Shades of Light and Darkness
Prelude to Behind the Mask
yami no ako
Vulnerability…
All who meet me perceive me to be vulnerable.
But I am not.
I am not what I seem to be.
You can think I am a shivering coward, letting others battle for me.
But you would be wrong.
Very wrong.
I am no pathetic pushover.
I watch and I see.
You think I am naïve and innocent, that I know no wrong.
That would be wrong.
I am far from helpless, far from being an innocent maiden.
I no longer want to hide behind this naïve mask.
It is merely a formality.
Why do I pretend not to know everyone around me is in love with me?
Because I am "clueless".
Because they do not think I know.
So I let them dream.
Sooner or later their dreams will be shattered and they will all crumble down.
But Little Wolf, does he know what it means to dream, to hope?
He is far less innocent than I.
He, growing up in a cruel clan that roots out the weak and promotes the strong.
He knows of happiness, of life, of vulnerability.
Yet he does not take that path.
I have grown to like him, to truly accept him.
To dream is to place your faith in something that won't come true.
Those who dream openly admit they are naïve.
My best friend is.
Yet, even I cannot penetrate into her inner layers.
I do not know Tomoyo.
And I don't think I ever will.
All she seems to care about is me.
Why?
Why does she take the path of pretended selflessness?
She could not really be selfless.
What is power?
What is life?
What is death?
What is hope?
Who…
Am I?
Am I that sakura petal standing before me, innocent and true?
Am I the black rose who seems to be beautiful but is truly evil?
Who is Kinomoto Sakura?
I suppose there are some questions that can never be answered.
That, I suppose, is one of them.
Owari.
Oops, I made Sakura sound like Mewtwo? "This cannot be… my DESTINY!" and all that yadda da. Heehee. Um, well, if you liked that you might like this series I'm planning. Basically I give a second, deeper, look to all the characters. Most will be longer, um, consider this a prelude.
People I've thought of:
Eriol
Syaoran
Tomoyo(duh)
Kaho
Cerberus
Yue
Clow
Touya
Yukito
Fujitaka
Nadeshiko
Sonomi
Nakuru/Ruby Moon
Spinel Sun
Um, that's all I can think of.
If you want to think of some characters I haven't mentioned and have me write them, either e-mail me or review this story or others of mine.