Disclaimer: I don't own any of these
people, except Professor Benson, the occasional extra or bit player. I don't
even really own the plot because, the Potterholic I am, I sometimes take plots
from movies I've seen and apply them to the times of MWPP. Today, I'm using the
film 'LOSER' with Mena Suvari and Jason Biggs (I think that's what his name is,
I'm losing my memory).
A/N: I was going to use this with another
girl and Peter, but then I remembered: I hate the little freak! So I decided that
this will be about Lily and James (yes another one). This one is a bit of a
contrast though, to what people think about James, Sirius, Remus and Peter.
Most people think they were extremely popular and every girl loved them and
that they, or at least James and Sirius, had many girlfriends. I am one of
them, but for this I'm not. In this fic, James, Sirius, Remus and Peter have
friends, other then each other, but aren't the most popular guys in the world.
Girls like them, but not every girl at Hogwarts is head over heels in love with
them. Lily isn't an outcast, but she's not hugely popular either. It doesn't
toe the line with 'LOSER', but it's the same basic plot. The gang is in their
seventh year. LILY IS NOT A SLUT!
You
~**Twink**~
"I was wondering when you were going to
wake up," said Lily, looking at her newly awakened lover, Professor Henry
Benson.
"What time is it?" asked Henry.
"Almost eleven," said Lily.
"You should get back to your dormitory,"
said Henry.
"I know," said Lily. "But I don't want to
go. I wish I could just spend the night here and sleep with your arms around
me."
"That would be very nice, Lily, but you
know that you can't," said Henry. "I could lose my job if someone found you
here, like this. You have an early day tomorrow, you should get some sleep."
"Oh, fine," said Lily. She got out of bed
and pulled her robes on. "I'll see you tomorrow."
"Good night, Lily," said Henry.
* * *
James was sitting in the common room,
finishing up a rather nasty Potions essay, when Lily walked in.
"How was your detention with Professor
Benson?" he asked. Lily sat down next to him, and started her Charms homework.
"Bad," said Lily. "He had me grade his
second years' essays, all four houses. That's grading like forty bad essays, all written on ghouls or
some such haunting type thing. Boy, I am glad I saved my easy stuff for last
tonight, I have run out of gas."
"I think you should speak to McGonagall
about all the detentions he gives you," said James. "I don't think it's normal."
"Maybe he just doesn't like me," said Lily.
"I know a lot of people that don't like me."
"Slytherins don't count," said James. "They
aren't people." Lily laughed.
"What's the plan for this weekend?" asked
Lily.
"It's a classic trick," said James. "We're
putting bleach in all of their shampoo bottles."
"I'll bet you a sickle that Snape's hair is
still black," said Lily.
"Ah, but Sirius has a very close
relationship with the house elves, so he's going to slip in and lace their food
with a potion that makes whoever drinks it think they are insanely dirty," said
James. "They'll all be taking showers and washing their hair."
"Brilliant," said Lily. "And I am done.
I'll see you in the morning, James."
"Good night, Lily," said James. "Love you."
"Love you, too, James," said Lily and she
left for bed. I'm so lucky to have James
as my friend, thought Lily, as she was dressing for bed. He's always looking out for me. Lily
drifted off to sleep thinking about the wonderful night she had had with Henry.
* * *
When Lily woke up the next morning, she
smiled. She was the first one awake, as usual. Her three roommates, Anna Logan,
Felicity Higgins, and Jillian Greene, were all awake within the half hour. Lily
dressed and went down to breakfast. She sat down and put butter and jam on a
piece of toast.
"Thank God it's Friday, eh Lily?" asked
James, as he and his three buddies Remus, Sirius, and Peter sat down next to
her.
"I know," said Lily. "There's almost
nothing better."
"Except we have Potions first and Defense
against the Dark Arts second," said James.
"I like Defense against the Dark Arts,"
said Lily.
"But Professor Benson is such a bully to
you," said James. "There have been maybe two classes where you haven't gotten a
detention."
"Five," said Lily. "He's a good teacher,
James. I've learned a lot this year, so far and it's only February." More then he knows I know, thought Lily
with a slight smile.
"If you say so," said James. "But I'm
worried about you. I don't think that it's okay for a teacher to gang up on one
student. It isn't fair."
"Professor White gangs up on me," said
Peter. "You've never voiced an opinion about that."
"But Wormtail, you really are that bad of a
student sometimes," said Sirius. "If you would just let Moony and I help you,
you'd do better."
"Besides," said James. "I think that he
gangs up on Lily because she's a girl."
"Nah," said Sirius. "It's because Lily here
is the kind of girl that he could never have when he was here. He was turned
down again and again by girls like her and now he's taking it out on poor Lily,
here."
