CHAPTER 6: Romeo and Juliet?
Whatever it is, I thought.
I'm confused with what I feel. Every time he looks at me, I would feel uneasy
my heart pounds fast. And I never felt like this before.
I went up to my room right after dinner. Tears were
forming in my eyes, and I don't know why. Probably frustration, I thought, but
with what? I kicked off my sneaker and climbed into bed, too wide-awake and
full to fall asleep. My mind was overcrowded with confusing thoughts.
"Your eyes are really beautiful, Hitomi. They make me
feel better every time I look at them."
Van's voice echoed in my mind. What was he really trying
to say? Everyday gets more confusing, I might as well go home. But then again,
I just have to hang around to find out what's wrong with him.
The light of the lamp burned low, making shadows flicker
on the ceiling. My eyes were blurry and I was on the verge of sobbing. Things
were getting more complicated that I couldn't handle it anymore. How could I?
Just then, a soft knock sounded on the door. I quickly
wiped away the tear that managed to creep out of my eye. Nobody would ever know
I was crying foolish for Van.
"Hitomi! Open up! I need to talk to you."
Merle's voice shouted muffled outside.
"Come in," I managed to say without breaking
out.
With a click of the knob, Merle pounced on the bed.
"Hey, Hitomi, were you crying?" she asked, noticing the slight
redness of my eye.
"No, I just yawned." I lied.
"Don't go to sleep yet. I need to talk to you about
Lord Van." she said in her cat-girl voice. I could feel my heart thump
painfully in my chest. I nodded, and Merle continued.
"Lord Van likes you." Merle's eyes were big and
blue.
"Oh. Is that all?" I felt weak. He liked me--
for all I know, we're friends.
"IS THAT ALL? IS THAT ALL? DUH, HITOMI!" Merle
cried out in a loud voice. "Why, Lord Van is crazy about you! He's
really out of his mind these days. Sometimes, he doesn't even talk to me,
because he's thinking of you so much! H- he wouldn't speak because he's afraid
you might-- you might ignore him and-- reject him."
"Ohh!" I exclaimed, tears stinging my eyes and
my cheeks reddened.
Merle looked as if she was about to cry, too. A hint of
aggravation was in her voice. "H- he said… he will kill himself if- if…" Merle
had burst into tears.
Suddenly, my confusion turned to anger. Kill himself?
Doesn't he know that Fanelia needs him? And with what reason, is it because I
really do not understand him? I clenched my fists. "Shit," I muttered fiercely.
"What a goddamned piece of shit!" I said that with so much force that Merle was
wide- eyed with surprise.
"W- what are you going to do?" Merle whispered as I went
out the door, adamantly balling my fists.
"I'm going to stuff some sense in his goddamned mind."
Going up the dark stairs of the tower, I shook all over. Van doesn't have
enough sense!
Pushing the tower door open, I quickly sighted Van staring
at his sword, now drawn from his scabbard. He was looking thoughtfully at the
silver blade and running his finger on its edge.
"Lord Van…" Merle's voice whimpered in the dark. I went
over to him and grabbed the sword. Van's eyes widened as I dropped it, the
sword clattering on the castle roof… down to the ground.
"What the hell did you do?" He shouted.
"Damn it, Van. Just what were you thinking when you drew
out that blade, huh?" My voice shook with anger. Van's eyes flashed angry red;
his face hotly blushed crimson.
"What's it to you? You don't care!"
"But I do, Van. Will you just put some sense in your
goddamn mind? Fanelia needs you, Merle needs you and I—," I stopped short, a
lump forming on my throat. Van was still angry red.
"You what? I don't care what you think, Kanzaki." His lip quivered,
but still remained unmoved.
I felt a tear drop from my eye. "You son of a bitch," I
muttered under my breath. "Fine! I don't care if you kill yourself! I wish you
would!" I screamed at him, and then I fled.
Once safely inside my room, I was laughing and crying at
the same time. It was all so stupid to me. But if Van decides to kill himself,
let him be. "Selfish pig." I muttered hard that my throat cracked. "Shit."
Which was all too well that night. I couldn't sleep,
thinking of Van and my throat.
Owari
A/N: There, chapter 6 finished.
Anyways, I hope you find this good enough. It was a bit 'cussy' because I was
in a terrible mood when I was writing. I was planning to—err… suspense! I'm
getting a little dizzy after reading 'Without Armor' written by Savana08 (an
author in here) ya, know—yaoi and stuff. (Tsk, tsk! Bad girl!) : sigh: I have to tell you that Migel and Chesta is
a really great couple! (Don't mind
me. I'm just so bad!)
Til then, c'ya till the next
chapter!
JA NE, MINNA-CHANS AND KUNS!!!
^_^V
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