Earth Angel: SORRY!!! Everyone it was my fault that this story chapter is very late.
I had writer's block but Moon Angel yelled at me and straitened me out.
::Ducks head:: Just don't hit me or throw rotten fruit!
Fairy Until Darien
Chapter 4
Lost in Love
Rated: R
By: Earth Angel and Moon Angel010
Email: Angel_Girls@sailormoon.com
@----------------------------------------------------------------------------
I can't believe that he slept with her. Her of all people. That was when my
'inner voice'
kicked in.
Tora is such a slut. She doesnt matter its Darien that you love.
I can't believe that he would sleep with....her.... "Oh Goddess. I love him.
I'm more upset about him sleeping with her than her sleeping with him. This
can't be
happening to me!" I groaned as I realized what my own voice had said. I love
him. I love
Darien Shields. I loved how his blue eyes would look at me, how his blue hair
would shine in the sun, how his body pressed up against mine when he held me
after bumping into him. That last one I knew, but I always pushed it off.
Then what is with the lesbian relationships. My whole world
seemed to go
spinning. I'm in love, with Darien. Darien of all people. The man that would
bump into me
everyday. The man that would pull on my pigtails and call me meatball head,
would make fun of
all my mistakes and clutz attacks, the man that would scoop me up in his
arms and make me
feel better when having the worst of days, try to say at least a few good
words to me when
I was really upset. "WHY ME?!?!?!?!?!?!" I screamed at no one, crystal tears
filled my eyes, only they wouldn't fall. I wouldn't let them, but still a few
made their way down my pale pink cheeks.
Dont you remember me trying to talk you out of it saying that you would only
regret
it later. That you would find true love and you might just lose it because
of a stupid mistake?
Well now you are. See I told you so! You just wanted to be loved
and you never wanted to trust a man again so you blocked me out and when for
it. We
were never attracted to Tora you made yourself attracted to her by thinking
of
other things. Deep down all you really wanted was Darien. Darien and no one
else.. well, maybe Tuxedo Mask. But I would never know Tuxedo Mask the way that I
would Darien. Tuxedo Mask and I were just to warriors that crossed paths, that got caught
up in the moment, and felt the sparks of passion and love. But that love would never work,
we could not share identities and deep down we would only know each other on the battle
field.
Tuxedo Mask? I love him too. Not as much a Darien but a part of me loves
him.
I was still sorting all this out in my head when I came face to face with
people I didn't want to see right then. The scouts all walking together down
the street towards me.
This isn't happening! How could this happen! Is the whole world against me?
WHY! I can't take anymore. No more! Maybe I could hide from them, ignore them. But it was
to late, they had already seen me. They seemed almost surprised to find me, like now they
weren't sure what to say. "Serena-" Rei began, as if she were searching for the next words.
I put my hands to my ears and shut my eyes "NO! Leave me alone!" Quickly
I run off. I don't know where though. Anywhere but here would be fine.
Without direction I found myself in a place I've never even seen before,
but yet it seems like something from my dreams. A place that held
beautiful memories and...love. It's so beautiful. Before me stood a crystal
lake.
The moon glinting off of it making it look like pure silver water, as it
came up in a little
splash everytime a raindrop hit it.
Behind me stood a clearing, surrounded by tree's. The clearing was lighten
up by the moon,
in it, there stood one object, an elegeant white ceramic bench with gold trim.
"Where am I?" I ask, peticuliary to know one. Its so cold here, I felt as if the
temperature dropped anymore I would soon see my breath in the frosty air. The rain around
me went from a hard angry to light and soft. The speed slowed down and few drops fell until
finally the rain had stopped. The trees around me dripped the new water from their leaves
and on to the ground to soak up their roots.
I've never been here before...yet it seems
so familiar. A wet twig snaps off the the right of me and I spun looking to see what or
who had followed me. Would it be so bad if I found my death tonight? The I wouldn't have to
face them. I was being a coward and I knew it. I just didn't want to face them.
