Chapter 5~Budding Confusion
Kagome struggled against his
powerfully strong grasp. "I don't...have...it..." She whispered,
trying to speak around the painful grip. "Please...let me go..."
"GIVE ME THE JEWEL!" He
shook her, and her head slammed into the trunk of the tree at her back,
knocking her unconsious.
She whimpered as consiousness
left her. One word, one name. "Inuyasha..."
Inuyasha's head jerked up as
the sound of a limb got his attention. His entire body stiffened
and he stood, chasing after Kagome. *Why does my heart beat like
this...she's just a human...It's not like I care for her...do I...?*
He swallowed, seeing the young human girl slumped against the trunk of
a broken tree.
He knelt before her, his face
concerned. Her face was peaceful and if he couldn't hear her heartbeat,
he'd think she was dead. Tears still stood in her eyes and there
was a rather large bruise on her throat. He closed his eyes, knowing
this was his fault.
Silently, Inuyasha lifted Kagome
into his arms, and winced as his yet tender wounds tore open again.
Still, he trudged back to the cave, where he laid her against the ground
and placed his kimono over her, wincing when he noticed the blood smeared
across her side.
His blood.
He left to get some water to
return the favor she'd done for him. Then, all bets were off.
He could kill her after that.
He didn't know why, but the
thought of killing her made his blood run cold. *Why do I react to
this irritating child?* He wondered. He shook his head and
moved back to the cave to see her sitting and looking around in confusion.
When her eyes fell upon him, he froze.
Kagome swallowed damply, standing
and walking towards him, taking the water from him. "You're bleeding
again..." She said, pulling him into the cave. "I'll clean
them for you, ne?" She glanced up at him, and saw his face was stoney.
"Don't bother, it doesn't hurt."
Her eyes narrowed and she inhaled
deeply. "Sit." When he met his fate, falling onto the floor
of the cave, she rolled him onto his back and stradled his waist, parting
his under kimono and ripping a piece of her shirt off, folding it and soaking
it in the cool water and gently washing the blood from his wounds.
"We're deffinately going to have to work on your stubborness, Inuyasha..."
She said softly, avoiding his irritated gaze.
The water was stained pink when
she was done, and she sighed, her eyes sad as she looked at the painful
looking wounds.
He glared up at her, trying
to calm his racing heart. "Get offa me wench."
She felt her eyes fill with
tears, and she climbed off of him and turned away. "..." She
moved over to her things and held the rag limply in her hand. *Why
can't he see that I love you...he's worse than he used to be...*
She stared at the interior of the cave and a ragged sob escaped her.
"Excuse me for giving a damn about you, Inuyasha..." She said softly,
her voice obviously pained.
"What?!" He whirled towards
her turned back.
She slowly turned, tears rolling
unchecked down his face. "I said...excuse me for giving a damn about
you..."
He stared at her tearstained
face, his red and blue eyes wide. *What?! Why...why am I upset...why
does my heart hurt?* He winced and collapsed, clutching the area
above his heart. "Angh..." He grunted, his hand catching him
as he fell.
"INUYASHA?!" Kagome ran
over to him. "Daijoubu?! Genki desu ka?!" She gasped
out quickly.
He looked up at her, staring
at her, his face surprised. "Why...why do you act like this...?"
He growled.
Kagome blushed, looking down.
"B-because...I love you..." She whispered, closing her eyes.
"I have for a long time, Inuyasha..."
He stared at her, his eyes wide.
She refused to look at him and he knew if she wanted to, he could destroy
her with words, but something stopped him from doing so. He swallowed,
his head hanging.
When he didn't respond, she
looked back at him and noticed the defeated slope to his shoulders.
"Inuyasha?" She asked hesitantely.
"Why...why does my heart race..."
He whispered, his eyes angry at the feeling of a weakness. A weakness
towards this human girl.
She hesitated before answering,
and even then, she spoke to him first. "I want you to promise me
not to call me a liar, because, I promise, I'll tell you the truth...and
don't hate me for this..." When he nodded, she meekly continued.
"B-before the transformation,
about a month ago...I told you that I loved you. The same day, you
told me that you felt the same. We've been trying to sort out our
feelings for the past month and...we were just about to figure out what
to do to solve the problems in our... relationship, when you were attacked
by Kikyou and Kouga and almost died. In order to prevent your death,
or something like that, you ended up in your full demon form." She
finished in a whisper. "And now you know."
He stared at the ground, trying
to find a lie in her statement, but failed. *I love her? This
wont do...I can't love...I wont...* He smirked, looking up at her.
He was about to say something
cruel when she looked up at him and he saw the misery deep inside her.
Her beautiful, clear, blue eyes were pained and he could see the despair
ran straight into the pit of her very soul.
She attempted to smile but only
came off looking more miserable. "I understand you only look at me
as a prisoner, now, and that's okay...but I refuse to give up on you...I
have to find the Tetsusaiga so I can try to return you to your true form..."
She whispered, looking into his face, which had an unreadable expression
on it.
Inuyasha caught himself before
he reached his hand out and touched her. *I'm a demon. I can't
love...can I?* He didn't look at her and heard her move to the mouth
of the cave. "I'm a demon, I can't love. And if I could, I
wouldn't love a human like you."
She sighed, turning back to
him and walking towards his rigid form. She sank to her knees and
forced him to look at her, her eyes holding a tender expression.
"It's alright..." She smiled and caressed his face, but sometimes,
you'll need to feel loved, even if you're a demon." She closed her
eyes and kissed his lips gently before he could move.
He froze, shocked. Girls
weren't supposed to act like this. Girls were supposed to be meek
and demure, ans submissive. Yet, this one wasn't. She dressed
strange and acted like a whore. But this wasn't the kiss of a whore.
It was filled with love and gentleness, no tounge, no teeth, just lips,
pressed chastely against his.
She reluctantely pulled away
and looked at him, directly into his eyes, sadness filling her. "Sometimes,
you'll need to feel loved...and I'll be here for that." She promised,
lifting his hand and kissing it before she moved away from him.
Inuyasha sat there in shock.