"Breathe" : By Koneko
C&C wanted! Needed! Gimme!!
Email: rhiannon02@yahoo.com

Note: I don't own the characters of Gundam Wing...any character that
I do eventually make is my own. The situation is mine. The characters
aint, got that? Don't sue me!

Chapter 1

As I lay in the soft warmness of my bed, I got to thinking. I know, I know,
you expect me, the world's most famous blonde to think? You might be
surprised to find out that I actually do a lot of thinking… about a lot of
things. First, is my declining relationship with Heero Yuy. I used to be in
love with him, but then… well… he chose a guy over me. I'm alright with
that though, now I realize how silly and immature my love for him was.
Now, I see him as a protector, like a brother. Second, is my growing
relationship with Hilde. She's my best friend, but things seem to be going a
bit…what's the word? Awry? Perhaps… in a different direction than I
planned. I do love her, but maybe not in that way. I honestly don't know
because I've never been in love before. I mean real love, not puppy love.
"Whatcha thinkin' about, Relena?"
"Anything and everything, Hilde."
"Are you thinking about what we're doing?" she asked, referring to how she
had her arms around me. She pulled me closer when she said that last
remark, making a sexual innuendo. Goody.
"Actually, yes. Among other things." I answered, ignoring the innuendo.
I honestly don't mind having her arms wrapped around me; in fact, it's a
great source of comfort to me. I love any sort of contact between she
and I. I also love getting that morning hug from my brother and Noin.
Yeah, they're married. They make the sweetest couple in my opinion, they
always have some sort of surprise waiting around the next bend, and you
can tell that they are totally and completely in love with the world around
them, and each other.
"Really? What other things, lieb?" She asked, curious to hear my inner
thoughts.
"I'm thinking about Heero…" I started, and then realized that was a bad
thing to say. She's still upset about losing Duo. I realize now how I lost
Heero. Duo is so, lively, and I'm just a puppet for the masses. Duo can
choose his destiny, and I have to live for the world…it's one of those
freedom issues. "And about Milliardo and Noin. And what a great couple
they are."
When I mentioned Milliardo and Noin, her expressions lit up. She loved to
hear about them; she looked up to Noin as a role model and hero. They
both had gone through so much war, and both are great soldiers. That's
how Hilde is here now, she's my bodyguard…but I like to think of her more
as the savior of my soul. She and I…we have this bond that I can reach
out and touch. I love being able to do that… to have someone that I'm so
close to.
"Yeah, they are a great couple, aren't they? I just wish that I could find
someone like that." She sighed, "You know, that I could spend my life with."
She always dreams of finding her Prince Charming… the guy on a white
horse… I just want someone who understands me.
"Yes, I know. You want a man like Duo, who's fun to be around, who you
can joke with, and who will make you breakfast in bed." I said, smiling.
Suddenly, a thought entered my head… "But what if you find the person
that has all those qualities…"
"And?" she asked, wondering where I was going with that question. "And if
they're not a guy? Is that it?"
"Yeah, onee-chan. What if they're a girl?"
She thought for a moment. I could tell that she was really thinking about
this, hard. I know that after I lost… well, I can't really say lost because I
never had him, but after Heero left, I didn't know if I wanted a guy or a girl.
I know, it sounds weird… but after a leave-off like that, I wasn't going to
let a guy hurt me again…so that left only one other choice.
"I wouldn't find anything wrong with it." She said, her voice serious for
once. "As long as the love and everything is there, I have no qualms with
where I find it."
How did I know she'd say that?
"Why? Are you hinting at something, imouto-chan?" She asked, joking
again.
"M-me? Why would I do that… you're my best friend!" I said, surprised…
"But that doesn't mean anything… just that we get emotionally attached to
each other." She said.
"Let's not talk so serious," I said, tightening my grip around her waist, "I do
enough of that in the day time. Just hold me and make me feel safe." And
I do feel safe around her…
"That I can do… that I will do, Relena." She said, kissing my cheek. "Good
night. I'll be here when you wake up."
And so, we fell asleep like that, tangled in each other's arms. Other people
might have thought it strange, but we need that kind of close contact. I
can only imagine Milliardo's response if he walked in my room, to see his
little sister cuddled up with a person in her big fluffy bed. Let alone that the
person is Hilde, another girl. I don't care though, anything that happens
between us is destined to, I guess. Fate brought her to me, and I wouldn't
ever let her go. Ever.
I had a weird dream that night. A very strange dream. I saw a blue ball of
light bouncing around me, and it knocked me over. A hand reached out to
pick me up, but it wasn't Hilde's as I was expecting. It was a young man's.
He looked to be around my age, with shoulder length black hair. He didn't
look oriental, perhaps Indian, with a mix of Scandinavian thrown in. The
deepest blue eyes I'd ever seen looked back at me after he helped me up.
"Relena." Was all he said. That's it. Then I woke up. Scary, ne?