A tall shadow stood in near the trees, he just stood their watching me for what seemed
like an enternity. I couldn't take my eyes from him. I should be scared, I should run,
yet I feel comfortable, as if I could tell him everything. I knew that as long as I was with
him no harm could come to me, he would protect me forever, the only question was could he
love me as much as I love him? Or did he think of me as some small little girl.
"Don't be scared Serena." The figures voice came to me, so soft and sweet, full of caring and
kindness.
I couldn't stop it, my feet worked on their own taking me to him, and he came towards me.
Its so damn cold. Freezing, almost. Maybe its just me. This place has a
feeling of warmth in the heart. With every step I took toward him
I feel a feeling of calm. When . As I swallow
A pale hand reaches out and grabs my shoulder, pulling me close. Then another hand comes out
and grabs the other. With much force I was embraced in a hug. His hands slid down my body and
this arms went around my waist.
Darien was hugging me. Hugging him, made me feel, warmer, safer, calmer then
before.
I could smell the sweet sent of roses coming from him. A comforting smell.
He looked deeply into my eyes and suddenly his head came near mine, I let my eyes
come close, and his soft lips touched mine, after a minute his tounge slipped past my lips.
I wished that this moment would last forever. Finally we broke our kiss and I let my head
fall back onto his shoulder, his head snuggled into my neck. We could have been there
forever, time seemed to go on, and we were happy just being there like that, the rest of the
world didn't matter to us. What did matter that we were together.
As soon as I let Darien go, fear struck me, hard, because behind us were the scout.
"Serena, I'm confused." Ami pulled back the hood on her rain coat. They hadn't been there
long, I knew that, I would have felt their presence sooner. My tear were long gone, but they
threatened to spill again at the sight of the scouts. Would they be able to accept me for
my unusal choice of lovers? But they had been there long
enough, and I knew that Mina, being the scout of love, had been the one to feel the love
coming off of us. I don't know but some how I knew that the scouts knew that Darien and
I were more that just friends. "Maybe we should go somewhere else and discuse this,
without Darien."
Rei grabbed reached out to grab my arm, so that they could lead me away and discuss this
in private, but what was to be said was something that Darien had to hear. I couldn't
start a relationship with him, tell him everything, my heart and soul, like to people that
love each other were meant to if I kept this secret. I stepped away from him, and yet he
tried to hold my hand, as if he knew that I was about to say something that would change
everything. Even if he was trying to hold onto me, I knew that I had to let go of him for a
second to say what I had to say. My tiny fingers slipped through his hand and I took
two steps away from him, and away from the girls. "What I have to say, is something that
I have to share with Darien, because I love him, and it needs to be said."
"She loves me." He looked happy and a little shocked. I could tell that he wanted to embrace
me again, but something in my eyes stopped him.
"I guess it started a few years ago, I had a relationship with a boy, it was long relationship.
We had been friends for awhile and then after about a year of dating, he dumped me in
front of everyone, and he was with another girl. I was devistated.
I ran to my one of my best friends for comfort, and she used my emotions to get me into
bed with her. Then I meet Tora a year later and she got me into bed to."
"You're lesbian?" Darien muttered. I look up to him, and say the first word
that comes to my confused mind.
"No, no I'm not, I thought I was but I was wrong!" A feeling of intense fright filled me.
What if I lost him? I already knew that I couldn't live without him now that I had found
him.
As I always did, I began crying. Crying harder then I've ever done before.
It wasn't the crying of a baby, it was the crying of a young women, lost and confused
in the matters of love, pain, and hurt. I was letting
all my worries, and thoughts, and horrid feelings, go along with my fears.
Crying. "I'm sorry, girls, I'm sorry Darien. I'm sorry everybody." I sobbed
"There were so many things that I've never really knew until today."
