"Dear Lord"
dear lord,
its me again,
dont you remember,
or have you already forgotten?
Remember last week,
when I asked you,
begged you,
cried and pleaded to you,
help me, make them stop,
save me.
I promised you I would be a better person,
just make them love me,
make them understand.
I thought you helped me,
I thought they changed,
but that only lasted a night.
Its back to normal lord,
and I need you now more than ever.
Please lord, PLEASE!
I cant take the pain any longer,
its killing me inside,
they found out about my cutting last year,
I cant solve my problems that way any longer,
they found out about my throwing up this year,
so I cant try that again.
But what else can I do to get rid of the pain?
I thought you loved me,
I thought you would take care of me.
why lord,
did you not help me,
why do you not care about me any longer,
I still love you.
Dear Lord,
did you hear my all my prayers this week?
I tried so hard to be good,
and I think I made a difference,
but I dont think you were listening to my prayers.
They haven't stopped,
and they hit so hard,
it hurts so bad,
but not as bad as their words.
But, I believed in you, and the past few times I haven't cried,
I held it inside,
and it hurt even worse.
I've gone to church every day,
have you noticed?
Im trying to be patient lord,
but when are you going to come through?
Dear lord,
did you here,
I fell down the stairs again,
but I know you no the truth,
I just wish these black eyes and huge bruises would go away.
But I finally understand lord,
Its my fault,
they told me so, my parents,
they were right the whole time,
I was just to stupid to listen to them,
I wish I didn't cause everyone so many problems.
I'm sorry for bothering you so many times,
I should have understood,
I messed up everyone's lives,
and you were making me pay for the consequences.
Thank you so much for making me understand.
Please try to forgive me for messing up everything,
I will understand if you need to punish me.
Dear Lord,
why me?
its not my fault.
I hate you for not helping me.
I hate the world for not seeing.
The ambulance is on its way now,
and all I have to say is,
World, I will not miss you.
dear lord,
its me again,
dont you remember,
or have you already forgotten?
Remember last week,
when I asked you,
begged you,
cried and pleaded to you,
help me, make them stop,
save me.
I promised you I would be a better person,
just make them love me,
make them understand.
I thought you helped me,
I thought they changed,
but that only lasted a night.
Its back to normal lord,
and I need you now more than ever.
Please lord, PLEASE!
I cant take the pain any longer,
its killing me inside,
they found out about my cutting last year,
I cant solve my problems that way any longer,
they found out about my throwing up this year,
so I cant try that again.
But what else can I do to get rid of the pain?
I thought you loved me,
I thought you would take care of me.
why lord,
did you not help me,
why do you not care about me any longer,
I still love you.
Dear Lord,
did you hear my all my prayers this week?
I tried so hard to be good,
and I think I made a difference,
but I dont think you were listening to my prayers.
They haven't stopped,
and they hit so hard,
it hurts so bad,
but not as bad as their words.
But, I believed in you, and the past few times I haven't cried,
I held it inside,
and it hurt even worse.
I've gone to church every day,
have you noticed?
Im trying to be patient lord,
but when are you going to come through?
Dear lord,
did you here,
I fell down the stairs again,
but I know you no the truth,
I just wish these black eyes and huge bruises would go away.
But I finally understand lord,
Its my fault,
they told me so, my parents,
they were right the whole time,
I was just to stupid to listen to them,
I wish I didn't cause everyone so many problems.
I'm sorry for bothering you so many times,
I should have understood,
I messed up everyone's lives,
and you were making me pay for the consequences.
Thank you so much for making me understand.
Please try to forgive me for messing up everything,
I will understand if you need to punish me.
Dear Lord,
why me?
its not my fault.
I hate you for not helping me.
I hate the world for not seeing.
The ambulance is on its way now,
and all I have to say is,
World, I will not miss you.