CHAPTER SIX: PAIN AND FORGIVENESS
~*LILY'S POV*~
The next day was worse. James was having bad attitude problems toward Sirius and Remus. Poor Peter got smashed into a wall because James was so angry. He got so angry that he stayed in his room all day. I was trying to cope with James's fan club. The girls glared at me and hissed mean words when I passed. All I could do was walk on without a word.
The day was ending and I couldn't take it anymore. I decided I would apologize to James and try to get him to forgive me. I ran up to his room, but he wasn't there. I only saw Remus on his bed reading a book quietly. I moved toward him and said, "Where is James, Remus, I need to talk to him. It's important."
Remus looked up from his book and said, "He said he was going out for a walk. I suppose he went to the lake, that's where he likes to cool off."
I thanked Remus and walked off to find Sirius. I knew that James wasn't at the lake and he wasn't with Sirius. He usually goes everywhere with Sirius, but today I knew something was wrong. I could feel it in my heart. I found Sirius in the kitchens stuffing his face with food. He smiled with chocolate sauce all over his face. I pushed aside the smile and said, "Sirius, James has disappeared and I don't know where to find him. He's in trouble and I can feel it."
Sirius quickly wiped his mouth and said in a serious voice, "We have to find James. Get Remus and Peter."
I nodded my head and tore down to the common room. I found Peter playing chess with Tom Longbottom. I quickly grabbed Peter by the collar and dragged him up to Remus's room. Peter struggled and said, "Lily! What are you doing?"
I looked at them both and said, "James is in trouble, we have to move fast."
They nodded and followed me to the school entrance where Sirius sat as Padfoot. I followed Sirius as he sniffed for James's scent. He started to head toward the Womping Willow. Then I saw James. He was unconscious and bleeding near it. I ran to him and pulled his head off the ground and cried. His face was all cut and bleeding. His arms were lashed and his clothes were in shreds. Sirius turned back into a person and told Remus to go fetch Madam Pomfrey. He ran toward the castle and Peter just stood there staring at me cry and hold the unconscious James. Sirius bent down next to me taking James's pulse and said, "Don't worry, Lily, he's still alive."
I cried even harder. It was my fault he did this to himself. If I told him the whole story before he left, this wouldn't have happened. Then I felt a hand pull me back. I screamed and flung myself on James. I heard Madam Pomfrey say, "Lily, I need to get him to the hospital wing before he looses anymore blood."
I got off of James and sat there on the grass. Madam Pomfrey conjured a stretcher and it floated behind her while she walked to the castle. I sat there near the blood soaked ground. I got up and walked wearily to the castle.
When I got into the castle I ran up to the stairs to the hospital wing, accidentally running down a first year. When I got to the infirmary, I saw James in bandages lying on the white sheets of the bed. His face was pale and lifeless. I pulled a seat next to his bed and cried. I sat there all night holding James's hand and crying.
The next morning, there were no classes because of the ball. I just sat there all day. Sirius and Remus came in once and awhile to check up on him and me. Before the ball started, Sirius bursted through the door all dressed up and in arm and arm with Mandie. She walked up to me and said, "I'm sorry what I said about you Lily and I hope he gets better."
All I could do was smile weakly and sigh. Sirius walked up to me and said, "Lily, don't worry, he'll come around and be beating up Malfoy in no time!"
I again smiled weakly and said goodbye to them. I held James's lifeless hand and kissed it. I looked up at the ceiling and said, "James, I'm sorry, I love you and always will!"
I cried in his hand and suddenly I heard him grunt. I looked up at him and said, "James?"
He said, "Shhhh, Lily don't cry, please don't cry. I don't like it when you cry. It clouds those beautiful eyes of yours."
I looked at him and smiled with tears in my eyes. I said, "James! You're back! I thought you'd die because it's all my fault. I never should have done that to you."
James said softly, "Did what? Lily, you didn't do anything. I was stupid to think that you would every cheat on me. I love you Lily."
I sat there and leaned over to kiss him. When we broke apart. I saw Madam Pomfrey look at me disapprovingly. She said, "Child, that's an injured boy. So please don't push his bruises."