:~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Darien's P.O.V~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~:
Seeing her like this makes me want to die. Why is she so scared? I can sense
it.
She seems so frightened and abused. I would have never thought, that the
girl
I liked to once tease, I now loved. I just realized that. I love her with all my
heart.
I'd die for her. I'd kill for her.
For some reason, it was as if I knew she was having relations with Tora. In
fact I known
that she was. I should hate Serena, but I hate Tora. I hate her, more then I
could ever hate anybody. Tora was an obstical to drive Serena and
me apart from one another. She was in some larger plot to keep us from loving one another.
As I began realizing my true feelings, I realized that my love life was even more
complicated then I thought. Sailor Moons image still burned in my head and her voice rung
in my ears, but as I thought of her I realized something more. I would always love the
guardian of the moon, I loved her for her personality of wanting to make the world a
much better place and help others, but I don't know her. Her favorite color, her favorite
food, those are things that I can learn about
Serena, these are somethings that will remain a mystery when it comes to Sailor Moon.
You can love to people at once I realized, but you can want one more than the other,
and you can love one from afar but in another way that the other. Am I making sense?
Maybe I'm only making sense to myself because it is what is in my heart. My
feelings run deeper for Usagi, she makes me burn to kiss her, just to touch her, to be
with her. I want to hold on to her and never let her go. I love Sailor Moon but in the way
that you would love a star, or a movie star in some other peoples cases.
Yes I love Serena and yes I love Sailor Moon. But Sailor Moon is unreachable to me
and Serena is something that I can have. I'm not saying that I'm going for second best
because I'm not. I love them both but in different ways. I am in love with Serena,
but Sailor Moon will always hold a specail place in my heart because of all that she has
done for other people and how she wants to help others. Wait a minute Sailor Moon. Serena,
Sailor Moon, Serena
Sailor Moon. I must be going crazy. Both girls that I have actually loved
turned out to be
out to be lesibans. Please let Serena chose me, not some girl. I want her. I
dont know
Sailor Moon the way that I know her.
Crouching down I lean into Serena's ear "Serena I have to tell you
something." I whisper.
:~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Serena's P.O.V~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~:
Tuxedo mask used those exact same words in the woods. I look up to Darien,
almost bumping his chin. His eyes. They're gorgeous. The moon highlighted
the silver specks in them, just like they did to Tuxedo Mask. Am I going crazy?
It hit me. Darien's Tuxedo Mask. Everything made sense, its so obvious. How
could I have missed it before. Before he can talk I say the words
"Tuxedo Mask"
Shocked he replied "What?"
"Your Tuxedo Mask, its so clear."
He said nothing.
"So you are!"
The girls gasp.
"Then you're the one that pronounced your lo-"
"No, I told Sailor Moon that I lov- You're sailor moon! Aren't you!"
I ruined my cover, my identity was revealed, but why didn't I care? I
should. But
then I realized, that I was in the perfect situation. Darien loved me, and
Sailor Moon,
And I loved him, as well as Tuxedo Mask. It was all so clear. We were meant
to be.
He came down on his knees next to me. "Serena, I love you. You were lost
and I was lost too. Tora was an obstical trying to keep us from finding true love.
And she almost succeded. But she didn't. I love you Serena Tuskino, and I want to be with
you forever. Just say that you want it to."
"Oh I do." I whispered and I threw my arms around his neck, and pulled him into a warm
embrace. He was crying and I was crying. We were hugging and kissing. We never wanted
to let one another go.
Sorry for the time that we had lost, and sorry for letting Tora
drive us away from one another. But she didn't matter anymore. We were going to be
together forever and thats what mattered.
Its so clear. He was the one, the one that was meant to be
with me forever, the only one that could fullfill my heart and soul.
Darien Shields of all people was the one that I loved deep down, and he was the
only one that could love me the way that I needed to be loved, and only I could love
him the way that he needed to be loved. He was meant for me and I was meant for him.
