Emerald Deception
Chapter 3: A Change of Heart
By: Moonlightbaby58
e-mail: moonlightbaby58@hotmail.com
Disclaimer: All rights and reserves go to Clamp
AN: I put up the first two chapters of this story today and within hours I had tons of feedback of readers reviewing wanting more. On my first story I only received 3 reviews but between The Emotion Card and Emerald Deception I am very humbled at your praises. Yes there will be two more sequels to the Emotion card. And I am 1/3 done with this story. Thank you to all that reviewed my story. I'm very sorry about my mis-spelling. I'm the worse speller in the World. I will try to be extra careful on this chapter. Well I'll get to the good part of the page the continuation of Emerald Deception.
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I sigh against the door as Shoran and I depart for the night. "To bad he's the enemy, he's such a nice guy! We could have been great friends." I whisper to myself. I walk to my dresser and pull out a nightgown I change into it. I turn off the light and snuggle into the sheets. I was so near to sleep when I suddenly thought about Kero would have loved Shoran's cooking.
I bolt from the bed. "Oh my gosh Kero! I totally forgot to report on my mission. "Oh, Kero's probably having kittens! I reach under my pillow and grab the Create card. "Create! I command you to open a communication link to Kero and fast!" I mutter the last part. I prepare for the worst.
"Sakura! Where have you been?" I look into the smoke filled image of Kero and Madison that Create has made.
"Hi Kero! Hi Madison! How you been?" I ask in that cute voice of mine, ignoring Kero's question.
"Look here little girl! You are the Clow mistress. Your on one of your most important missions, you can't be messing around!"
"Oh Kero, leave her alone! I'm sure she hasn't had time nor the privacy to contact us till now. Right Sakura?" Madison bubbled.
"That's right Madison! Well the first part of my mission is complete. Now all I need to do is gain the Li's trust to get one of them to tell me where the Clow cards are, I then will take them back and I'll be home in no time. Give me about three to four months!"
"Do you really think they'll tell you where the Clow cards are?" Madison questioned.
"They have taken me in as an adopted daughter. Yes I think so. And once they do I'll be home in twenty four hours!" I reply.
"Good work Sakura! I knew I could count on you!" Kero cheered.
I smile. "You take care Sakura. Try and stay out of trouble! Okay?" Madison suggested.
"Yeah Sakura Expect the un-expected." Kero recited his famous phrase to her.
"I always do Kero!" They disappear as the connection closes. Create returns to it's card form and settles in my lap. I wrap it in the silk with the others and place it under my pillow. I then try to settle to sleep all over again.
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I've always been considered to be a happy person. Care free, and a smile on my face where ever I go. But usually it's just an act so that no one will see how truly unhappy I really am. But for the first time in a long time I am divinely happy. I've been here for a month already; I have yet to locate the Clow cards. But Femei and I are close friends. She plays the role of Madison for me here in Hong Kong. And Syaoran… my beloved lone wolf. How much he has come to mean to me.
He is such a dear friend to me. It's hurting and deceiving him that makes my mission the hardest. But I must stop at nothing. My very honor is at stake here. Oh how my heart aches to know that this new found happiness of mine is not to last. Having no family. I don't mean to but I think again of the capture of the fire card. The tears still fresh with the memory of my once happy family. But I must remain cold and heartless I am on a mission and I must fulfill it! I only deceive the Li family because they deceived me.
I'm at war with my self! My emotions beg me not to this, and my sense of duty commands that I complete my task. I have no choice my destiny, as the Clow mistress is far more important then any silly emotion as guilt and regret. I can't help but wonder why Clow Reed played such a horrible joke on me, by making me the Clow mistress. I look in the mirror and see someone I don't want to see. A con artist pretending to have lost her memory only to achieve her own desires.
I'm a horrible person but I am the Clow mistress and a Clow mistress needs her Clow cards. And if they have been stolen it means that by any means possible she must re-capture them from the enemy. As much as it hurts to edmit it, and no matter how wonderful the Li's have been to me, they gave the order to steal my cards! If they knew I was the Clow mistress they would not be so hospitable. Oh how the Clow cards have changed me! I used to be such a kind, warm person! And now I am a cold, heartless witch! I am not proud of the person I have become. But in the end, Kero, the Clow cards, Clow Reed, and Yue himself decided that the protection of the Clow cards rest on my shoulders.
