Harder Than a Mission
By: Kyo
Warning: Mild yaoi, 1+2/2+1, Angst, Death?
Rating: PG
Disclaimers: This is my first fan fiction to go on here so
don't kill me! I don't own Gundam Wing, or the Characters or anything! All
belongs to Sunrise! I have no money! Don't Sue!
On with the show!
I'm me. I'm Duo Maxwell. Shinigami, The Great Destroyer,
I'm me. They just can't accept that can they?
Everyday I wake up and I put it on. My
mask. It covers up my feelings and secrets. Breakfast, Lunch, Dinner, the whole
day, no one can tell what I hide by my jokes, pranks, and smile. They'll never
know.
I can feel, just like every other
damned fool who lives in the stupid house. All five of us. I can feel the pain,
the happiness, not like Quatre, but just emotions. But most of the time, it's
pain. "Shut up Maxwell!" or "Baka." It might not seem like much, but such small
words, such small statements, can do so much.
Especially when they come from him. I
don't know how it happened but it did. Maybe it was his eyes. Those deep cobalt
eyes, they pulled me in. I try to be nice, occasionally try to make him smile,
and it never happens. Him being nice back or smiling is just not humanly
possible. What I get back is an icy glare or a rude insult.
Why? Why God did I fall in love with
him. He's fucking straight. Him and Ms. "Queen of the World" would be so much
better, than me and him. And if he ever found out about how I feel, ALL HELL
WOULD BREAK LOOSE!
I have nothing. No happiness, love…. Maybe I do have
something. Pain. That's all.
*~~~*
"Duo?! Where are you going?" Quatre asked, snuggled up
close to his koi. Trowa turned away from the t.v. to look at Duo.
"Bridge." Duo swung a blue-jean jacket over his shoulder."
I'll be back… maybe." He had no smile just a straight face, not the normal Duo.
"Duo what's…." The Arabian began but
was interrupted by the slam of the door. "What did he mean by maybe?" H e
turned to face Trowa. A concerned look consumed their faces.
"Maxwell's not himself. We should go
see what's wrong." Wufei put the black chess piece down, stopping the game that
he and Heero were currently playing.
"I'll go." The slightly nasal voiced
boy stood up. "Back soon." He walked out the door, before anyone could object.
The flip of a chestnut braid caught his attention as it disappeared around the
corner. "Duo…."
*~~~*
Duo, do you know what you do to me? I can't stand to see
that sad look in your eyes. I want the happy Duo back. The one who would
secretly make me smile and laugh when no one was around. The one who makes my
stomach turn when I see your face, or hear your voice. It took me so long to
figure out what I was feeling. I want to tell you so bad. But, do you know how
hard it is for me to say it. But if I do what are you going to do, react. Will
you reject me or do you feel the same for me? "Duo, I need you." What's
happened?
*~~~*
"Kyoto Bridge. Easiest place to
disappear." Duo jumped over the railing, inches away from death. "It's your
fault Heero! It's your fucking fault." Tears started to slowly fall down the
ex-gundam pilots face. "It's your fault." He whispered. Violet eyes surveyed
the rushing water below him. He took small steps forward, toes dangling off the
edge and stopped.
"One more step and you can end this, your pain. It can be
all gone." The voice in his head hissed at him. "Go! End your pain."
"End my pain…." Duo took a step forward ready to fall off,
but was whipped backwards by his hand and turned around to face cobalt eyes.
So how was that?
::twiddles fingers::
I tried really. I did! Read
and Review Please!!!
Duo: What the hell am I
doing listening to the voices in my head?
Heero: Duo, don't you
usually do that?
Duo: Oh yea good point.
Hey do I die? I don't wanna die! At least not from those stupid voices in my
head.
Heero: If they're so
stupid then how come you listen to them.
Kyo: Alright you guys.
Stop! Maybe you die I don't know. I haven't thought of the rest of the story.
Yet ^_^()
Duo, Heero: -_-()
::Wufei pops out of no
where with a spoon. Starts chasing Kyo::
Wufei: INJUSTICE! I
BARELY GOT A PART IN THIS STORIE SO FAR! AND WHAT WAS I DOING PLAYING CHESS?
WHAT A GAY GAME!
Kyo: AHHHHH!!!