I opened my eyes and the sun immediately blinded me. Groping around
with my hands, I could tell that Hilde was still there, just like she always is.
Having a living teddy bear is fun… especially when she doesn't have claws.
Sliding off the bed, I went to check the clock and my daily planner. Flipping
through the pages, I saw a vid-meeting with the president of the L3 colony
over some minor trade disputes. That should be fun. At least it was a
three o clock. Glancing at the clock on my roll-top desk, I decided that I
needed to get dressed and check on how breakfast was coming. Even
though I don't eat breakfast, (I just can't stand the thought of food in the
morning…) Hilde does, so I ask the cooks to make her some bacon and
eggs. Her favorite. I know all the things that she likes, how can I not?
I'm around her for twenty-two hours of the day! (The other two are when
I'm either in classified meetings or I'm showering) Checking the clock a
gain, 8:30, I decided to take a shower. That's usually the only thing that
wakes me up in the mornings. Forgoing the getting dressed, I left my satin
pants suit in a heap on the floor. Taking off my pajamas, I left them too
in a heap on the floor, just to the right of the satin suit. So, walking into the
bathroom (one adjoined to my bedroom), I turned on the light and turned
to look at my reflection in the mirror. Shuddering in horror, I saw a
mixture of words and Japanese characters scrawled in red lipstick on the
mirror. I didn't know much Japanese, but I guessed the meaning from the
English words. "Hilde!!!! Get in here!" I screamed, running to my bed.
She woke up almost instantly, reaching for her gun, which she had taken
off and left on my bedside table.
"What is it, Relena?" She asked, concerned. She had two reasons to be
concerned: one, I screamed. I normally don't scream. And two, I was
standing in front of the bed, buck nekkid. "Relena, here," she said, handing
me her robe, "Put it on." She was grinning.
"So what is it?" She said, switching back to the matter at hand.
"Come with me into the bathroom." I said, stuttering. I grabbed her hand
and pulled her into the bathroom. "That," I said, shoving her in the general
direction of the mirror, "is what scared me."
She took one look at it and sighed. "Why do they need to start doing this?
There's no point." She obviously knew something.
"Do you have an idea on who did this?" I asked, already knowing that she
did.
"Yeah, but why on Earth did they actually sign it? To lead us off the track
of who did it?"
"Do you know what the Japanese says? I don't understand it." I asked,
hoping for some clarifying information. The English, I understood that quite
well. It said,
"Darlian, Peacecraft daughter,
Be afraid, afraid of water,
If you aren't, you'll surely die,
And it won't be my fault…"
And then there was some Japanese; I could only recognize one character,
"hi" which meant "Fire". That's just confusing, water in English and fire in
Japanese? "Why does it say fire? It says water in English, then fire in
Japanese? What kind of screwed up person did this?" I asked, getting
sarcastic…I can tend to do that when I'm scared or angry… And I was a
little of both. I clung to Hilde, making her my anchor. I had always known
that some people would never like me, but to the point of going into my
bathroom? How'd they get past the guards?
Tugging on my arm a little, Hilde brought my attention back to reality, "That
Japanese ain't Japanese, sugar."
"But those are Japanese characters!"
"Yeah, they are."
"So how are they not Japanese?" I asked, getting rather confused. This
was getting me nowhere, and quickly.
"You know how there are some English words in Japanese characters?
With their own set of characters?" She asked.
"Yeah."
"Well, these are those…but the instead of the words in English, they're in
German."
"German?" I exclaimed, my voice growing louder by the minute. "This is
just great! There's a person with the sneakiness of Duo Maxwell, but this
person can also write fluent English, German, and Japanese?!"
"No, I don't believe that." She answered, placing her hands on my
shoulders, "Breathe, Relena. We'll get this figured out."
"I hope so, Hilde… I'm scared." I started crying, this was all too much!
Why would people sneak into my room, just to leave me a message?
Everything is just so scary and odd.
"Never fear when I'm here, Relena. I'll protect you with my very life, you
are a part of me, and I don't know what I'd do without you." Hilde finished,
hugging me tightly.