Seeing a world without love could make a person relentless and even if it means sacrificing my own sense of love and happiness for a world to remain the way it is, filled with love and hope, then so be it. It is my fate. A destiny I can not deny!
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Later that night…
Femei sits on my bed chatting away as usual. "I'm going to miss you Sakura when we leave tomorrow for the "Season"! I mean a whole two weeks without these little chats of ours."
"Yes, I know what you mean, I don't know what I am going to do with out you." I smile truly meaning what I say.
"Oh, you'll do just fine doll! You'll have a handsome prince to keep you company." Femei giggles.
I giggle with her and reply. "Yes, but there are things that I can't tell Syaoran-kun. For obvious reasons."
"I don't see why! You're in love with him!" Femei said absent-mindedly.
At first I am in shock I didn't know what to say and when I did find my voice to speak it came out in stutters. "Femei… I don't love… Syaoran-kun… he's just a…"
"Friend" Femei finishes. She gives me this sure whatever look and continues. "Look Sakura I mean you might be able to hide it from every one else and Syaoran-kun himself. But I am a powerful magician I can read the destiny of others. That's my power and even though you've lost your memory and there's some kind of block from me reading all of yours, I still get pieces of the puzzle. Weather or not you or Syaoran want to edmit it your destined to be together. Because of the block I consulted the stars to be sure. I am 100% sure in my prediction."
I pale.
*Flash back*
"My mother and I can create thing and command the basic forces of nature. Fuutie can read minds, Shiefa can command the Earth to grow anything, Fanran has the power to heal, and Femei can sense things. She has one of the most powerful magic's and the most difficult to deal with."
"Why?"
"She can tell when a person is going to be born, die, or when a couple is meant to be together. Her magic is strong and she is never ever wrong." Syaoran whispered.
* End of Flash Back*
"Please tell me your wrong!" I beg.
"I'm sorry I won't lie to you Sakura. I don't have the slightest doubt that I'm wrong. I will tell you one thing not all couples are decreed by the stars. Only true soul mates the Gods have willed together."
"I'm cursed! I'm cursed!" I mumble with the dawn of relization that I am in love with the enemy!
"No Sakura! Your blessed! What Syaoran-kun and you have Sakura-chan is a blessing! A blessing from the Gods." Femei cries.
I look up at her with tears in my eyes. "Soul mates do not always come together and live happily ever after do they?"
Femei sighs. "Yes that is true. Sometimes upon finding each other and finally being made whole is too much for either to deal with. Certain circumstances lead to the couple's destruction. They live out the remainder of their lives apart, never whole again. Always trying to fill the void in their heart that can not be filled. Neither one will ever be completely happy again."
I swallow the lump in my throat. "I do love him don't I?" I quiver.
"Yes, Sakura Blossom you do. He is not your first love I sense that, but he will be your last. You will never fall in love with another person again. At least not romantically." Femei promised.
"Then I am doomed for all time!" I spat.
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It's been two hours since Femei left me to retire for the night. I can not explain to you in words what it like to know you will never be completely happy again all because some stars decide to play a huge cosmic joke on you. Knowing what I know now changes nothing! I will complete my mission no matter what!
But that gives my soul no comfort. I begin to cry in deep agony and self-pity.
It's an hour later when I finally can subside my tears. "If I will never love or be complete again then I will take advantage of the situation now. I will enjoy bliss for at least one moment in time." And with that thought I drifted into a restless sleep. A sleep of no comfort of what tomorrow would bring.
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AN. Wow deep! I'm sorry it took me so long to type out this chapter. I'm writing this story and skipping parts and chapters in it also writing a sequel to the Emotion card, which to those of you who read it, I am halfway done with that story. "The Reality Card" will soon be a reality. But thank you for your patience. I hope my spelling and grammar where better this time. Thank you again to all who reviewed my story! I hope you like the story so far. Well let me quite chatting and start typing the 4th chapter: One Night for Love. I promise it's going to be pure S+S mush!