I nodded my head and headed out of the hospital wing. Then it hit me. Today was the winter ball and I had missed it. I didn't care though. As long as I knew that James had forgiven me and that we were together again.
~*JAMES'S POV*~
When I woke up that morning I was in a very bad attitude. I couldn't believe that Lily could cheat on me! I deserved her and she deserved me. We were meant to be. I was being mean toward Remus and Sirius. Peter got in my way in one of my anger outbursts and I accidentally smashed him into a wall. I just mumbled an apology and ran to my room and locked the door. I wasn't going to class today. I wasn't going to eat today. I was just going to stay in my room and think about what Lily did to me.
When the sun was setting I couldn't stand myself anymore. I wanted to die. I just wanted to end it all here and then. I grabbed my invisibility cloak and ran down to the Womping Willow. I just stood there and stared at it for a minute. I felt a tear run down my cheek. I never cried about anything. I felt my body jump itself right at the Womping Willow. It felt like a million knives were cutting into my body. I yelled out, but then I couldn't see anything and fell to the floor.
The last thing I saw was Lily's crying face and then I passed out again. I felt so bad to make Lily cry like that. I never did like to see tears stream down her face. When I was unconscious I dreamed that Lily and I got married and we had a son. I could hear an evil laugh and then a flashing green light. Then I saw her there as an angel. My Lily Evans as an angel. Glowing with beautiful white wings and a pure gold halo. She smiled at me and said, "We're together now."
I open my eyes and grunted. I heard Lily say, "James?"
I could feel her tears on my hand and I tried to lift my hand up to wipe her hands up, but couldn't. I said, "Shhhh, Lily don't cry, please don't cry. I don't like it when you cry. It clouds those beautiful eyes of yours."
She said, "James! You're back! I thought you'd die because it's all my fault. I never should have done that to you."
I said softly, "Did what? Lily, you didn't do anything. I was stupid to think that you would every cheat on me. I love you Lily."
At that Lily bent over and kissed me gently. I smiled and fell back asleep. When I woke up the next day I remembered that Lily and I had missed the ball, but it didn't matter to me because I had Lily and no one else would.
~*LILY'S POV*~
The next day was worse. James was having bad attitude problems toward Sirius and Remus. Poor Peter got smashed into a wall because James was so angry. He got so angry that he stayed in his room all day. I was trying to cope with James's fan club. The girls glared at me and hissed mean words when I passed. All I could do was walk on without a word.
The day was ending and I couldn't take it anymore. I decided I would apologize to James and try to get him to forgive me. I ran up to his room, but he wasn't there. I only saw Remus on his bed reading a book quietly. I moved toward him and said, "Where is James, Remus, I need to talk to him. It's important."
Remus looked up from his book and said, "He said he was going out for a walk. I suppose he went to the lake, that's where he likes to cool off."
I thanked Remus and walked off to find Sirius. I knew that James wasn't at the lake and he wasn't with Sirius. He usually goes everywhere with Sirius, but today I knew something was wrong. I could feel it in my heart. I found Sirius in the kitchens stuffing his face with food. He smiled with chocolate sauce all over his face. I pushed aside the smile and said, "Sirius, James has disappeared and I don't know where to find him. He's in trouble and I can feel it."
Sirius quickly wiped his mouth and said in a serious voice, "We have to find James. Get Remus and Peter."
I nodded my head and tore down to the common room. I found Peter playing chess with Tom Longbottom. I quickly grabbed Peter by the collar and dragged him up to Remus's room. Peter struggled and said, "Lily! What are you doing?"
I looked at them both and said, "James is in trouble, we have to move fast."
They nodded and followed me to the school entrance where Sirius sat as Padfoot. I followed Sirius as he sniffed for James's scent. He started to head toward the Womping Willow. Then I saw James. He was unconscious and bleeding near it. I ran to him and pulled his head off the ground and cried. His face was all cut and bleeding. His arms were lashed and his clothes were in shreds. Sirius turned back into a person and told Remus to go fetch Madam Pomfrey. He ran toward the castle and Peter just stood there staring at me cry and hold the unconscious James. Sirius bent down next to me taking James's pulse and said, "Don't worry, Lily, he's still alive."