@--------- More soon to come -----------------------------------------------------
I had writer's block but Moon Angel yelled at me and straitened me out.
::Ducks head:: Just don't hit me or throw rotten fruit!
Fairy Until Darien
Chapter 4
Lost in Love
Rated: R
By: Earth Angel and Moon Angel010
Email: Angel_Girls@sailormoon.com
@----------------------------------------------------------------------------
I can't believe that he slept with her. Her of all people. That was when my
'inner voice'
kicked in.
Tora is such a slut. She doesnt matter its Darien that you love.
I can't believe that he would sleep with....her.... "Oh Goddess. I love him.
I'm more upset about him sleeping with her than her sleeping with him. This
can't be
happening to me!" I groaned as I realized what my own voice had said. I love
him. I love
Darien Shields. I loved how his blue eyes would look at me, how his blue hair
would shine in the sun, how his body pressed up against mine when he held me
after bumping into him. That last one I knew, but I always pushed it off.
Then what is with the lesbian relationships. My whole world
seemed to go
spinning. I'm in love, with Darien. Darien of all people. The man that would
bump into me
everyday. The man that would pull on my pigtails and call me meatball head,
would make fun of
all my mistakes and clutz attacks, the man that would scoop me up in his
arms and make me
feel better when having the worst of days, try to say at least a few good
words to me when
I was really upset. "WHY ME?!?!?!?!?!?!" I screamed at no one, crystal tears
filled my eyes, only they wouldn't fall. I wouldn't let them, but still a few
made their way down my pale pink cheeks.
Dont you remember me trying to talk you out of it saying that you would only
regret
it later. That you would find true love and you might just lose it because
of a stupid mistake?
Well now you are. See I told you so! You just wanted to be loved
and you never wanted to trust a man again so you blocked me out and when for
it. We
were never attracted to Tora you made yourself attracted to her by thinking
of
other things. Deep down all you really wanted was Darien. Darien and no one
else.. well, maybe Tuxedo Mask. But I would never know Tuxedo Mask the way that I
would Darien. Tuxedo Mask and I were just to warriors that crossed paths, that got caught
up in the moment, and felt the sparks of passion and love. But that love would never work,
we could not share identities and deep down we would only know each other on the battle
field.
Tuxedo Mask? I love him too. Not as much a Darien but a part of me loves
him.
I was still sorting all this out in my head when I came face to face with
people I didn't want to see right then. The scouts all walking together down
the street towards me.
This isn't happening! How could this happen! Is the whole world against me?
WHY! I can't take anymore. No more! Maybe I could hide from them, ignore them. But it was
to late, they had already seen me. They seemed almost surprised to find me, like now they
weren't sure what to say. "Serena-" Rei began, as if she were searching for the next words.
I put my hands to my ears and shut my eyes "NO! Leave me alone!" Quickly
I run off. I don't know where though. Anywhere but here would be fine.
Without direction I found myself in a place I've never even seen before,
but yet it seems like something from my dreams. A place that held
beautiful memories and...love. It's so beautiful. Before me stood a crystal
lake.
The moon glinting off of it making it look like pure silver water, as it
came up in a little
splash everytime a raindrop hit it.
Behind me stood a clearing, surrounded by tree's. The clearing was lighten
up by the moon,
in it, there stood one object, an elegeant white ceramic bench with gold trim.
"Where am I?" I ask, peticuliary to know one. Its so cold here, I felt as if the
temperature dropped anymore I would soon see my breath in the frosty air. The rain around
me went from a hard angry to light and soft. The speed slowed down and few drops fell until
finally the rain had stopped. The trees around me dripped the new water from their leaves
and on to the ground to soak up their roots.
I've never been here before...yet it seems
so familiar. A wet twig snaps off the the right of me and I spun looking to see what or
who had followed me. Would it be so bad if I found my death tonight? The I wouldn't have to
face them. I was being a coward and I knew it. I just didn't want to face them.
