By Gohanzgirl
Rated: Pg 13
Title: To Fall Chapter 2
6/15/01
It was dark and cold. I was huddled in the corner of the small holding room, my arms
were wrapped around my legs in mock comfort. My chin rested on my knees as I
silently watched the people packed around me. The faces of the people were hopeless,
their eyes dull. I knew that I must look the same, my back hurt from the lashing I had
taken and I took a shuddering breath. Feeling the pain made me gasp, nobody seemed
to notice. They were all living with their own pain, I suppressed a whimper.
I clutched my arms tight around my legs ignoring the pain for now, I buried my beak
farther into my knees. I just wanted to disappear, get away from all the pain, suffering
the daily beatings and the death. I dreaded morning, dreaded the light that would cause
it all to start again. I wanted to fall asleep and never wake up.
The first crack of light filtering in to the room caught my eye, I looked up and there was no one
in the room but me. No one but me... my eyes widened in fear as the metal door opened
and a big black Draconian came into the room. His tail whipped back and forth, and he
eagerly smiled at me a glint in his eyes evil as the sun is bright.
I whimpered and shrank back as he started forward.
"Here ducky ducky ducky."
He grabbed at me, and I screamed. He grabbed my flailing wrists and pushed me hard into
the wall. I screamed one ragged breath after another until he finally hit me in the gut. I tried
to double over, but he pushed me back against the wall.
He was pulling his pants of, Oh stars he was going to rape me. I struggled with every thing
still trying to scream. This time he punched me in the face my head slammed backwards
into the wall and my body became numb. White spots danced in front of my eyes.
I was screaming before I knew what was happening, then something farther away something
I knew was yelling. Yelling something about open my eyes, Instead I screamed again.
I was flailing around and being shaken I opened my eyes and this time did not see the Draconian
I didn't see the cell or the metal door. I was in my room at the pond on earth I wasn't back in
the camp or the cell. Wildwing was looking at me with worried eyes.
"Nosedive are you all right?" He brushed my bangs back from my face, a flash of the Draconian
entered my mind and I cringed away from his touch. "Nosedive?" I heard a small sound from the
door and looked up to find everyone awake and looking in my room.
"I locked the door." I realized aloud and looked at Wildwing. I had sat up and pushed into the corner
of the bed by the wall away from Wildwing and from every one else. I pulled my knees up to my
chest locked my arms around them and brought my face into my knees.
Wildwing looked at me worriedly, "The kid ok?" Duke said from the doorway. I risked a glance in
there direction with out looking up.
"Yeah." I answered his question myself. "I fine." Wildwing nodded and they all left back to there
sleep or whatever they were doing at what time. I looked at the clock, 3:42 in the morning. Wildwing
stayed though.
"What's up Nosedive?" He asked as he settled his butt more firmly on the bed side saving himself
from falling off.
"Im fine." I mumbled "just a bad dream."
"you weren't fine a few minutes ago. It must have been some dream to have you screaming like that."
I kept my eyes on the blanket, tracing its patterns, I had woken up screaming? Great! really shows
the baby that I am. "Do you want to talk about it?"
That one took me by surprise, I flinched. Did I want to tell Wildwing what happened to me back on puck
world? I hadn't had one of these nightmares since after I found Wildwing again. Why the hell now?
I risked a glance at him, he was looking at me giving me his full attention.
Did I want to see a look of disgust that he would truly show to me for not being able to fend the monster
off. I shuddered No. That's not what I wanted I didn't want to see that look from Wildwing, why should he
know that I was ... was raped.
"No Im fine." I said the words monotone. Did I want to talk about It? Hell I don't know.
He didn't look like he wanted to accept it. "You know Nosedive any time you want to talk about Anything
Im here." I nodded my head.
"Sure."
He looked unsure of himself and looked down at the bedding, something caught his interest and he lifted
up the sheet with blood on it. "What happened?" He said a bit worried.
I shrugged at him, He looked at me and then found my fist, It still had the dried blood on it. "Dive! what
happened to your hand?" He scooted forward reaching forward. Truthfully until he mentioned it I didn't feel
a thing now it stung like a SOB.
He pulled my hand away from my knees examining it, "What happened." I sighed an tried to pull it away,
he tightened his grip on my wrist.
"I hurt it last night after you left on one of the tread mill. You know stupid me I dropped my comm. and
went to grab it and my hand went into the tred mill wheel." There I said it a little lie never hurt any one
besides I didn't want to get yelled at for smashing my fist into the wall.
"Why didn't you go to med bay." He looked at me letting loose my hand that I pulled back.
"It wasn't very bad." I shrugged I seemed to be doing that allot lately.
"In the morning I want Tonya to check it out ok." It wasn't a question It was a command, I in my
shrugging mood shrugged again.
"Nosedive." He said with an again ordering tone.
"Fine." He leaned back.
"So your sure your ok?" He asked with worry again in his voice. I was getting sick of it I Im not
the baby he thinks I am. But I was terrified. I shook the thoughts off.
"Im fine. Im going back to sleep now." actually I was far from going back to sleep I just wanted
him to stop worrying over me and leave me alone.
"ok I'll see you in the morning. Your sure you don't want to talk?" I rolled over mumbled Im fine
again. I heard the whoosh door close and I turned and clicked on the light. Pushing my self into
the corner again I gripped my knees close to my chest.
Staring off into nothing is how I spent my night I was most certainly NOT going back to sleep.
Disclaimer: Hey peoples second chapter and this one is pretty long... (for me that is) I hope
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