Mistake

Mistake

Chapter Four

It had been two hours since I had locked myself in my room & I was guessing that I had fallen asleep because I woke up to… KNOCK, KNOCK. " Alex, dinners ready." " Ok Don be right out." I went over to my dresser & put on some gray sweat pants & an old I love New York tee-shirt just to be more comfortable.

I walked out of my room to see that Casey & April had come over for dinner. " Hey there squirt." " Hey Casey." " There's the girl with a head full of gold." I blushed at April's compliment. I loved it when people complimented me. It made me think about my parents beauty & that maybe I looked just like them.

" Let's eat guys. I didn't cook & slave over a stove for nothin you know." Everyone laughed at Mike's lame sense of humor & then started eating while talking about everything from A to Z. Then that horrible question that I always dread was asked. " So Alex, are you going steady with any of your little classmates yet?" " You mean going out?" " Oh I guess the times have changed, so are you *going out* with anybody?" Any other day I would have said no & bit my tongue, but not today. I had been pushed to my limit. " Well it's kinda hard to when your family wont let you have any friends let alone a boy." The room fell silent. I could just imagine smoke coming from splinters ears right about now, but I didn't have the courage to look him in the face.

" Alex excuse yourself from this table & go to my room immediately." " Yes master Splinter." I saw everybody staring at me with sympathetic stares as I walked away from the table, but I wasn't sorry for what I did. It was true wasn't it? My whole life I had to give everything up to save them & I was sick of it. What about me?

I walked into his room & sat down on his Japanese straw bed that he called a futon. I knew I was gonna get it, but I didn't care I was going to tell him how I felt & if he didn't care then he really didn't care about me in the first place.

The door opened to reveal a very mad, but calm Splinter. He sat down beside me then started to break down & cry. What the hell?! " Alex my dear I am so terribly sorry." I was in shock! Did he just apologize? " What for master Splinter?" " The life you have had to live in order to keep us protected. I have realized how much you have had to give up & I know it must hurt, but you also must understand I didn't do it to hurt you or harm you I did it out of love."

I couldn't bring myself to speak. He understood all I was going through & was sitting here crying over me while I had just insulted him & had been mad at him for thinking of him as selfish when in reality I was the selfish one.

" Don't be sorry master Splinter I'm just thankful that you do care." Great now he got me all mushy. " Alex we are family & no matter what you do you couldn't stop me or your brothers from loving you." That was the point where I lost my self-control & broke down. Shortly after that Don, Leo, Raph, & Mike had entered the room & soon we all were crying. It was one thing after the other until eventually everyone had fallen asleep except for me. I was laying my head on Leo's shoulder & Don laid his head on my stomach while Mike & Raph used my legs as pillows. I looked over to see Splinter sleeping soundly in his bed & before I drifted off to sleep I wondered where my mother was & if I met her would she feel the same way as Splinter & my brothers? I was going to have to find out.