Aimee
Sirius looked at Lily's bloody body back to the unconscious werewolf lying at his feet. In a moment's time, he scooped her up and slammed the door behind him. Muttering a few words, the world around them dissolved and he was standing in a corridor made of marble with stairs ascending up to the balcony of the second floor.
He quickly made his way to the nearly sofa and set her down as five house elves surrounded him almost instantly.
"SEVERUS!" he bellowed, "IF YOU'RE HERE, GET YOUR ASS DOWN HERE NOW!"
The house elves were tending to Lily the best they could, but the moment Severus appeared they scattered. He stepped forward, his eyes blazing as he viewed Lily for the first time.
"What the bloody hell happened?" he hissed, rushing to her side to inspect her arm.
"Remus bit her." Sirius said, his voice wobbling a bit. "We didn't have time to react, he just – "
"F-ck, it's the full moon, isn't it?" Severus groaned. "Damn it… Jubby, get me some bandages from the cabinets, and some of my healing potion."
The house elf he addressed disappeared with a crack, and Severus stretched out her arm, wincing as he saw the gashes and raw flesh.
"He got her good…" he said quietly, "Damnit, God f-cking damnit."
"I'm sorry." Sirius said, "I tried to pull him off of her in time, but – "
"Why did you let this happen?" Severus hissed, "Didn't you know the consequences?"
"Yes, of course, I pulled her into the house as soon –"
"Fool." Severus cut off. "God damnit, Sirius. She's f-cking pregnant."
Sirius's eyes widened. "Pardon?"
"You heard me." Severus said, his eyes darting over her wounds. "She's pregnant."
"How – " Sirius paused, "What?"
Severus then turned towards the trembling man. "Go back to Remus. Once dawn comes, bring him here."
Sirius nodded, "Yes… Shall I inform Dumbledore?"
"He should know, yes." Severus nodded, "But go."
With one last look at Lily, Sirius opened the double French oak doors and walked past the fence, Apparating back to Remus. Severus turned his attention back towards Lily and the bandages the house elf had brought.
He took a cloth and drenched it with Healing Solution, then dabbed it lightly over Lily's arm, watching the gazes and cuts heal before him. Once the process was over, he wrapped the limp limb in gauze soaked in another solution, to prevent scarring. Shaking his head, he then carried her back up to the Master Bedroom after instructing the house elves to clean up the blood.
He set her on the bed and pulled the blankets over her, then moved to the children's rooms, making sure they were soundly asleep. Once done, he went back to sit next to Lily's sleeping form, several half-thoughts crossing his mind, playing what if, and on several occasions, what he was going to do when he saw Remus.
He knew damn well it wasn't Remus's fault, but the need to put the blame on someone was far too great. Now, once a month, he would be here, taking care of the wolf that had overtaken his wife's body. The potion he had made Remus while he was still a teacher – Wolfsbane Potion – would be needed. He finally closed his eyes and fell into a troubled sleep, his dreams awaking him nearly every hour until dawn.
A knocking on the door brought Severus back into the conscious world just after 8 AM. He got up to open it, where Jubby the house elf was standing.
"Sir, a Remus Lupin and Sirius Black are here to see you." The elf bowed so low its nose was touching the ground. Severus nodded and brushed past the tiny creature, making his way down the stairs to where Remus and Sirius stood.
Remus was leaning up against the wall, his eyes closed and face pale. Sirius, however, was pacing the foyer, his arms crossed and mumbling to himself under his breath. With one look up at Severus, he stopped and touched Remus on the arm.
"Gentlemen." Severus nodded for them to follow him up the stairs, through the halls and to the Master Bedroom, where Lily was still sleeping. With one look at her, Remus groaned and hit his head against the wall.
"Damn me… Damn this life… Damn it." He muttered, clenching and unclenching his hands.
"Remus, stop that at once." Severus commanded. "That's the last thing I need right now, you killing yourself on my property."
"So anywhere else would be fine?" Remus challenged.
"Yes." Severus shot back. "Do you remember what happened?"
Remus shook his head, "No, but I do remember biting someone."
"If Sirius wasn't there, you would have killed her." Severus said quietly. "Do you agree?"