Chapter 3: A Change of Heart
By: Moonlightbaby58
e-mail: moonlightbaby58@hotmail.com
Disclaimer: All rights and reserves go to Clamp
AN: I put up the first two chapters of this story today and within hours I had tons of feedback of readers reviewing wanting more. On my first story I only received 3 reviews but between The Emotion Card and Emerald Deception I am very humbled at your praises. Yes there will be two more sequels to the Emotion card. And I am 1/3 done with this story. Thank you to all that reviewed my story. I'm very sorry about my mis-spelling. I'm the worse speller in the World. I will try to be extra careful on this chapter. Well I'll get to the good part of the page the continuation of Emerald Deception.
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I sigh against the door as Shoran and I depart for the night. "To bad he's the enemy, he's such a nice guy! We could have been great friends." I whisper to myself. I walk to my dresser and pull out a nightgown I change into it. I turn off the light and snuggle into the sheets. I was so near to sleep when I suddenly thought about Kero would have loved Shoran's cooking.
I bolt from the bed. "Oh my gosh Kero! I totally forgot to report on my mission. "Oh, Kero's probably having kittens! I reach under my pillow and grab the Create card. "Create! I command you to open a communication link to Kero and fast!" I mutter the last part. I prepare for the worst.
"Sakura! Where have you been?" I look into the smoke filled image of Kero and Madison that Create has made.
"Hi Kero! Hi Madison! How you been?" I ask in that cute voice of mine, ignoring Kero's question.
"Look here little girl! You are the Clow mistress. Your on one of your most important missions, you can't be messing around!"
"Oh Kero, leave her alone! I'm sure she hasn't had time nor the privacy to contact us till now. Right Sakura?" Madison bubbled.
"That's right Madison! Well the first part of my mission is complete. Now all I need to do is gain the Li's trust to get one of them to tell me where the Clow cards are, I then will take them back and I'll be home in no time. Give me about three to four months!"
"Do you really think they'll tell you where the Clow cards are?" Madison questioned.
"They have taken me in as an adopted daughter. Yes I think so. And once they do I'll be home in twenty four hours!" I reply.
"Good work Sakura! I knew I could count on you!" Kero cheered.
I smile. "You take care Sakura. Try and stay out of trouble! Okay?" Madison suggested.
"Yeah Sakura Expect the un-expected." Kero recited his famous phrase to her.
"I always do Kero!" They disappear as the connection closes. Create returns to it's card form and settles in my lap. I wrap it in the silk with the others and place it under my pillow. I then try to settle to sleep all over again.
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I've always been considered to be a happy person. Care free, and a smile on my face where ever I go. But usually it's just an act so that no one will see how truly unhappy I really am. But for the first time in a long time I am divinely happy. I've been here for a month already; I have yet to locate the Clow cards. But Femei and I are close friends. She plays the role of Madison for me here in Hong Kong. And Syaoran… my beloved lone wolf. How much he has come to mean to me.
He is such a dear friend to me. It's hurting and deceiving him that makes my mission the hardest. But I must stop at nothing. My very honor is at stake here. Oh how my heart aches to know that this new found happiness of mine is not to last. Having no family. I don't mean to but I think again of the capture of the fire card. The tears still fresh with the memory of my once happy family. But I must remain cold and heartless I am on a mission and I must fulfill it! I only deceive the Li family because they deceived me.
I'm at war with my self! My emotions beg me not to this, and my sense of duty commands that I complete my task. I have no choice my destiny, as the Clow mistress is far more important then any silly emotion as guilt and regret. I can't help but wonder why Clow Reed played such a horrible joke on me, by making me the Clow mistress. I look in the mirror and see someone I don't want to see. A con artist pretending to have lost her memory only to achieve her own desires.
I'm a horrible person but I am the Clow mistress and a Clow mistress needs her Clow cards. And if they have been stolen it means that by any means possible she must re-capture them from the enemy. As much as it hurts to edmit it, and no matter how wonderful the Li's have been to me, they gave the order to steal my cards! If they knew I was the Clow mistress they would not be so hospitable. Oh how the Clow cards have changed me! I used to be such a kind, warm person! And now I am a cold, heartless witch! I am not proud of the person I have become. But in the end, Kero, the Clow cards, Clow Reed, and Yue himself decided that the protection of the Clow cards rest on my shoulders.