"Sirius, thanks for the compliment, but I
don't think that's the case," said Lily, looking down at her watch. "We're
going to be late for class if we don't hurry. You know how White gets when
people are late for his class. None of us will get any sleep tonight if we're
late."
"Let's go," said James. They got up and
went down into the dungeons. As soon as they sat down, the bell rang. After an
especially grueling Potions class in which White yelled at every single
Gryffindor at least twice, it was time for Lily's favorite class: Defense
against the Dark Arts.
"Lily, promise me you'll say something to
him about it after class," said James.
"I really don't think that it's a problem,"
said Lily. "He's just trying to make sure I learn."
"If you don't, I will," said James.
"Fine," said Lily. "I'll mention it to him
after class." Lily sat down in front, while James and his friends sat in the
back.
"I have a plan," said James.
"Oh, Prongs you know how I love those words,"
said Sirius. Remus rolled his eyes.
"How do you all feel about misbehaving?"
asked James. Sirius burst out laughing.
"My dear Prongs," said Sirius. "If we felt
misbehaving was bad then we'd be on a
different course in life right now, wouldn't we?"
"Anyway, I want to really misbehave in this
class today and see if Benson gives us a detention," said James.
"You won't let it go, will you?" asked
Remus.
"Let's review," said James. "Lily has a
better record for all her years then any one of us have
on our best year, better then even you, Moony. We rarely get spoken to for
passing notes and talking, but when Lily asks to borrow some parchment she gets
yelled at. We sit in back and more often then not, don't pay attention, while
Lily sits in the front paying attention and jotting down every word, and she
gets stuck with a detention for putting down her quill and leaning back when we
review. Does that sound fair?"
"No," said Remus. "But Lily is so well behaved
that she has a reputation to live up to. Every teacher knows we always sit in
the back and misbehave and are disruptive, so when we do such things no one is
in the least bit surprised."
"Moony, dear old buddy, it's an excuse to
be as loud and obnoxious as we want in this class," said Sirius. "Just accept
it and move on."
"Padfoot, dear old buddy, sometimes I think
you need your head checked," said Remus. "But I'm in."
"But Professor Benson is so nice to me,"
said Peter. The three boys looked at him in disbelief as a Marauder was
actually opposed to raising hell. "I'm in; I'm just saying he's always so
nice." The four boys moved to the seats right behind Lily and started their
magic. Sirius put his feet up on his desk, and started to take a nap. James and
Remus had a fight by throwing odds and ends at each other, like quills, scraps
of parchment and erasers. Peter started drawing words in the air, phrases like,
'Go to Hell' and 'What are you looking at, asswipe?' Lily sat, paying
attention, not distracted at all by the movement behind her, still taking
notes.
"So, as you see…" Professor Benson was
saying, trying to ignore the four boys in the second row, when Sirius started
to snore like a freight train.
"Padfoot, wake up," said James, loudly.
"You're starting to snore."
"What?" said Sirius, sleepily. "Mum, can I
have ten more minutes?"
"Padfoot, wake up," said Remus. He got up,
took out his wand and shot a jet of water out of it. Sirius shouted.
"Moony! What was that for?" he asked.
"You're snoring," said Remus. Lily turned
around.
"Will you four stop?" she hissed. "What do you think you're doing?"
"Evans, detention," said Professor Benson.
Sirius's mouth dropped to the floor. "See me after class."
"Yes, sir," said Lily.
"Prongs, you were right," said Remus.
"Well, duh," said James.
"Maybe it's because she's Head Girl and she
has to set an example," said Peter.
"No, because I would have gotten a
detention, too," said James. After class, James waited for Lily to speak with
Professor Benson. He had Care of Magical Creatures next, and the teacher was
lenient about lateness.
"Meet me in my office at nine," said
Professor Benson.
"Professor," said Lily. "My friends seem to
think you're treating me unfairly. I have to apologize for the ruckus they made
in class today; they were pushing you to give them a detention, too."
"Which is exactly why they didn't get one,"
said Professor Benson. "Maybe I have been a bit harsh on you, Lily. I'll try to
lighten up a little bit, but I don't want you to slack off. You're very bright
and I want you to reach your full potential."
"I promise I won't slack off," said Lily.
"I'll work extra hard."
"That's good to hear," said Professor
Benson. "I'll see you tonight, at nine sharp, in my office. Wear something you
can get dirty." Lily walked out of the classroom right into James. She gasped.
"James, you startled me," said Lily. "Were
you here waiting for me?"
"Yeah, I thought you might want someone to
walk with," said James. Lily smiled.
"Thanks James," she said. "You're so sweet."
"Aw, shucks," said James. They crossed the
grounds, and muttered an apology to the Care of Magical Creatures teacher, and
focused their attention on the Centaur, who was talking about the stars.