"Yes." Remus answered, his eyes locked on Lily. "Is she ok?"
Severus walked over to her, shaking his head, "No, she has yet to awake."
Sirius stepped forward, "You know damn well Remus didn't mean it."
Severus looked up at the tall, burly man. "Yes, I do know he couldn't help himself. The curse of the werewolf – a terrible thing he's just committed my wife to."
"Not on purpose, we all know." Remus sighed, "Why am I here?"
"Did Sirius tell you why exactly she wanted to speak with you last night?" Severus asked, trying to control his voice.
"No, he didn't." Remus said quietly, "But I'm sure you're about to."
"Quite right." Severus shot back, "Do you want to know or would you rather live our your existence without the burden?"
"What burden?" Remus asked hoarsely. "What are you talking about?"
"She's pregnant." Severus responded, looking back over at Lily. "Only Dumbledore knows who the father is, and he isn't speaking."
Remus's mouth stood agape for quite some time before he managed to pull himself back together. "You're f-cking with me."
Severus laughed bitterly, "I wish I was."
Remus shook his head, "Impossible… She can't be… That… God."
"Believe it." Severus sighed, "But you will never mention it around them. This is my child unless proved differently."
"Is this something you and Lily agreed on?" Remus asked quietly.
"Yes." Severus said, "You are allowed to see the child, but it will never be spoken under this roof that he or she might be yours. Is that understood?"
"Yes." Remus said quietly. "And if the child has brown hair and blue eyes?"
"We'll cross that bridge when we come to it." Severus said. "However, if the child has black hair and green eyes, or red hair and black eyes… if it shares any of my traits, even a blue eyed, black haired child, it will be mine unless Dumbledore tells us otherwise. Is that quite clear?"
"Yes." Remus said once more. "But I will be able to see it?"
"You will be dubbed Godfather, if you want. But, this is my child."
"Yes, I understand that." Remus said, "What about Lily?"
"I have easy access to the Wolfsbane potion." Severus said, "She will be fine with it."
Remus shook his head, "The pain – the torture of transforming, do you believe she can handle it?"
Severus looked at his wife once more, his face relaxing a bit. "She's strong. If she needs it, I will give her a remedy for pain."
Remus sighed. "From now on, she is an outcast to the rest of the wizarding world."
"I am quite aware of that." Severus snapped. "No one will know. Only the four of us and Dumbledore. That's final."
Both Sirius and Remus nodded this time before Severus ushered them out of the room.
"I will have Jubby see you off. Remember, not a word." Severus said quietly, guiding them to the staircase.
Remus turned around before Severus left to go back to Lily. "Severus, I'm sorry."
Severus nodded, "I know you are, and trust me, I'm trying my hardest not to blame you."
Remus nodded, "Thank you."
Severus merely nodded, then turned back down the hall towards Lily. He sighed as he closed the door behind him, looking at his wife's sleeping form.
"Damn it… Damn it, damn it, damn it Lily. How the
bloody hell are we going to get through this one?"
In my last years with him there were bruises
On my face
In my dawn and new day
I finally got away
But my head's all messed up and he knows
Just what to say
No more dawn and new days
I'm goin back to stay
Why say bye bye
When it only makes me cry
I still
Light up like a candle burnin when he call me up
I still
Melt down like a candle burnin everytime we touch
Oh say what you will
He does me wrong and I should be gone
I still
Be lovin you baby and it's much too much
We are goin down
Cuz you're always getting high
And your crumb and lovin
No longer get me by
Wow! It get better everytime that we get high
Then your crumbs of lovin
They somehow get me by
Why say bye bye
When it only makes me cry
I still
Light up like a candle burnin when he call me up
I still
Melt down like a candle burnin everytime we touch
Oh say what you will
He does me wrong and I should be gone
I still
Be lovin you baby and it's much too much
Can't I go my severed way?
Some rain for my sunny day
Not even one reason to say
Why?
I should've left you
Why?
I can't forgetcha baby
Why?
Ever since I mathca it's
Why?*
*Macy Gray, Still
(James' relationship with Lily, NOT Severus or Remus'. Only fifty
or sixy chapters too late...)