Author's note: Chapter 7! The following fic contains material that may be unsuitable for children under 37. Please, use reader discretion when reading. It is illegal to copy a copyrighted fic, and breakers of this code will be penalized to the full extent of the mall.
Dislcaimer: I don't own Digimon, or the company that does own it, any of the writers, animators, or employees of the company that owns it.
Warning: Angst. Romance.
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Author: Rae (penname)
Title: Undecided
Content: A little touch of romance, and more angsty Dais
Daisuke managed to beat them all to the Ishida apartment door. He was leaning against it and grinning smugly when the other five tumbled out of the elevator. He had managed to duck out of the transport seconds before the door shut. Since Matt's apartment was on the second floor, they saw no reason to stop it until it got there, when they could make sure if he had run off or not.
Apparently, not.
"You guys are so slow!" He challenged them, not even out of breath from his quick run up the stairs. "I've been waiting forever!"
"Whatever, super-star!" Kari punched Takeru in the arm as he mimicked a T.V. show.
"What kind of ice cream do you have?" Dai moved away from the door as Matt took his keys from Tai and unlocked it. "And I hope you have lots, cause I'm hungry."
"What else is new?" Dai stuck his tongue out at Kari his eyes twinkling. "Maybe if you're nice, Matt will cook you lunch." The blonde groaned at the suggestion as he pushed the door open and waved everyone inside.
"That's actually a good idea. Since nobody ate, Yamato can make us all some food." Tai recieved a mock-glare for his effort. "And I'll help, of course."
"That's enough to make me pass, thanks, Tai." T.K. dropped onto the couch as his brother's boyfriend glowered at him. "Of course, I doubt that when you guys cook together, you do anything more than stare at his ass, anyways."
Kari's mouth fell open at his bluntness, and she shook her head. Matt gave him an equally incredilous expression. "You have been spending too much time with Tai. I can't believe such vulgar language just came from your mouth."
"Yeah, T.E. You should take a leaf from my tree, and watch what you say." Dai grinned at him.
"It's 'a leaf from my book'. But thanks anyways, Davis. I should have known that you wouldn't be on my side." T.K. grinned at Dai's thoughtful look.
"Leave the boy alone, guys." It was Tai who stuck up for him with a grin. "If he wants to act like a studly man, let him."
That sent everyone into peals of laughter, T.K. hiding his face in his hands. "Oh, god. Please let him be joking!" Kari shook her head as her brother assumed an indignant pout, and settled himself on a chair, facing the wall.
"Never mind. You guys can all go away. I don't want to talk to any of you." Matt fought his grin and knelt beside his sweetheart. "That includes you, too, Ishida."
"Oh, Taichi. Don't be that way, please. You know we're just joking." Matt looked over his shoulder before continuing. "You and I both know that you're a right studly little man." Tai pretended to sniffle, hiding his grin by keeping his head turned aside.
"Do you really mean that?" Matt rolled his eyes.
"Of course, I do, baby." The endearment slipped out as he put his arms around Tai's waist. "You're my little studmuffin, and don't ever forget it." T.K made a gagging motion with his finger and mouth, and then stood up.
"Come here for a second, Kari. I want to show you something." They went into the back of the apartment, and he took her into Matt's room, leaving the door wide open. Ken and Dai looked at each other, then fell onto the couch side-by-side as a doe-eyed Tai followed Matt into the kitchen.
"Gag me!" Dai vocalised as he laid his head against the cushions and yawned.
"I think they're sweet, myself." Ken argued. Dai shrugged, and they lapsed into silence, neither really concerned with speaking at that moment. Ken looked at his friend, his mind going in continuous tangents. He wasn't quite certain how to start the conversation that was looming ahead of them. For the moment, though, he was content to sit and watch his friend doze peacefully.
He leaned back and looked at the ceiling as the sounds from the rest of the apartment floated back to them. T.K and Kari were talking, and he seemed to be playing the radio softly. Matt and Tai were arguing playfully as Matt moved around, cooking, and Tai watched his backside as T.K had predicted.
"Dai?" One eye cracked open, then the other, before he lifted his head up and looked at him.
"Yeah?" His voice was resigned. He followed Ken's gaze, and mirrored his position. "Time to dig it up, huh?"
"I think that now's as good a time as any." They spoke quietly, not really wanting to draw the attention of the others. "We'll start with an easy one. How are your grades this semester, Dai?"
"I'm passing them all with flying colors."
"I thought as much." Ken looked at Dai out of the corner of his eye. The other boy looked relaxed, but he could feel the tension that emanated from him. "Next one. What agreement do you have with your father?"
"That wasn't quite as easy." Dai tried to laugh, but couldn't manage a genuine sounding one. "As long as he leaves me alone, I leave him alone, and I don't call Child Services."
There was more to it than that, but he'd push that point later. "Have you attempted suicide?"
"If I had attempted it, we wouldn't be discussing this right now. I would have either succeeded the first time, or kept at it until it worked. Believe it or not, I like many parts of my life, especially my friends."
