Dear Faith

Dear Faith

By Lily Livered

Note: I think this went somewhere without me, that I didn't really mean for it to go. Bleah.

Thank you to everyone who reviewed the first few chapters, you gave me big happies :-)

And Meada, I just want to defend my use of the word wicked -- Faith was the one using it, and I don't think she's from California. (Does anyone know where she's from?) Also, she's used it before on the show.

Sorry this is so short :-)

I knew she'd come.

When Xander told me that he was writing to Faith to ask her to come back and be the Slayer again, I knew that she would. Come back I mean. Okay... so I hoped she would. Because having Faith here, with her being one of the good guys again, it would be like someone had pressed the rewind button on my life, and we could all go back to the times when Angel and Faith were around, before Oz and Cordy left... When everybody was happy. And alive.

And it's dumb, because in my head I know that none of that stuff really happened, that it was all part of a spell. But in my heart, I can remember the times when Faith and I would hang out and bitch about how much it sucked to live in Buffy's shadow, or when she would be there if I needed to go to a friend's house at night and Buffy was to busy to walk me. I liked how she called me 'Little D', and how much it bugged Buffy when she called her 'B'.

When I try not to think about all the magic, I can almost believe that it all really happened. Some of it probably did, just without me.

But I figure that Faith, Xander, Giles, everyone... They all have the same memories that I have, and they all accept them as being real, and me as being real. I think I'm the only one who can't do that 24/7. And sometimes I worry that one day everyone will wake up and I'll be gone. And that no one will know that I'm gone because the spell wore off and they've all forgotten me.

But if Faith's here, I'll feel safer. Because whether she likes it or not there's a piece of Buffy inside her, the Slayer piece, and I think she owes it to Buffy to come back here and protect the world that Buffy died to save, and to save the people that Buffy died to protect.