Without You

by BlueIce

the sequel of Yamato's Song; someone writes a letter to Yama, someone that feels guilty and empty inside. sad.

Disclaimer= the same. I don't own anything. Digimon is Toei and Bandai's and the song "Without you" is Mariah Carey's. I'm really getting tired of put always a disclaimer! and don't do that if you don't want! yeah, so they can arrest me for plagiarism it would be a beautiful day… Author's note= this is the sequel of Yamato's song; it's less angst but more sad; hope you'll like it! It's longer than the other, and I don't know why it would be a surprise I was hoping you'd forget I was writing… WITHOUT YOU

-*-*-*-* No, I can't forget this evening

Or your face as you were leaving

But I guess that's just the way

The story goes

-*-*-*-*

No, it isn't.

I feel so empty inside. My soul had been thrown away when your letter shot it, when your letter shot me.

And I call myself a human being…

And we all call each others brothers…

Brothers…

-*-*-*-* You always smile but in your eyes

Your sorrow shows

Yes it shows

-*-*-*-*

He still doesn't react. His eyes are widened, not aware that the world is still spinning. He has your same eyes, you know?

His golden hair is messed up. You'd never do that, would you?

When he lies on your bed, eyelids closed, you'd say he is sleeping peacefully.

He's full awake, conscious. He says he can't sleep, because he'd see your eyes; he says he can't be completely awake, because he could not stand your absence.

He's living a dream, dreaming a life.

No, he couldn't never ever reject you as his brother. You were his idol, his myth, his everything. He loved you more than he loves my sister.

And now the only thing he feels is guilt and emptiness.

-*-*-*-* No, I can't forget tomorrow

When I think of all my sorrow

When I had you there

But then I let you go

-*-*-*-*

And your father…he locked himself in your house.

Sometimes he enters in your room; sometimes he watches your bed, as if he can still see you sleeping, your golden hair covering your eyelids. He never cries. He can't anymore. He has no more tears left. He watches your bedroom with red eyes and he doesn't talk. Doesn't breathe. He only watches and remembers.

Your mother seems a ghost. She doesn't work anymore. She sits on your coach and nothing more.

Our friends, your friends can't go on with their lives. They're all paler than you've ever been.

It's all their fault, it's all our fault, it's all my fault.

We always thought you had ice in your body.

Now I know we were wrong.

The ice is now part of me, part of us; that ice and that scare which drove you over the edge.

-*-*-*-* And now it's only fair

That I should let you know

What you should know

-*-*-*-*

No it isn't, Yamato.

That night, well, that night was the worst night of my life.

But not because of you. Because of me.

I always knew I liked you. But that kiss scared me. It brought things I never wanted to know about us, about me.

In that moment I understood I was madly in love with you. And it scared me.

Me, the Keeper of Courage, scared by a kiss.

You, the Keeper of Friendship, betrayed by a kiss and by his "friends".

-*-*-*-*

I can't live

If living is without you

I can't live

I can't give anymore

-*-*-*-*

No Yamato, it isn't.

Anytime I close my eyes I see you, I feel you; your golden hair moving in the wind, lightening in the sun; your deep ocean eyes, full of love, hope and purity; and I can' stand your vision, it makes me want to scream, shout, cry. Cry, you'd never do that, would you?

Who said "the life goes on" didn't know the grief and the guilt.

And now, we all are waiting; waiting to die, waiting to live, waiting a forgiveness which would never arrive.

-*-*-*-* Well I can't forget this evening

Or your face as you were leaving

But I guess that's just the way

The story goes

-*-*-*-*

No Yamato, it isn't funny.

I know you feel better where you are now; wherever you are.

I don't know where to send this letter, but I hope one day it will arrive in the Heaven, where an Angel will read it.

And that Angel will be you.

-*-*-*-* You always smile but in your eyes

Your sorrow shows

Yes it shows

-*-*-*-*

Goodbye, my Yamato, sleep in peace

                    Forever yours

-*-*-*-* I can't live If living is without you

I can't live

I can't give anymore

-*-*-*-*

                                                 Taichi

-*-*-*-* I can't live

If living is without you

I can't live

I can't give anymore

-*-*-*-*

Huriko= well, that's all; liked it? Not liked it? Review pleaseee!!!! * angelic smile *