A tall shadow stood in near the trees, he just stood their watching me for what seemed
like an enternity. I couldn't take my eyes from him. I should be scared, I should run,
yet I feel comfortable, as if I could tell him everything. I knew that as long as I was with
him no harm could come to me, he would protect me forever, the only question was could he
love me as much as I love him? Or did he think of me as some small little girl.
"Don't be scared Serena." The figures voice came to me, so soft and sweet, full of caring and
kindness.
I couldn't stop it, my feet worked on their own taking me to him, and he came towards me.
Its so damn cold. Freezing, almost. Maybe its just me. This place has a
feeling of warmth in the heart. With every step I took toward him
I feel a feeling of calm. When . As I swallow
A pale hand reaches out and grabs my shoulder, pulling me close. Then another hand comes out
and grabs the other. With much force I was embraced in a hug. His hands slid down my body and
this arms went around my waist.
Darien was hugging me. Hugging him, made me feel, warmer, safer, calmer then
before.
I could smell the sweet sent of roses coming from him. A comforting smell.
He looked deeply into my eyes and suddenly his head came near mine, I let my eyes
come close, and his soft lips touched mine, after a minute his tounge slipped past my lips.
I wished that this moment would last forever. Finally we broke our kiss and I let my head
fall back onto his shoulder, his head snuggled into my neck. We could have been there
forever, time seemed to go on, and we were happy just being there like that, the rest of the
world didn't matter to us. What did matter that we were together.
As soon as I let Darien go, fear struck me, hard, because behind us were the scout.
"Serena, I'm confused." Ami pulled back the hood on her rain coat. They hadn't been there
long, I knew that, I would have felt their presence sooner. My tear were long gone, but they
threatened to spill again at the sight of the scouts. Would they be able to accept me for
my unusal choice of lovers? But they had been there long
enough, and I knew that Mina, being the scout of love, had been the one to feel the love
coming off of us. I don't know but some how I knew that the scouts knew that Darien and
I were more that just friends. "Maybe we should go somewhere else and discuse this,
without Darien."
Rei grabbed reached out to grab my arm, so that they could lead me away and discuss this
in private, but what was to be said was something that Darien had to hear. I couldn't
start a relationship with him, tell him everything, my heart and soul, like to people that
love each other were meant to if I kept this secret. I stepped away from him, and yet he
tried to hold my hand, as if he knew that I was about to say something that would change
everything. Even if he was trying to hold onto me, I knew that I had to let go of him for a
second to say what I had to say. My tiny fingers slipped through his hand and I took
two steps away from him, and away from the girls. "What I have to say, is something that
I have to share with Darien, because I love him, and it needs to be said."
"She loves me." He looked happy and a little shocked. I could tell that he wanted to embrace
me again, but something in my eyes stopped him.
"I guess it started a few years ago, I had a relationship with a boy, it was long relationship.
We had been friends for awhile and then after about a year of dating, he dumped me in
front of everyone, and he was with another girl. I was devistated.
I ran to my one of my best friends for comfort, and she used my emotions to get me into
bed with her. Then I meet Tora a year later and she got me into bed to."
"You're lesbian?" Darien muttered. I look up to him, and say the first word
that comes to my confused mind.
"No, no I'm not, I thought I was but I was wrong!" A feeling of intense fright filled me.
What if I lost him? I already knew that I couldn't live without him now that I had found
him.
As I always did, I began crying. Crying harder then I've ever done before.
It wasn't the crying of a baby, it was the crying of a young women, lost and confused
in the matters of love, pain, and hurt. I was letting
all my worries, and thoughts, and horrid feelings, go along with my fears.
Crying. "I'm sorry, girls, I'm sorry Darien. I'm sorry everybody." I sobbed
"There were so many things that I've never really knew until today."
:~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Darien's P.O.V~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~:
Seeing her like this makes me want to die. Why is she so scared? I can sense
it.