"That's good to hear." Ken meant it. He didn't know what he would do if his best friend left him. Even though it was being made very apparent that he hadn't always been there for Dai, he knew that there wasn't anything that Dai didn't know about him. "What's up with the poem that T.K. was pushing about?"
"It was an assignment in class. We were studying poets from around the world, and we were told to come up with one of our own. I wrote mine when slightly depressed, and I realized at the last minute that I didn't want the whole class knowing my business. So I spouted off another one off the top of my head."
"Can I read it sometime?" Dai looked at him, resting his cheek against the back of the couch. He nodded when he realized that Ken wouldn't let up on it. "Last one for right now. How at risk are you for endangering someone else?"
The brunette opened his mouth to give a sarcastic reply, but the cerulean eyes that met his stopped him. "Depends." He looked away, and glanced into the kitchen in time to see Tai pull an agitated Matt into his arms and kiss him.
"On what?"
"If you're my father, then the risk is high." He turned his head back, and stared into Ken's eyes. "But I'd kill myself before I ever hurt you." They kept eye contact, Dai waiting patiently while Ken searched his eyes.
"What are you two talking about?" T.K. leaned over the arm of the couch, and Kari smiled at them from a chair across from them. They had been there for several moments during the silence without gaining the attention of the other two. Dai leaned back against the couch, and Ken felt himself blush slightly.
"We were arguing over what television show to watch. I want to watch that new comedy that's on, but he insists on watching his favorite police drama." Dai covered easily. "We were going to settle it with another staring contest, before you so rudely interrupted us, T.Z."
"Neither sounds really interesting." Kari input. T.K. shrug. For once, he didn't push.
"I'm not much on T.V., either way. Hey, we can take in a movie!" He sounded excited at the prospect, and his brother smiled at his enthusiasm as he reentered the room.
"No doubt that it will be some violent flic, what with your new-found bloodlust, T.K."
From the kitchen, where he was eating his ice cream out of the container, Tai spoke up. "That sounds like a good idea! There's this new movie out, called 'The Day It Landed' down at the Cineplex. It's about this evil alien from some far away planet that lands, and tries to enslave all the bellydancers of the world!"
Matt turned around and raised an eyebrow at him. "And why do you want to see a movie with half-naked women, Taichi?"
"Uh..." At a lost for words, Tai just shoveled another scoop of ice cream into his mouth. Matt just nodded knowingly.
"There also happens to be a new comedy playing as well. Action, romance, humor. All the fun things that we all enjoy, rolled into one." Kari pronounce brightly. Daisuke had a sudden urge to vomit.
Instead, he nodded in agreement and jumped off the couch. "Right after the ice cream's gone!" He raced into the kitchen, grabbed one of the pints that Tai had taken from the freezer, and then returned to his seat.
"What about lunch?" Matt gave him a threatening look.
With a disarming grin, Dai shoved his spoon into the cold treat. "Trush me, I'll have room." The other's simply groaned as the two biggest pigs in Japan seemingly raced to finish their ice cream off in under a minute. Kari made a gagging noise as they all watched with a sort of disgusted fascination.
Melted ice cream dripping down his cheek, Tai looked up and caught the glances bouncing back and forth between him and the second generation goggle-boy. "What?"
"You two are -so- disgusting." Takeru was kind enough to point out.
"Oh, and you're not?" It was lame come-back, even for Dai, but it made Kari giggle, and Matt smile slightly. "That's high opinion coming from the boy who drinks a jar of pickle juice before every game."
Four pair of eyes swiveled to T.K., who blushed and looked down. "That was a while ago." He muttered defensively. "And it's not like it ever did anything bad to me."
"No. You only threw up on the coach after two games." He grimaced at Hikari. "What? It's true! You can ask any of the guys on your team, and they'll all admit it."
"You're supposed to be on my side, Kari." She smiled innocently, her eyes sparkling.
"But I am, T.K., really." They shared a look, only to be interrupted by the elder blonde.
"That's nice. Now that we have that worked out, why don't you two finish lunch while Tai and I...look at my new...C.D." He grinned at his boyfriend as the brunette jumped up, dumped the empty ice cream container in the trash, and then pulled the taller boy to his bedroom. The door shut loudly behind them.
"Um...that's nice." Dai commented. "Looks like lunch is out for today. And I'm going to have to skip the movie, too. Sorry, but I can't stay out that late. Trying to get along with my parents and all. Breaking curfew would be a bad move, ya know?" The other's nodded in understanding, nobody pointing out that it was only three in the afternoon.
Ken stood up also. "I should be going, too." The other's accepted his departure as calmly as they had Dai. "See you guys later."
"Bye, Ken. Bye, Davis." Kari waved at them happily from her chair. T.K. grunted stubbornly, not appreciating his friends ganging up on him.
"Later." Daisuke and Ken left together, and walked silently to the elevator. Once inside, Ken pushed the stop button.
"Um, Ken? People might want to use this thing." He pointed out nervously. He wasn't afraid of closed in places, he just didn't want to discuss what Ken had started earlier.
"They can wait." Ken leaned against the wall opposite Daisuke and regarded him through narrowed eyes. "Are you ready to talk now?"