I cried even harder. It was my fault he did this to himself. If I told him the whole story before he left, this wouldn't have happened. Then I felt a hand pull me back. I screamed and flung myself on James. I heard Madam Pomfrey say, "Lily, I need to get him to the hospital wing before he looses anymore blood."
I got off of James and sat there on the grass. Madam Pomfrey conjured a stretcher and it floated behind her while she walked to the castle. I sat there near the blood soaked ground. I got up and walked wearily to the castle.
When I got into the castle I ran up to the stairs to the hospital wing, accidentally running down a first year. When I got to the infirmary, I saw James in bandages lying on the white sheets of the bed. His face was pale and lifeless. I pulled a seat next to his bed and cried. I sat there all night holding James's hand and crying.
The next morning, there were no classes because of the ball. I just sat there all day. Sirius and Remus came in once and awhile to check up on him and me. Before the ball started, Sirius bursted through the door all dressed up and in arm and arm with Mandie. She walked up to me and said, "I'm sorry what I said about you Lily and I hope he gets better."
All I could do was smile weakly and sigh. Sirius walked up to me and said, "Lily, don't worry, he'll come around and be beating up Malfoy in no time!"
I again smiled weakly and said goodbye to them. I held James's lifeless hand and kissed it. I looked up at the ceiling and said, "James, I'm sorry, I love you and always will!"
I cried in his hand and suddenly I heard him grunt. I looked up at him and said, "James?"
He said, "Shhhh, Lily don't cry, please don't cry. I don't like it when you cry. It clouds those beautiful eyes of yours."
I looked at him and smiled with tears in my eyes. I said, "James! You're back! I thought you'd die because it's all my fault. I never should have done that to you."
James said softly, "Did what? Lily, you didn't do anything. I was stupid to think that you would every cheat on me. I love you Lily."
I sat there and leaned over to kiss him. When we broke apart. I saw Madam Pomfrey look at me disapprovingly. She said, "Child, that's an injured boy. So please don't push his bruises."
I nodded my head and headed out of the hospital wing. Then it hit me. Today was the winter ball and I had missed it. I didn't care though. As long as I knew that James had forgiven me and that we were together again.
~*JAMES'S POV*~
When I woke up that morning I was in a very bad attitude. I couldn't believe that Lily could cheat on me! I deserved her and she deserved me. We were meant to be. I was being mean toward Remus and Sirius. Peter got in my way in one of my anger outbursts and I accidentally smashed him into a wall. I just mumbled an apology and ran to my room and locked the door. I wasn't going to class today. I wasn't going to eat today. I was just going to stay in my room and think about what Lily did to me.
When the sun was setting I couldn't stand myself anymore. I wanted to die. I just wanted to end it all here and then. I grabbed my invisibility cloak and ran down to the Womping Willow. I just stood there and stared at it for a minute. I felt a tear run down my cheek. I never cried about anything. I felt my body jump itself right at the Womping Willow. It felt like a million knives were cutting into my body. I yelled out, but then I couldn't see anything and fell to the floor.
The last thing I saw was Lily's crying face and then I passed out again. I felt so bad to make Lily cry like that. I never did like to see tears stream down her face. When I was unconscious I dreamed that Lily and I got married and we had a son. I could hear an evil laugh and then a flashing green light. Then I saw her there as an angel. My Lily Evans as an angel. Glowing with beautiful white wings and a pure gold halo. She smiled at me and said, "We're together now."
I open my eyes and grunted. I heard Lily say, "James?"
I could feel her tears on my hand and I tried to lift my hand up to wipe her hands up, but couldn't. I said, "Shhhh, Lily don't cry, please don't cry. I don't like it when you cry. It clouds those beautiful eyes of yours."
She said, "James! You're back! I thought you'd die because it's all my fault. I never should have done that to you."
I said softly, "Did what? Lily, you didn't do anything. I was stupid to think that you would every cheat on me. I love you Lily."
At that Lily bent over and kissed me gently. I smiled and fell back asleep. When I woke up the next day I remembered that Lily and I had missed the ball, but it didn't matter to me because I had Lily and no one else would.