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[THAT IS NOT MY NAME!] I scream. I can't help it. After all I've done, she calls me that? I am not some angel, ready to bow at their cruel god's feet!
"What do you mean? Father named you. Why are you still arguing?" she says, calm and peaceful. Hearing her talk like that makes me want to bite her, hurt her until she at least acknowledges the fact that this is not some trivial, unimportant thing, that I am not a little child refusing to agree with a true thing.
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"Why am I here?" added Charity, as if she just remembered that she should ask that. The way she said it scarcely even made it a question.
[You will be the sole survivor of my attack. Because I didn't kill you, you will tell the rest of your cruel kind that I, an espeon, am the reason that Angelhaven was destroyed, and everyone else died. Because of this, many espeon and umbreon will be 'tested' to see if they are aggressive, and trainers will keep everstones on their eevees to make sure that the eevee doesn't evolve into a espeon or umbreon.]
"If the espeon and umbreon are tested for aggression, and they fail, then they were clearly not meant to live anyway. We can't have pokemon killing people-"
[But people can kill pokemon. The espeon and umbreon will not be fairly tested. They will be severely provoked to force them to attack. They may be abused for days, and not given food or water. Many of them will die from the beating they will be given. It's like torturing a prisoner until they confess. It doesn't matter if they did it or not, it's the only way to stop the pain. Why should they not attack? Attacking means a swift death. Refraining means pain.]
"You speak as if it had already happened."
[It has. I'm a psi pokemon. I'm the strongest espeon ever to exist. Many pokemon species have an attack only they can use, an attack only one pokemon has ever been able to use. Nova is the strongest attack an espeon can use. I am the only one to have ever used it]
"Then how are you here?"
[I used my power to bring myself back to this specific time, right before I pushed you out of the range of the blast.]
"So you will save me?" Charity said, smiling. "See, Angelmyst, you can ignore the devil's voice. Why won't you let Father make you a vaporeon?]
* * *
I stare at her in shock. [I saved you because you were Charity, who was my friend. I hoped then that you would understand why I had saved you, but you told people all about what had happened, and they did not understand any more then you. I wanted to try to explain things to you, so that you would not tell people what had happened. I am an espeon. I was always to be an espeon. When I destroyed Angelhaven, I died. My new name is Nova.]
"I don't understand, Angelmyst. Why do you cling to this evil form, made by Satan?"
Every muscle in my body goes ridged. [That is not my name. Can't you hear anything I tell you? I didn't save you because I ignored the voice of the devil, because it was never there to start!]
"Yes it is. Father named you."
I stare at her for a moment, backing away as tears fill my eyes. They were all right. She was dead. I was just talking to an empty husk. All it could do was repeat itself. It couldn't hear a word I said.
* * *
I release her, and we go back to Angelhaven. Time begins again.
Twilight is just ending. The explosion from my own nova attack is the only light. When it fades, it will be black, for the moon is dark tonight
Strange. I lived here, as an espeon, for just one day. I evolved right before dusk yesterday. I evolved by the sun, and as the sun sets…
In the last instant, after she is thrown clear, I toss her back into the explosion.
I will remember the look on her face forever.
I'm an espeon. She may not have spoken aloud, but in that last instant, I heard her.
{Angelmyst, why do you forsake God? Can't you remember me? I'm your trainer, your friend. Why did you kill me?}
I'm not a phoenix. I may have survived to see the dawn again once, but unlike the sun, I won't keep rising.
And I stand there, as the blast hits me.
In the truest sense, I'm killing myself.
Mother, I can understand. I know why you felt you should burn in hell, after what you did. I wonder if I'll see you there.
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When I started writing this, I honestly did not intend to have poor Nova go through so much more pain and suffering. Well, I wasn't sure how much(none to medium were my intentions). I just kind of wrote that ending by trying to be true to the characters. I knew Charity wouldn't listen (I have yet to meet anyone like that who listens) but I did NOT have that ending in mind. Then I realized that if Charity wouldn't listen, then Nova would be force to kill her, and…