Chapter 1~The Love
of a Girl
Kagome sat by the stream, watching
Inuyasha sulk about the last time he became a full demon. He'd killed
humans that had done nothing, and his face was truely sad. He'd told
her she didn't have to pretend to want to be near him, but he didn't know
how much she wanted just that.
Inuyasha looked up sadly, gazing
across the waters. He didn't understand how Kagome could stand to
sit anywhere near him. After he'd kill humans, she should have left
him...yet...yet...
She remained. Her warm
eyes met his sad ones and he winced, looking away again. A sad look
flitted over Kagome's face. "Inuyasha..." She whispered.
"Kagome...I'm..." He felt
two warm arms wrap around his neck in a gentle hug. "I don't want
to hurt you..." He admitted.
She leaned her head against
his and sighed. "I trust you, Inuyasha..." She whispered, tightening
her hug.
"But...if I change again...what
if I-"
"That's not you." She
responded, moving to face him, a smile on her face. "That full demon
is a counter part that has no control or heart..." Her smile faltered.
"I refuse to be afraid of you..."
He smiled grimly. "You
should be afraid of me. You saw how those villagers reacted after
I killed those bandits...They were smart...you're just stupid..."
He looked away, waiting to be sat, anything, just to get rid of the sad
look on Kagome's face.
"Inuyasha-"
"Please, don't stay here, I
don't wish to hurt you..." He hung his head to hide the tear winding
down his face. *I'm afraid I'll kill you...I don't want to hurt you...*
Warms hands gently caressed
his ears. "Inuyasha, I will not be afraid of you...I wont let myself.
I've been afraid FOR you...and only of you when you tried to kill me in
the beginning, but now..."
"If I harmed you, it would never
come out..." He whispered, staring at his hands, another tear falling.
"What?"
"The smell...I don't want my
claws stained in your blood, Kagome...Please, go to your time, seal the
well, do whatever you have to do to keep me away from you..."
Kagome looked at his claws,
clean as they may be, she knew they still smelled like the blood of humans
to him. For a moment, she entertained the idea of leaving him again.
"I can't." She whispered. "It hurt me too much to leave you
last time..."
He felt a pain in his heart
and closed his eyes tightly. "But...-"
She gently claimed one of his
hands, running her hands across it. "The demon form may have used
you to kill humans, but I don't believe it was you. You're Inuyasha,
and you're not a killer." She whispered, lifting his hand to her
face.
Inuyasha stared at her in wonder.
"Kagome...why? Why are you risking your life like this?" He
whispered, noting he'd scratched her face slightly with his over long claws
and a trickle of blood ran down them. He winced at the sight.
Kagome saw it and looked confused.
Bringing his claws before her, she saw a tiny trickle of blood on them.
She lifted her hand to her cheek, touching the slight scratch.
"I can't even touch you without
hurting you..." He whispered, turning away from her. "Please,
I'm-I know if I transform again, I'll harm you..."
She gently lifted his hand and
placed a sweet kiss on it, looking up at him. "I won't leave you."
"Kagome-" He closed his
eyes tightly. "You don't need to pretend to care anymore...you don't
need to pretend you want to be with me...I know you couldn't."
Kagome's eyes narrowed and she
dropped his hand. "I don't know what it's going to take to convince
you, you stubborn boy! If I didn't want to be with you, would I be
here?! If I didn't care for you, would I be trying to help you through
this hard time?!" She put her arms around his neck, hugging him for
dear life. "Is it so hard to believe that I may want to be with you?"
"Yes..." He whispered,
hoarsely.
"Why?" She asked, resting
her head under his chin.
"Because...everyone else is
afraid..." He said.
"I'm not..."
"But-"
"I am NOT afraid of you...I
won't let myself."
"Why...?" He whispered.
Kagome pulled back slightly,
her blue eyes piercing his golden ones. "Because, you stubborn boy,
I love you." She whispered, tears filling her eyes.
He could kill her with words.
If he wanted to, he could. He knew he wouldn't. "Kagome..."
He whispered, sadness filling him. *How could anyone love a murderer?
That's all I am...I'm a murderer...*
She leaned towards him and gently
kissed his lips, closing her eyes as their mouths touched. Her ears
heard him gasp and his entire body went rigid. Still, she didn't
pull away from him. She moved her hands to tangle in his hair and
continued the kiss, tears falling from her eyes as he didn't respond as
she'd hoped.
When she finally pulled away,
he stared at her, pain deep in his eyes. "Kagome..." He repeated.
She looked down. "I shouldn't
have said anything." She said, pulling away from him completely.
When she was almost standing, Inuyasha hugged her around her waist, and
started crying. A soft gasp escapes her.
"Kagome...don't go..."
He begged her, his face buried into her stomache, tears soaking through
the soft fabric.
"Inuyasha..." She whispered,
her eyes wide. *I...I thought he hated me...* A whimper escaped
her and she fell to her knees, leaving the pair to stare at each other
for a moment. "Inuyasha..." She repeated, a tear gliding down
her face.
"Kagome..." He gathered
her against his chest, hugging her tightly. "I love you, too..."
He whispered.
She clung to him, crying into
his kimono as he cried into her collar. "Oh, Inuyasha..." She
whispered, tightening her grasp.
He pulled back slightly, looking
down at her. Her face was lifted to stare up at him, her lower lip
quivering. He swallowed hard, leaning down to kiss her. He
watched her eyes fall closed and gingerly kissed her, listening to her
soft sigh. A moment later, it ended and he blushed.
Kagome looked up at him, her
eyes wide. She leaned towards him, kissing him again. This
one was more assured, and lasted longer. Kagome moved her hands to
his hair, gently caressing it as they kissed. When they finally broke
apart, she felt tears fall from her eyes. "I never thought I'd hear
you say that..." She whispered.
He looked down, and caught her
hands gently. "I'll say it again, if you wish..." He whispered.
*I'll never become a full demon again...not if I can help it, I wont...I
wont let myself hurt her...not this time...I wont screw up this time...*
Kagome happily settled into
his arms, resting her cheek against his chest and sighed. "I hope
things never change..." She whispered.
He bit his lip. *Me too...me
too...*