You Look So Fine.

by Starkiller1

Bartleby and Loki have an ongoing arguement about their relationship.

TITLE: You Look So Fine.
BY: Starkiller
RATING: PG15
PAIRING: Loki/Bartleby
FANDOM: Dogma
BETA: MSW The Great.
CATEGORY: Songfic.
DISCLAIMER: Mine they are not, dream a girl can. They belong to Kevin Smith and
View Askew. Song is "You Look So Fine" by Garbage, which of course, belongs to
Garbage.
ARCHIVE: AffleckDamonSlash, Rare Slash, moi.
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1945, Wisconsin.
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You look so fine
I want to break your heart
and give you mine
You're taking me over
It's so insane
You've got me tethered and chained
I hear your name
And I'm falling over.
P
"So you're telling me that you want to go steady. Riiight." P
"You're missing the point, Loki." P
"So what is the point, huh B?" P
"Look. How long have we been together? How long have we known each other?" P
"Close on eternity." P
"Exactly. And how do we feel about each other?" P
"Well, we love each other." P
"Exactly. And why do we love each other?" P
"There's no reason. We just do." P
Bartleby paused in his line of questioning. P
"How do you figure?" P
"Okay. I look at you and I * know * how I feel. I look at you and I see the
beginning and the end of my universe. There's no * why * to it, it just is. Its
better that way." P
"All right, we'll bypass why for now and move on to what's wrong with going
steady?" P
"How old are we, B? 16? What do we, eternal angels, well, fallen eternal angels
need to go steady for??? I mean, we're older than time! Its not like you can
take me home to meet your parents, because a/ you don't have parents and b/ we
were made by the same creator, so it's a moot point. Can't you just accept that
I love you and not compartmentalise it?" P
"Well since you put it like that…" P
"Good." P
1965, Wisconsin. P
You look so fine
Knocked down
Cried out
Been down just to find out
I'm through
Bleeding for you
I'm open wide
I want to take you home
We'll waste some time
You're the only one for me
You look so fine.
P
"Loki?" P
"Hmm?" P
"How do you feel about me? About us?" P
"Do you have some internal clock ticking away inside you that allows you to keep
track of exactly how long its been since you've asked me this?" P
"Maybe I do. Answer the questions." P
"Sigh. Fine. I love you. I love the way we are. Satisfied?" P
"No." P
"I have this overwhelming urge to hit you with something blunt and heavy." P
"Loki, look at it this way. We love each other. So why shouldn't we, you know,
formalise it?" P
"I beg your pardon? What are you saying, B?" P
"Let's get married?" P
"Oh that's a great idea that is. 'Dear Sir/Madam…you are cordially invited to
the wedding of the Angel of Death and the Watcher.' I think not." P
"Well, where do I stand with you?" P
"On the fucking ground! I love you! I love the way you are, the way we are. Why
change it? Nothing is going to change my love for you. To me, you're perfect." P
"Really?" P
"Really. Now go to sleep." P
1985, Wisconsin. P
I won't fake it like the other girls
That you used to know
You're taking me over
Over and over
I'm falling over
Over and over
You're taking me over
P
"Loki?" P
"Bartleby. Before you ask me, yes I love you. No I'm not going to leave you. No
I'll never stop loving you. No I will not marry you/go steady with you/any other
crackpot scheme you have in mind." P
"Oh." P
"B, can't you just accept that I love you? Why do you want to do these
ridiculous things so much?" P
"Because I want to show the universe how much I love you. Because to me, you are
more than the universe. You've taken me over. My world begins and ends with you.
Where you go, so goes my nation. I just want to show everyone around me how
happy I am, how much I love you. P
"Oh. Oh B. Now I feel like a fucking idiot." P
"Well, maybe you are. But you're my fucking idiot." P
"Totally. Forever." P
2005, Wisconsin. P
(Drown in me one more time)
(Hide inside me tonight)
(Do what you want to do)
(Just pretend happy end)
(Let me know let it show)
(Ending with letting go)
(Let's pretend happy end)
P
"Loki?" P
"What?" P
"I'm so sorry." P
"So you've said, every day for the last 6 years." P
"Do you forgive me?" P
"Yes B. I do." P
"Why?" P
"Because of what you said 20 years ago. Even though you killed me and you lost
it for a while, I look in your eyes everyday since then and I see how much you
love me, how sorry you are, and how important I am to you. And I know that we're
going to be all right." P
"Loki, I don't deserve you."P
"Probably not, but you're stuck with me anyway." P
"Thank God for that." P
"Yeah. Now go to sleep already." P