Aimee
She's dead.
The words didn't quite register as Harry heard them. However, Remus, who was standing next to him, gasped and Severus stepped forward, handing Remus the baby he was holding, and Remus in turn gave the wrinkled thing to Harry, who was now holding both of the twins.
His mind numb, he looked down at the two of them; one with black hair and green eyes, the other with red hair and blue eyes barely open. In the back of his mind, Harry sighed, knowing it would be impossible to tell now; the babies had features of both men.
She's dead.
Harry shook his head, his mind entering reality once more.
Your mother's dead. She just died. She's gone. She's lying there, on the bed, dead. Her body's there, but she's gone. Her mind's gone. She's dead.
Harry let out a small sob, sinking to the floor. He did so with slight care, making sure both of the twins were supported in his trembling arms.
She's dead. Gone forever. What are you going to do now? James Potter is dead. Lily Snape is dead. They were your parents. They're dead. You have no one.
No… I have Dad…
He's not your real Dad.
I don't care… He's still there… Oh God.
The tears started flowing now, and Harry choked on
his sobs, sighing with relief as he blacked out.
Severus let out a small gasp and quickly handed Remus the baby he was holding. Shaking his head and massaging his temples, his mind screamed out.
Lily… Love… PLEASE say you can hear me… Please.
The longest moment of Severus' life past in that period of time, waiting for Lily's voice to reach him… any sign… she couldn't be dead. It was impossible.
Severus shook his head, anger raging in his eyes. Pushing the nurses and doctors aside, he walked over to his wife's body, his hands trembling. Looking down at her pale face, he allowed his fingers to slowly graze over her check before violently slamming his fist down on her chest.
"DAMNIT, Lily… Wake up. Please…" he begged, slamming his fist down once, twice, three times more. He vaguely thought of the bruise his fist was going to leave before the seriousness of the situation overtook him.
"God f-cking damnit…"
Lily… listen… Love, please hear me. Please… I'm begging you… Be in there… I love you, please…
He slammed his fist down four times, five times, six.
You have to… You're not gone, you can't be… I'm here. Please, it's Severus… Listen to me.
Seven times, eight times, nine.
I can't… Lily, you have to be there… Please, love… You have to be… I can't live without you… Please. I'll die. You're NOT dead… Please…
Ten times, eleven times, twelve.
On the twelfth time, a gasping sound was heard throughout the room, followed by a choking sound.
Sev? Sev… Sev? What… Sev?
Lily…? Oh God, hold on baby…
"She's alive!" Severus shouted as he turned towards the doctors and nurses, who were all rushing towards the table once more. "She's ok…"
He backed away slowly, his mind numb.
Sev? What happened?
Oh God… Lily, love. You just died.
What…? Sev?
Lily… You're ok now. You're alive… You just died… God, you're ok.
Where am I?
You're here, baby. You're here…
What happened? Sev… Where are you?
Behind the doctors, love… You died, but… Oh God,
you're ok.
How…?
I don't know, love.
The twins?
Alive and well.
Where?
Harry and Remus –
Harry's here? Remus' here?
Yes, love.
Where? I want to see you… I want to see them… I can't move though… help?
Lie still, Lily… It'll be ok… They're working on you. You're gonna be ok.
I feel empty.
You'll be ok… God, I love you Lily.
I died?
Yes, you died. But you're ok now… You're alive.
I saw Papa.
You saw… when?
Just now… Before… I don't know. He was there, with my Mum and Dad. He hugged me, but then… I don't know.
You're ok now…
Tell them to get off me. It hurts..
You just had the twins, love. It's going to hurt.
I want to sleep.
Let them work on you.
I hurt, James…
Severus froze, his eyes widening.
I'm not James.
Sev?
Yes, Lil… I'm Severus.
But…
Calm down, take a deep breath.
They're all around me… Tell them to leave.
I can't, love.
Why not?
They're helping you.
They're making it worse.
It'll get better.
It hurts… Please, Sev.
Love… Lily… I can't.
What's happening?
They're backing away… Are you ok?
I don't know.
As soon as the doctors and nurses started backing away, Severus reached for Lily's cold hand. Turning to the nearest doctor, he choked a bit.
"Is she going to be ok?"
The doctor nodded, "What ever you just did, Mr. Snape… You saved her."
Severus breathed in deeply, "What happened to her? Why did she do that?"
"We're not sure." Another doctor replied. "However,
her heartbeat's steady and her breathing pattern seems normal."
"Is she going to live?" Severus asked quietly, looking
down at his wife's ashen face.
"Unless something else happens beyond our control…
yes."
Severus breathed in a sigh of relief. "Harry?"
"I think he fainted." Remus said quietly from the back wall of the room, wiping the back of his hand against his red eyes.
"God damn it…" Severus grumbled slightly, turning towards his son holding the twins. "And the twins?"
"Healthy." The doctor that had delivered them answered, "Two healthy baby boys."
"Could someone please take them and wake Harry up?" Severus asked quietly as the doctors bid farewell. Two nurses obliged, one taking the twins and another taping Harry with her wand.
"Wha-" Harry started, throwing his torso forward. "Mum?"
"She's ok." Severus said as Remus helped the boy up. "She's alive."
"I thought…" Harry teared up once more, causing Severus to sniff slightly.
"She's ok now."
Harry didn't waste any time getting over to the bed and taking his mother's right hand. Severus touched her cheek softly, fighting against the tears.
She's ok now…
Of course I am… I'm so tired though… Is that Harry?
Yes, he's on your right. I'm on your left.
Where's Remus?
You only have two hands, love.
Where is he?
Severus turned towards Remus once more, beckoning him forward. "She wants to know you're here."
"You're talking to her?" Harry asked softly. Severus nodded.
Tell Harry I love him.
"She says she loves you."
Harry beamed, clasping her hand tighter in his own. "I love you too, Mum."
What about the twins? Are they yours? Please say they are.
I'm not sure, love.
"Harry, Remus. Did you happen to notice the twins' features?" Severus asked carefully, avoiding Remus' gaze.
"One with black hair and green eyes, the other a red head with blue eyes." Harry said softly.
"Shit…" Severus swore, closing his eyes tightly.
Oh God… I'm sorry, Sev.