Darien
feels cleaner when he finishes his painful shower, but his wounds nag at
him. He walks out of the bathroom
shirtless wearing a pair of pajama pants.
"Let me
help you, Darien," The Keeper offers, placing his arm around her shoulder and
trying to help his staggering body to the bed.
"I can do
it," Darien protests.
"I know
you can, but humor me," She replies dryly. She is quiet once he relaxes and allows her to hold some of his
weight.
Once he
is seated on the bed, he sighs audibly. "Claire," He starts.
"Are you
sure you feel up to a deep conversation?" She asks, hesitatingly.
"As sure
as I ever was," He replies. "I'm sorry
about getting pissed at you. I didn't
think about you and Kevin that way, I was self-absorbed as usual and I'm
sorry. I can tell by the way you told
me that you loved Kevin and I'm sorry that now he's lost to both of us."
Claire
sits down beside him. "Darien…"
"I feel
like I'm losing everything inside me, like its drowning in the
quicksilver." He looks at her,
sadly. "I'm slowly fading away, Claire,
and nothing's going to stop it."
She puts
an arm around him and pulls him into an embrace. "Darien, don't let it happen. You fight it. I want to see you
come into the Agency with a smile on your face and twinkling eyes. I know you want to, you aren't supposed to
be depressed, you're supposed to be able to sleep, but it's not the gland,
Darien. It's you. You're doing it to yourself. It's like you're digging a pity hole and
sure, if you keep digging, you'll eventually bury yourself, but you can always
climb out."
Darien
looks at her, curiously, but nods.
"I was
thinking about an old friend of mine when I was in there. Sinclair. He's been dead, god, fifteen years or so. I went through this before, right after my mom died, years ago,
and Sinclair pulled me out. I met him
right after she died and he made me appreciate life again. He said once 'Don't get used to getting
pulled back over the edge 'cause one day your partner might be taking a piss',"
He smiles. "I would always fuck up
something at every job and he would fix it."
Claire
nods, listening.
Darien
looks at her with a reminiscent smile. "Sinclair was strong and he died but I'm still here, and I'm weaker than
he was. But, since he's gone and
Kevin's gone, I guess I'm just gonna have to buck up and live the life that I'm
given. It's not as bad as it could be,
and I need to stop making it worse." He
waves his hand. "This drinking is like
tearing open a wound over and over so it never gets a chance to heal."
Claire
squeezes him reassuringly. "You have
help. You have friends that care about
you. You have to come to us before it
gets this bad. You can't solve some
problems by yourself and you're not expected to."
Darien
nods. "I see that. It took all this for me to see what was
right beside me."
Claire
sits quietly, content to hold Darien.
"Guess
what?"
"What?" Claire replies, smiling slightly.
"I'm about
to ask you for help."
"What is
it?" Claire asks, concerned.
He pulls
from her embrace and smiles at her. "Do
you think I should cut my hair?"
Claire
laughs for the first time in days and Darien starts to feel a lot better.
----"What if people get everything they expect? What becomes of hope?"-------- 7mary3 song lyric