Seeing a world without love could make a person relentless and even if it means sacrificing my own sense of love and happiness for a world to remain the way it is, filled with love and hope, then so be it. It is my fate. A destiny I can not deny!
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Later that night…
Femei sits on my bed chatting away as usual. "I'm going to miss you Sakura when we leave tomorrow for the "Season"! I mean a whole two weeks without these little chats of ours."
"Yes, I know what you mean, I don't know what I am going to do with out you." I smile truly meaning what I say.
"Oh, you'll do just fine doll! You'll have a handsome prince to keep you company." Femei giggles.
I giggle with her and reply. "Yes, but there are things that I can't tell Syaoran-kun. For obvious reasons."
"I don't see why! You're in love with him!" Femei said absent-mindedly.
At first I am in shock I didn't know what to say and when I did find my voice to speak it came out in stutters. "Femei… I don't love… Syaoran-kun… he's just a…"
"Friend" Femei finishes. She gives me this sure whatever look and continues. "Look Sakura I mean you might be able to hide it from every one else and Syaoran-kun himself. But I am a powerful magician I can read the destiny of others. That's my power and even though you've lost your memory and there's some kind of block from me reading all of yours, I still get pieces of the puzzle. Weather or not you or Syaoran want to edmit it your destined to be together. Because of the block I consulted the stars to be sure. I am 100% sure in my prediction."
I pale.
*Flash back*
"My mother and I can create thing and command the basic forces of nature. Fuutie can read minds, Shiefa can command the Earth to grow anything, Fanran has the power to heal, and Femei can sense things. She has one of the most powerful magic's and the most difficult to deal with."
"Why?"
"She can tell when a person is going to be born, die, or when a couple is meant to be together. Her magic is strong and she is never ever wrong." Syaoran whispered.
* End of Flash Back*
"Please tell me your wrong!" I beg.
"I'm sorry I won't lie to you Sakura. I don't have the slightest doubt that I'm wrong. I will tell you one thing not all couples are decreed by the stars. Only true soul mates the Gods have willed together."
"I'm cursed! I'm cursed!" I mumble with the dawn of relization that I am in love with the enemy!
"No Sakura! Your blessed! What Syaoran-kun and you have Sakura-chan is a blessing! A blessing from the Gods." Femei cries.
I look up at her with tears in my eyes. "Soul mates do not always come together and live happily ever after do they?"
Femei sighs. "Yes that is true. Sometimes upon finding each other and finally being made whole is too much for either to deal with. Certain circumstances lead to the couple's destruction. They live out the remainder of their lives apart, never whole again. Always trying to fill the void in their heart that can not be filled. Neither one will ever be completely happy again."
I swallow the lump in my throat. "I do love him don't I?" I quiver.
"Yes, Sakura Blossom you do. He is not your first love I sense that, but he will be your last. You will never fall in love with another person again. At least not romantically." Femei promised.
"Then I am doomed for all time!" I spat.
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It's been two hours since Femei left me to retire for the night. I can not explain to you in words what it like to know you will never be completely happy again all because some stars decide to play a huge cosmic joke on you. Knowing what I know now changes nothing! I will complete my mission no matter what!
But that gives my soul no comfort. I begin to cry in deep agony and self-pity.
It's an hour later when I finally can subside my tears. "If I will never love or be complete again then I will take advantage of the situation now. I will enjoy bliss for at least one moment in time." And with that thought I drifted into a restless sleep. A sleep of no comfort of what tomorrow would bring.
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AN. Wow deep! I'm sorry it took me so long to type out this chapter. I'm writing this story and skipping parts and chapters in it also writing a sequel to the Emotion card, which to those of you who read it, I am halfway done with that story. "The Reality Card" will soon be a reality. But thank you for your patience. I hope my spelling and grammar where better this time. Thank you again to all who reviewed my story! I hope you like the story so far. Well let me quite chatting and start typing the 4th chapter: One Night for Love. I promise it's going to be pure S+S mush!