Mistake
Chapter Thirteen
Two days later I was released from the hospitals care & finally got to go home, but I still had to take it easy. The guys were something else they couldn't leave my side for anything. Splinter was so happy to see me when I came home that he started jumping up & down with joy which was something I had never ever seen him do in my life. I was glad he didn't hate me after everything that I had done so he could have done whatever he wanted as long as he was happy.
It
was the third day I had been released from the hospital & April was having
a celebration dinner at her apartment that night so I was getting ready for the
event. I decided to wear my navy blue parachute pants & a tight fitting
tee-shirt that had a lemon on it & said sweet n sour across it. I wore my
hair down. I was trying to hide the bruises on my neck that those men had
caused. I was worried while I was in the hospital unconscious that the guys
might have seen all the bruises & cuts on me, but they didn't seem to notice.
I don't think they wanted to.
I
was beginning to worry about what to say to the guys about Australia. They
hadn't asked about it directly, but they were starting to give me hints & I
wasn't ready. I decided tonight I would talk to April first for guidance.
"
Hey Alex are you… WHOA you look great Alex." " Why thank you Leo." " Yeah
dudettes looking hot." " Ok enough with the flattering guys lets go."
When
we arrived at April's apartment we were greeted with the smell of her wonderful
Parmesan cheese filled sautéed mushrooms. My favorite. We had a seat &
started eating & talking about everything just like old times. I realized
that I had missed this so much. I felt like one of the luckiest… no I was the
luckiest person in the world. No one was as blessed as me. Not Tracy Smithston
or the kids you see on T.V with the perfect family it was me.
After
we had finished eating April's wonderful blackberry cobbler we decided to watch
a movie. I told April I needed to talk to her before the movie started so we
went to her bedroom for some girl
talk.
"
Now what's bothering you Alex? I think everyone has noticed a little change in
your personality lately." " Well it's about what happened when I was gone."
This wasn't as easy as it sounded. " Ok so what happened." " Well I got a ride
from a guy who had his own plane as you know & I was…um…I was…" " Tell me
Alex." "…Raped."
April
was really quiet. Her eyes opened wide with shock. " April…I'm really sorry. I
didn't mean to…" I started crying which was something that should have been a
daily routine by now, but always made me feel the same. Ashamed & scared. "
Oh Alex…" April grabbed me into a tight embrace & we just cried together.
We were both scared, mad, & sad. It was comforting to have a person who
shared your pain with & that's what April was doing. Giving me a shoulder
to lean on in a time of need.
"
But April what am I going to tell the guys?" " I don't know Alex… there going
to be so upset." " Upset about what?" We turned to see Raph & the rest of
the guys standing in the doorframe staring at us with worried expressions. I
looked at April with worry written all over my face. " Alex…tell them. If you
don't then I will." I was mad at first, but then realized I had kept them in
the closet enough. It was time.
I
started from the beginning about the men on the airplane & what they had
done to me & them my mother & what she said about me being her biggest
mistake. When I was done there wasn't a noise coming from anyone. Then Raph
jumped up & slammed his fist into the wall.
"
I'm gonna kill them. THOSE PERVERTED BASTARDS ARE DEAD!!!" Raph started running
to the door. The guys tackled him, but it wasn't much help. He was lashing at
them & yelling that he was gonna make the men pay. I then turned my head to
see Splinter sitting in the same position shaking & crying. The image
struck me right into my heart. I couldn't take it & collapsed onto my knees
& started sobbing into the floor.
"
Come on sis." Don knelt down & picked me up then started stroking my back.
" I don't know about you guys, but it's been a long night & were going
home. Thanks for dinner April." She nodded & then we left. I couldn't stop
crying the whole way home.
When
we got home Splinter said that in troubled times a family needed to stick
together so we all slept in the living room. I was in between Raph & Mike.
I had my head on Dons stomach who was lying long ways & Leo was sleeping on
the couch while Splinter got the recliner. I couldn't sleep no matter how hard
I tried. The event was still fresh in my mind & wouldn't stop playing over
& over. I thought of what my mother had said about no one loving any one
else, but she had to be wrong right. Before I could stop the tears were running
down my face. God I hated feeling this weak.
"
Your not you know." I turned over to see Leo looking at me sadly. " Not what?"
" A mistake." " Leo I don't…" " No listen. You were one of the best things that
ever happened to this family. You opened up our minds & showed us a love
that we couldn't have possibly had without meeting you. You're the baby sister
& your what makes this family so great." I was speechless. No one had ever
given me such a speech in my life & it touched me.
"
I love you Leo." " I love you more than you know Alex." I got up from my
position on the floor & onto the couch with Leo. He hugged me & then
fell asleep. I tried to leave, but the more I moved the tighter the grip he had
on me. I finally gave up & laid my head on his chest. My head went up &
down with each intake of air. I listened to his snoring & found it soothing
& soon it lulled me to sleep.