Aimee
Looking Remus in the eyes – that had to be the hardest thing she had ever done. Hands shaking slightly, she looked over at her three sons and sighed.
"Are you sure you want to know? It could be the difference between – everything." Severus said, his voice even.
Remus' eyes widened and he looked fearful.
You'd only say that if…
If what, Remus?
If…
I don't know what Pollux and Castor want. For all I know, Pollux might absolutely adore the idea of you being Dad.
He doesn't, I'm sure.
How can you be? Human emotions are a funny thing.
Severus… I would die of shock if either of them could even fathom the idea.
Yes, as would I.
When are you going to tell them?
Right now, if they wish.
Both Castor and Pollux nodded, Pollux rocking back and forth slightly.
"I suppose it really doesn't matter." Castor shrugged, looking from Severus to Remus. "I mean, it's be weird, but not all that different."
All three adults nodded at the same time. "This is what it all boils down to." Lily said quietly, holding up an old piece of parchment. "This letter, given to me by your Headmistress, written by my grandfather."
Both Castor and Pollux eyed it suspiciously. "How did he know?"
"He was the greatest wizard of all times." Severus said, "He knew damn near everything there was to know about – well, everything."
"Not true," Lily shook her head, "He didn't know everything… but he knew more than any other human walking the planet, Muggle or Wizard."
"So he knew about this?" Castor asked, waving his hand in the general direction of his parents.
"He knew about you even before I did." Lily laughed slightly, her nervousness finally getting to her. "Well, I had an idea, but I wasn't sure in the least."
"Are you sure you want to know?" Severus asked once more, "Do you feel as if you'd be crushed if it went one way or the other?"
"No," Pollux said quietly, looking down at his hands then raising his blue eyes to meet Severus' black once. "We want to know."
Lily nodded and then looked over at Remus. "We decided to tell you guys separately. Is that ok?"
Remus nodded just as the twins shrugged. Lily then stood up and beckoned Remus to follow her.
As the two left the room, Severus leaned forward a bit and grinned broadly. "Well, I guess it looks like you two aren't going to be able to get rid of me all that soon."
Pollux's eyes widened as his father's words sunk in. He immediately grabbed Castor's arm and pulled him up, then dragged his twin over to Severus, who met him with a hug.
"Thank God!" Pollux murmured, clutching Severus as if he were a three year old.
"You mean…?" Harry suddenly asked, looking only mildly shocked. Severus nodded once more, and Harry grinned, then jumped in to join their embrace.
Draco shifted around for a moment, looking fairly uncomfortable, before Severus spoke again.
"You too, Draco. You're family as well."
Draco grinned and went up, wrapping his arms more
around Harry than the rest of them. Looking over at his best friend with
green eyes, Harry grinned once more and pulled his left arm out from between
the twins, putting it around Draco's shoulders as Draco nuzzled his neck
slightly.
Lily led Remus up the stairs, almost wishing she had let Severus tell him. She wasn't sure if he would be disappointed or happy, and she wasn't sure if she even wanted to know.
Opening the door to the master bedroom triggered a series of flashbacks for both Lily and Remus; both had remembered the night, nearly sixteen years before, that had set a rift in the friendship for much more time than should have been allowed. Both remembered the feelings they had when she had been bitten; both remembered the emotions that had run high when Lily nearly died giving birth to the twins Remus was terrified he had given her.
Lily closed the door behind her and sat down on one of the armchairs, beckoning for Remus to do the same. He did, but immediately looked around, painfully aware of Lily's eyes on his body.
"Are you sure you want to know?" Lily asked, her voice fairly even. Remus nodded, looking at her with an expression she had only seen once before on his face.
"It'll kill me if you don't tell me." Remus answered softly, eyes bearing into Lily's.
"Which would you rather it be?" Lily asked, "Would you rather have Severus as the father, or yourself?"
"Severus." Remus answered without a moment's hesitation. "It would absolutely kill me to know I helped you make something that could possibly destroy your marriage."
Lily shook her head, "Severus and I both agree before we opened the letter that it wouldn't matter. He had raised them, and if they were yours, it would be up to both you and the twins to decide the course of action."
"And?" Remus asked, hands trembling.
Lily shook her head, "You have nothing to worry about. Papa just made Severus the happiest man in the world."
Remus sighed with relief, eyes rolling into the back of his head slightly. "Thank you God."
Lily allowed the man in front of her to sit blissfully for a moment before speaking again. "Do you love me?"
Remus sat up abruptly at this question. As he saw the honesty in her eyes, he nodded slowly.
