[A/N: This is a monologue, G/?, but preferably G/H. It's up to you. Disturbing, angsty, etc. You can probably guess the situation by the end of the monologue. Please R/R.]
Well why don't you just close your eyes and breathe
You don't know you're all that matters to me
Don't tell me you hurt when I'm crumbling but you can't see
Pain to me is common
Everyday I tell myself I just hit rock bottom
But since it's all for you
It's all I'll ever do
Everyday I wake up and it's today. Every night I tell myself, tomorrow I'll stop loving you. Tomorrow it'll be different... tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow I'll..
And everyday when I wake up it's always today.. you know, I live for you. I wake up solely for the purpose of seeing your face, breathing the same air you do, walking upon the same ground you do, seeing the same things, hearing the same things, and touching the same things that.. you do.
They tell me I'm crazy. They had the nerve to tell me, just yesterday, that you died, long ago, protecting me. They also told me that you died because you loved me. But that's not true, except for the latter, I mean. If it was true, then that would mean that I never had the chance to tell you that I loved you in return. That I never told you how gorgeous you are, beautiful and breathtaking, that you are my love. It means that you died, not knowing I loved you in return. Can you believe it? They're the ones who are crazy.
You're the light of my life. If you were really dead, then I'd be dead, too. I couldn't live without you. You're not dead.
And that's why I wait for you, day by day, to come and see me. They gave me a room for free, you know. Lovely decoration. It's all white, and soft, and they serve me meals everyday. The food isn't that great, but hey, it's free. I wait for you to come, so I can tell you I love you. I'm waiting for you to come, so you can prove them wrong, so you can take me away from here and we can live the life we both deserve. I know you'll come, because you love me, and I love you too. Everyday I see your face in my dreams, and I can't wait to see it in reality. I remember your eyes, a cool blue, but always flashing with warmth when you saw me. Filled with love. And I remember the feel of your ivory skin beneath my fingertips, so silky smooth and warm. I remember the feel of your lips captured beneath mine, so soft, so.. alright. I think they injected something into me again. I don't remember anymore.. oh well. I love you so much it hurts. Well, when you come, you'll be sure to know. I'll show you.
I'm waiting for you patiently, day by day, for you to come. When you come, there'll be light, and happiness, and joy, and everything else. I'll wait for you for as long as you take, almost forever, maybe, because I know it won't be forever, because you'll come. Everyday I'll get ready and make myself look nice for you, because maybe today's the day you'll arrive. I'll just wait, and wait, and wait, because I know you're faithful, and I want you to know that I'm just as faithful, too. Are you waiting outside the door, listening to me? Ginny, are you there? I'm waiting for you, I love you, I love you so much, are you there? Tell me, are you there? I love you, oh God I love you, Ginny, Ginny, Ginny, please come to me.. please.. I'm waiting..