She seems so frightened and abused. I would have never thought, that the
girl
I liked to once tease, I now loved. I just realized that. I love her with all my
heart.
I'd die for her. I'd kill for her.
For some reason, it was as if I knew she was having relations with Tora. In
fact I known
that she was. I should hate Serena, but I hate Tora. I hate her, more then I
could ever hate anybody. Tora was an obstical to drive Serena and
me apart from one another. She was in some larger plot to keep us from loving one another.
As I began realizing my true feelings, I realized that my love life was even more
complicated then I thought. Sailor Moons image still burned in my head and her voice rung
in my ears, but as I thought of her I realized something more. I would always love the
guardian of the moon, I loved her for her personality of wanting to make the world a
much better place and help others, but I don't know her. Her favorite color, her favorite
food, those are things that I can learn about
Serena, these are somethings that will remain a mystery when it comes to Sailor Moon.
You can love to people at once I realized, but you can want one more than the other,
and you can love one from afar but in another way that the other. Am I making sense?
Maybe I'm only making sense to myself because it is what is in my heart. My
feelings run deeper for Usagi, she makes me burn to kiss her, just to touch her, to be
with her. I want to hold on to her and never let her go. I love Sailor Moon but in the way
that you would love a star, or a movie star in some other peoples cases.
Yes I love Serena and yes I love Sailor Moon. But Sailor Moon is unreachable to me
and Serena is something that I can have. I'm not saying that I'm going for second best
because I'm not. I love them both but in different ways. I am in love with Serena,
but Sailor Moon will always hold a specail place in my heart because of all that she has
done for other people and how she wants to help others. Wait a minute Sailor Moon. Serena,
Sailor Moon, Serena
Sailor Moon. I must be going crazy. Both girls that I have actually loved
turned out to be
out to be lesibans. Please let Serena chose me, not some girl. I want her. I
dont know
Sailor Moon the way that I know her.
Crouching down I lean into Serena's ear "Serena I have to tell you
something." I whisper.
:~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Serena's P.O.V~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~:
Tuxedo mask used those exact same words in the woods. I look up to Darien,
almost bumping his chin. His eyes. They're gorgeous. The moon highlighted
the silver specks in them, just like they did to Tuxedo Mask. Am I going crazy?
It hit me. Darien's Tuxedo Mask. Everything made sense, its so obvious. How
could I have missed it before. Before he can talk I say the words
"Tuxedo Mask"
Shocked he replied "What?"
"Your Tuxedo Mask, its so clear."
He said nothing.
"So you are!"
The girls gasp.
"Then you're the one that pronounced your lo-"
"No, I told Sailor Moon that I lov- You're sailor moon! Aren't you!"
I ruined my cover, my identity was revealed, but why didn't I care? I
should. But
then I realized, that I was in the perfect situation. Darien loved me, and
Sailor Moon,
And I loved him, as well as Tuxedo Mask. It was all so clear. We were meant
to be.
He came down on his knees next to me. "Serena, I love you. You were lost
and I was lost too. Tora was an obstical trying to keep us from finding true love.
And she almost succeded. But she didn't. I love you Serena Tuskino, and I want to be with
you forever. Just say that you want it to."
"Oh I do." I whispered and I threw my arms around his neck, and pulled him into a warm
embrace. He was crying and I was crying. We were hugging and kissing. We never wanted
to let one another go.
Sorry for the time that we had lost, and sorry for letting Tora
drive us away from one another. But she didn't matter anymore. We were going to be
together forever and thats what mattered.
Its so clear. He was the one, the one that was meant to be
with me forever, the only one that could fullfill my heart and soul.
Darien Shields of all people was the one that I loved deep down, and he was the
only one that could love me the way that I needed to be loved, and only I could love
him the way that he needed to be loved. He was meant for me and I was meant for him.
@--------- More soon to come -----------------------------------------------------