"Yes. I never stopped."
Lily smiled once more, then leaned forward until she was less than six inches away from his face. "Do you want me?"
Remus blinked at the blunt question, but once again, he nodded. "Yes."
Lily leaned forward once more, stealing the space that had been between them. Kissing him softly, she allowed her lips to linger on his for a moment before speaking.
"Severus and I made a deal." She said, her voice barely above a whisper. "He got the twins – you, if you want, get me."
Remus' eyes widened in surprise. "Pardon?"
"As many times as you feel you need." Lily continued, eyes still connected with Remus'. "We both know we love each other. What I realized today was that it's entirely possible to love two people at the same time, equally as much."
She kissed him once more, watching as his body visibly relaxed. "If you don't want to, I understand. However, we both know we want, and even perhaps need this."
Before she could speak another word, Remus silenced her with another kiss. This one lasted far longer than the others, and it was so intense Remus didn't hear the door open and shut, nor did he hear the locking spell whispered quietly.
He did, however, notice when Lily coaxed him to stand up as she started to undo the buttons of his robes. He also noticed when a pair of arms wrapped around Lily's midsection, their hands touching his own stomach lightly, as his and Lily's bodies were so close together.
Breaking the kiss and opening his eyes, he started to step back when he saw Severus' form standing behind Lily, who was looking up at Remus as she unbuttoned his robes.
"Just for tonight." Lily whispered to him as she undid the last button and gently pushed the robes off his shoulders. Her robes were on the ground in a moment as well; Severus had helped her with that.
Remus didn't have a chance to respond. In less than a second, Lily's lips were once again pressed against his own. He didn't have time to think as her tongue slipped between his own lips, and from that moment on, he lost himself in her. He didn't care that her husband was right behind her, undressing her and himself equally as much as Lily undressed him, nor did he care when Lily turned around and met with Severus, leaving him to work on the spot on her neck Severus had started.
Nothing seemed to matter anymore; Lily divided her time equally between the two men, and Severus hadn't shown a single sign of jealousy. The three of them, in fact, seemed to be enjoying it. Remus had watched in amazement as husband and wife worked at each other expertly, seeming to know their partner's move before the action had even started. Severus, on the other hand, had watched with amusement as Lily worked her magic on Remus, making him respond to her every move.
The candles encircling the room suddenly dimmed with a wave of Lily's wand before she set it down one last time, discarding her bra along with it. She was facing Remus at this time, and she immediately recognized his expression – it was the same one Severus had given her so many years ago, the first time they had slept together.
"Relax." Lily whispered to Remus as she guided both
men to the bed. No longer could she tell one man from the other; they were
the same.
I want you to want me
Jump in let's go
I need you to need me
Sit back and enjoy the show
I'd love you to love me
There are miles to go
I'm beggin' you to beg me
There are miles to go
I want you to want me
This could be the night
I need you to need me
The only night
I'd love you to love me
But something you should know
I'll shine up my old brown shoes
I don't want you to want me
I'll put on a brand new shirt
'Cause I'll hurt you in the end
I'll come home early from work
I don't need you to need me
If you say that you love me
Tonight I'll hold you tight
But I won't come back again
Didn't I didn't I didn't I see you cryin'
Come back again
Oh, didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you cryin'
Feeling all alone without a friend you know you feel like dyin'
Don't think it's wrong
Oh, didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you cryin
I just need somebody
And life goes on
I want you to want me
And life goes on
I need you to need me
I'd love you to love me
Stay with me tonight, this only night
I'm beggin' you to beg me
Don't forget you know
I'll shine up my old brown shoes
I don't want you to want me
I'll put on a brand new shirt
'Cause I'll hurt you in the end
I'll come home early from work
I don't need you to need me tonight I'll hold you tight
If you say that you love me
But I won't come back again
Didn't I, didn't I,
Stay with me tonight, this only night
Didn't I see you cryin'
Don't forget you know
Didn't I didn't I, didn't I see you cryin
I don't want you to want me
Feeling all alone without a friend you know you feel like dyin'
Cause I'll hurt you in the end
Oh, didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you cryin
I don't need you to need me
I want you to want me
Tonight I'll hold you tight
I need you to need me
But I won't come back again
I'd love you to love me
Come back again
I'm beggin' you to beg me
Yeah well I don't need you to need me
I want you to want me
Tonight I'll hold you tight
I want you to want me...*
But I won't come back again...**
*I Want You To Want Me, Cheap Trick
**I Don't Want You To Want Me, The Moffatts
(That took forever... :o) )