil, the browness looked like a star. He wanted her by his side forever. She was beautiful and a challenge, which he loves to take on. He looked down at the ground.
"That doesn't mean that I forgive you," Jessica said matter-of-factly.
"No?" Heero asked looking up at her.
"No," Jessica repeated.
Jessica loved Heero more then anything or anyone she had ever loved. His eyes were so kind, but he had to be hard. She released that she is changing that over time. Maybe they're weren't made to be together. Maybe Jessica was just a lesson Heero had to take on to make him the man he will become. Then where does that leave Jessica? She couldn't imagine her life without Heero. And the boys, give her new challenges everyday ones she loves to take on too. No, they'll stay together as long as they can, and nothing can change that, can it? "I'm not going to think about that now," Jessica said to herself. She smiled at Heero's frustration to having to apologize.
"I don't let people get off this easily you should feel lucky," Jessica teased.
"Ok, I'm sorry," Heero said slowly. Jessica raised her eyebrows.
"Now, was that so hard?" she asked. "Let's go back," Jessica said leading the way. Heero caught up and hand in hand, they left. Jessica started thinking again about how they weren't made for each other again.
As they walked in Heero released something. Jessica doesn't have anything to say, and that's unusual, wonder what's wrong now? Heero asked himself.
"Jess?" Heero asked softly. "What's wrong?" He asked stopping. "Nothing I was just thinking," Jessica answered turning to Heero. She pulled a smile it was a normal smile but it didn't light up her eyes like her smiles usually do. Heero looked sideways at her.
"What were you thinking about?" he asked still looking straight ahead in the hall.
"You and me," Jessica answered. She had said it like she was drifting off and Heero knew that he wouldn't get anymore out of her. Heero put his arm tightly around her waist and continued walking. Jessica smiled this time it reached her eyes. 'we're meant for each other,' Jessica told herself.
Later that night Heero passed Jessica room while she was sleeping. She looked so peaceful and innocent, but Heero knows that once she wakes up, it's a different story. Heero just stood there in the doorway watching her sleep.
Jessica started to wake up, she didn't know why until she felt someone watching her. Jessica slowly slipped her hand under her pillow for her gun. She heard a familiar, comforting voice before she could reach it.
"You won't need that," Heero said quietly. Jessica turned around and faced Heero. She held out her arms and Heero walked forward to her to give her a hug. Jessica, taking Heero by surprise pulled him down on the bed next to her.
"Stay please," Jessica begged. Heero nodded. Jessica smiled in return. They laid there starring into eachother's eyes, not moving. Heero had his arm around her back and used to other to prop his head up. Jessica's heart was beating fast. She moved a bit closer to him. Heero pulled her in close so Jessica was right up against his heart, listening to it beat. Heero, of course had normal pulse.
Heero laid there with his girl of his dreams in his arms. He smiled, which was unnoticed by her because her head was in his chest. Heero could feel her heart betting. Never once had he ever been this close to someone in the name of love. He was falling so deeply for her. Heero didn't think that he'd ever get out, of this. That's if he ever wanted to, this was something so good that he wanted it to last forever. Heero reminded himself that nothing lasts forever. Then again, he never has known love before.
A/N I know they're fight and makeup is short but it's important to have, to show her personality and most importantly their bond and Heero's change. Thanks for reading and please review!!!!!!! I need some more!!! I deleted some, I'm sorry, to those people!!!!