* * *
That night, at quarter of nine, Lily put on
some of her older and worn robes that had small holes at the elbows, and went
to Professor Benson's office. She knocked on the door twice and he opened the
door immediately.
"I'm sorry, Lily," whispered Professor
Benson. "My meeting is running late. Miss Evans, please come in and have a
seat, I'll just be a few minutes." Lily walked into his office and saw
Professor Dumbledore sitting in a chair.
"Good evening, sir," said Lily.
"Good evening, Lily," said Dumbledore. "Now
Henry just remember what I told you, and think about it. I don't need your
answer now, but I'd like it by next week, if possible. I'll talk to you more
tomorrow."
"Goodnight, Albus," said Professor Benson.
"Goodnight, Henry," said Dumbledore.
"Goodnight, Lily."
"Goodnight, Professor," said Lily. Lily
waited a few minutes before speaking again. "What was that all about, Henry?"
"Dumbledore was asking me if I wanted to
join the league," said Henry. "I think I'm going to."
"When would you be joining?" asked Lily.
"Right after school is out for the summer,"
said Henry. "Because I'd have to get a job with more flexible hours."
"I think it would be a great idea," said
Lily. He kissed her.
"I'm glad you agree," said Henry.
"What am I doing tonight?" asked Lily.
"You're washing out the kappa's cages,"
said Henry, his hands sneaking around her waist. "Then you're going to feed the
gryindilows, and then you're going to…" Lily cut him off by kissing him.
"You talk too much," said Lily. "Enough of
what you have planned for me to do, let's get to what I'm going to do." Lily smiled as she dragged a giddy Henry into bed.
* * *
"I've figured out why Prongs here is so concerned about our dear friend Lily," said
Remus. "You like her."
"I don't," said James, going red.
"Don't deny it, Prongs," said Sirius. "It's
obvious."
"She's like my sister, guys, come on," said
James.
"We aren't going to take no for an answer,"
said Remus. "If you just tell us, we'll leave you alone."
"Do you swear?" asked James
"We swear,"
said Sirius.
"No, I don't trust him," said James. "Do
you swear?"
"We swear," said Peter. "Just say it
already."
"Okay," said James. "So maybe I have a
little crush on her, but she's pretty and sweet and smart and nice, so why
wouldn't I?"
"We don't," said Remus, with a grin.
"So she's pretty, sweet and smart," said
Sirius. "Not what I look for in a girl. She has to be bad to the bone, just
like me."
"Sirius, you're just a big ole teddy bear,"
said Remus. "You cry at sad movies and melt when you see puppies on the
street."
"Okay, I'm a softie, so sue me," said
Sirius.
"Understatement of the year," said Peter,
under his breath.
"I could kick you ass any day," said
Sirius.
"I don't deny it," said Peter.
"Going to wait for Lily again tonight,
Prongs?" asked Sirius.
"I think so," said James. "I mean I got
that Potions essay that's due Monday out of the way, so I guess I could start
that Transfiguration essay."
"She's going to turn you into an A
student," said Sirius.
"Padfoot, I am an A student," said James. "So are you."
"Oh, right," said Sirius.
"Do you want company tonight?" asked Remus.
"Why not?" asked James. "Even though Sirius
and I have Quidditch practice tomorrow, and
it's a full moon, it's better then being alone."
* * *
Lily woke up slowly and sighed.
"You're so beautiful when you sleep," said
Henry.
"What time is it?" asked Lily, sleepily.
"Almost midnight," said Henry.
"Give me another hour," said Lily,
snuggling up against him.
"No, I've got Minerva coming early tomorrow
morning," said Henry, resting his chin on her head. "I have to make sure I'm
rested."
"Promise that one night you'll let me sleep
all night," said Lily. "If I promise to get up really, really early and leave?"
"At the end of the year," said Henry. Lily
swung her legs over the edge of the bed and pulled her robes on.
"I think some of my friends are getting
suspicious," said Lily. "I'm never upset when you give me a detention. Try to
give them a few, it disappoints them when they try so hard and it doesn't pay
off."
"I'll keep that in mind for future reference,"
said Henry. "Goodnight, Lily."
"Goodnight, Henry," said Lily, and she left
quietly. She walked back to the Gryffindor tower ducking in and out of shadows.
"Password?" asked the Fat Lady, groggily.
"Godric Gryffindor," said Lily. The
portrait swung open and Lily climbed quietly inside. Lily looked and saw James
asleep in an armchair by the fire. She smiled and went to wake him up. "James."
"Oh, hey Lily," he said, opening his eyes.
"What time is it?"
"I don't know, maybe midnight, or quarter past," said Lily. "Were you
waiting up for me?"
"No I was just doing my…" James looked
around and saw no work. He nodded sheepishly. "Yeah, I was waiting up for you.
