Have Thy Own Way, Lord!

The church was completely empty, which made Spot feel a little better because now he felt comfortable to let his heart out to God.

He took of his hat, and fiddled with it nervously in his hands. Meaning how he hadn't been in this church for over 10 years, he felt a little bad, and guilty for not coming to God earlier.

He remembered when he'd see his mother cry her heart out to Jesus, she'd bow down at the front of the church, and pray. So that's what he did.

He bend down slowly, and then bowed his head and closed his eyes. He waited a few minutes, trying to figure out the perfect words to say.

"God....da last few days I's been prayin' ta ya more den I's has probably ever prayed in me life....and ya haven't answer one of me prays. Do ya just not care bout me? I'se know I'se have sinned so many times in my life against you, dat I'se lost count years and years ago, but Lord, ya da only one I'se have ta turn ta!" He was slowly starting to get teary-eyed.

"I'se can't do dis on me own! My wife and daughter are all I'se have left....when I'se found dat lettah from Jess tellin' me she was sick, it felt like me heart stopped beatin'! I'se thought I'se would die da day ya took me mudda and fadda away from me when I'se was 9, so after dat I'se promised I'se would nevah love anyone again so dat I'se wouldn't get hurt...but I'se more in love wid Jessie den I'se could eve image lovin' anyone or any'ting....it actually scares me! Me wife and daughter rely on me fer everyt'ing...I'se just feel I'se ain't good enough fer dem God!"

"I'se know I'se don't deserve ya given me such a wonderful goil as Jessie, but by some miracle ya brought her inta me life. And den just ta add ta it, ya blessed us wid a beautiful baby goil on top of it all....please don't take all dat away from me!"

"Maybe da reason why ya ain't answered me prays is because I'se have wandered so far away from ya...I'se remember when I'se was in church when I'se was younger, da pastor sayin' if ya give ya life 100% ta ya, you'll answer dere prays and bless dem.....da only problem wid me is, fa all me life I'se haven't cared at all what ya wanted...I'se wanted ta live me live da way I'se wanted ta!" Spot was now sobbing. It took a lot out of a boy like Spot to totally admit that they had been living wrong.

"But lord.....I'se will do anything..... if ya will let me keep me family!" He got out between tears. His throat was getting that feeling like he couldn't breath from crying so hard. He sniffled. "I'se know I'se only a simple man, and I'se am gonna mess up more times in me life that I'se won't be able ta count...but Jesus...from dis day forward, I'se give me life totally and completely ta ya! I'se want ya ta come into me life and save me! My life is now yours...do what you want with it..." He cried laying his head in his arms on the ground, and for the next hour, he laid there sobbing, and just talking to his new lord and savor.

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(Author Note: Some of you who are reading this may not like Christian stories, but I, AM christian, and this is my story so I am going to put God in it if I want...I mean Jesus is just so awesome! Why shouldn't I? I know some people dislike God (All though I admit I don't know how) They may even hate him! But just because I decided to put it in MY story, I do not feel like having to deal with hate emails, so please if any of you did not like this, and if it even someone offended you (if it did, I am sorry) please do not bother reviewing it with something mean or nasty having to go with this chapter having to do with God, because it will be ignored. Anyway, I REALLY do hope everyone is enjoying it so far! I hope I didn't sound mean, I just wanted to make sure everyone understood! Love ya! *~NYC_gurl*~