How did it go?"
"I was just cleaning out cages and feeding
random animals," said Lily. "But you have to stop waiting up for me, James."
"Why?" asked James. "Lily, you're like my
sister, I just want to make sure you're okay."
"Oh," said Lily, her heart melting. "James
you're so sweet." She gave him a peck on the cheek. "I'm sorry, I've been
keeping a secret from you."
"Like what?" asked James.
"Like Professor Benson is my boyfriend,"
said Lily. "That's why I have so many detentions. I couldn't really tell
anyone, because if anyone found out, he'd get fired. Promise you won't say anything?"
"I promise," said James. "Just, don't get
hurt."
"I can take care of myself, James," said
Lily. "You don't have to worry so much."
"Okay," said James. "A, no you can't, and
b, even if you could, I'd still worry, you know? I love you, it's hard not to
worry."
"I love you, too, James," said Lily. "I am
pooped, I have to go to bed. See you in the morning."
"See you," said James. Lily walked up the
stairs to her dorm, and James sat back. "I'll see you in my dreams."
* * *
Lily woke up early the next morning, so she
decided to go watch the Quidditch practice, then walk to breakfast with James.
She dressed and quietly crept down the stair case. She saw James and Sirius
walking towards the portrait hole, and they apparently took no notice of her.
"The problem is, I don't think she knows,"
said James.
"Then tell
her," said Sirius. "You're not such a bad guy, she has to like you back."
"She already knows I love her, but I don't
think she knows how," said James. "I
don't know if I can do this any more. It wasn't that bad when I didn't know
about Benson, but now, I just don't know. And I'm worried about her and Benson.
He can't be good for her.
"So tell," said Sirius.
"I couldn't do that to him," said James.
"It would ruin his life, being branded like that. I couldn't do that to her. Lily would kill me if I got him
fired."
"Well," said Sirius. "You could always
point out that he's, you know, married."
"He's what?"
asked James.
"Yeah," said Sirius. "You didn't know? I
went for a float once and I saw his wedding band. I think his wife just had a
baby. Come on, we're going to be late."
They
left in a hurry and Lily stood, shocked. She went to Professor Benson's office,
to ask him about it. She knocked on his door twice. He opened it, but
partially.
"Hi, Lily," he said. "This isn't really a
good time."
"Who is it, dear?" asked a female voice
from within.
"It's a student of mine, honey," said
Professor Benson. "What do you need, Lily?"
"I just forgot a book, I can come back later,"
she said, through gritted teeth. Lily glared at him and left for the tower
again, tears streaming down her face.
"Lily, wait," came Professor Benson's
voice. Lily took off, at high speed. "Lily!" She felt someone grab her arm.
"Let go," said Lily.
"I need to explain to you," said Professor
Benson.
"What is there to explain?" asked Lily.
"You're married for Christ's sake."
"You never asked," said Professor Benson.
"Well, when someone kisses you, you kind of
assume that they aren't married," said Lily. "And then when it progresses to
the next level, you definitely don't think, 'hmmm, I wonder if he's married?'
It's really not what you think about!"
"You don't know what its
like, to have a wife and a kid and not be with them," said Professor Benson.
"Don't try to make me feel sorry for you,"
said Lily. "I've had enough. I'm leaving now. I never want to see you again."
"Lily," said Professor Benson. "Don't be
like that. You know you don't mean it."
"I do mean it, Professor," said Lily. She turned on her heel, but he grabbed her
arm and spun her around.
"Lily," he said. "You know I love you, come
on." He kissed her.
"Professor, no," said Lily. "You're
married. You're a father. Go be with your family and let me be."
"But I need you, Lily," said Professor Benson.
"No you…" she was cut off by another kiss.
"No, Professor." Lily turned and walked away, leaving Professor Benson standing
alone in the corridor.
* * *
James was flying laps around the Quidditch
Pitch when he saw Lily walk out onto the field. He flew to the ground and
landed next to her.
"Yeah?" he asked.
"I can't come by and watch you guys?" asked
Lily. "Besides, it's getting late, you must want breakfast."
"Look, Lily, I don't know if I can do
this," said James. "I mean I love you and all, but I love you, too. I can't see you with that guy, knowing your going to
get hurt."
"You don't have to anymore," said Lily. "I
met his wife this morning."
"Oh, Lil, I'm so sorry," said James. He
hugged her, and she looked up at him.
"I love you," she said.
"I love you, too," said James.
"No, I mean," said Lily, and she kissed
him.
"Oh, you mean," said James and he kissed
her.
"Yeah, that's what I mean," said Lily. She
laughed, and kissed James again. Sirius flew down to see what had distracted
James, and when he found out, he laughed to himself.
"Well Peter," said Sirius to himself.
"Looks like you owe me a sickle."