With a grimace, Dai hit his head against the wall. He perked up suddenly and grinned at his blue-haired friend. "Sure. Ready when you are." His false cheer passed by without a blink from Ken.
"Do you really want to stay at your house?" He asked.
"No. I hate my father, and I don't like being there. It has never been a home to me. Ever." His eyes were sad, bitter. He looked at Ken and smiled sadly, unable to think of anything else to say.
"Will they miss you if you don't go home?" He shook his head in lieu of a verbal response. "Then you're coming to stay with me." Brown eyes shot to indigo. "We'll stop at your place, pick up some stuff, and then take the bus to my house. My mother won't mind."
"Thank you, but I can't ask you for such a thing."
"You're not asking, Dai. I'm offering it to you freely. A chance to let your guard down a little someplace where you know you're cared for." A single tear slipped unbidden down tanned cheeks, and Ken went to him, wrapping the shorter boy in his arms. He promptly started crying, his arms circling Ken's slim waist.
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End note: Is anyone out there still reading this? Are am I just wasting my time by going on? If anyone has any thoughts/suggestions, put it in a review, or email me at raegan_1@hotmail.com.
Dislcaimer: I don't own Digimon, or the company that does own it, any of the writers, animators, or employees of the company that owns it.
Warning: Angst. Romance.
___________________
Author: Rae (penname)
Title: Undecided
Content: A little touch of romance, and more angsty Dais
Daisuke managed to beat them all to the Ishida apartment door. He was leaning against it and grinning smugly when the other five tumbled out of the elevator. He had managed to duck out of the transport seconds before the door shut. Since Matt's apartment was on the second floor, they saw no reason to stop it until it got there, when they could make sure if he had run off or not.
Apparently, not.
"You guys are so slow!" He challenged them, not even out of breath from his quick run up the stairs. "I've been waiting forever!"
"Whatever, super-star!" Kari punched Takeru in the arm as he mimicked a T.V. show.
"What kind of ice cream do you have?" Dai moved away from the door as Matt took his keys from Tai and unlocked it. "And I hope you have lots, cause I'm hungry."
"What else is new?" Dai stuck his tongue out at Kari his eyes twinkling. "Maybe if you're nice, Matt will cook you lunch." The blonde groaned at the suggestion as he pushed the door open and waved everyone inside.
"That's actually a good idea. Since nobody ate, Yamato can make us all some food." Tai recieved a mock-glare for his effort. "And I'll help, of course."
"That's enough to make me pass, thanks, Tai." T.K. dropped onto the couch as his brother's boyfriend glowered at him. "Of course, I doubt that when you guys cook together, you do anything more than stare at his ass, anyways."
Kari's mouth fell open at his bluntness, and she shook her head. Matt gave him an equally incredilous expression. "You have been spending too much time with Tai. I can't believe such vulgar language just came from your mouth."
"Yeah, T.E. You should take a leaf from my tree, and watch what you say." Dai grinned at him.
"It's 'a leaf from my book'. But thanks anyways, Davis. I should have known that you wouldn't be on my side." T.K. grinned at Dai's thoughtful look.
"Leave the boy alone, guys." It was Tai who stuck up for him with a grin. "If he wants to act like a studly man, let him."
That sent everyone into peals of laughter, T.K. hiding his face in his hands. "Oh, god. Please let him be joking!" Kari shook her head as her brother assumed an indignant pout, and settled himself on a chair, facing the wall.
"Never mind. You guys can all go away. I don't want to talk to any of you." Matt fought his grin and knelt beside his sweetheart. "That includes you, too, Ishida."
"Oh, Taichi. Don't be that way, please. You know we're just joking." Matt looked over his shoulder before continuing. "You and I both know that you're a right studly little man." Tai pretended to sniffle, hiding his grin by keeping his head turned aside.
"Do you really mean that?" Matt rolled his eyes.
"Of course, I do, baby." The endearment slipped out as he put his arms around Tai's waist. "You're my little studmuffin, and don't ever forget it." T.K made a gagging motion with his finger and mouth, and then stood up.
"Come here for a second, Kari. I want to show you something." They went into the back of the apartment, and he took her into Matt's room, leaving the door wide open. Ken and Dai looked at each other, then fell onto the couch side-by-side as a doe-eyed Tai followed Matt into the kitchen.
"Gag me!" Dai vocalised as he laid his head against the cushions and yawned.
"I think they're sweet, myself." Ken argued. Dai shrugged, and they lapsed into silence, neither really concerned with speaking at that moment. Ken looked at his friend, his mind going in continuous tangents. He wasn't quite certain how to start the conversation that was looming ahead of them. For the moment, though, he was content to sit and watch his friend doze peacefully.
He leaned back and looked at the ceiling as the sounds from the rest of the apartment floated back to them. T.K and Kari were talking, and he seemed to be playing the radio softly. Matt and Tai were arguing playfully as Matt moved around, cooking, and Tai watched his backside as T.K had predicted.
"Dai?" One eye cracked open, then the other, before he lifted his head up and looked at him.
"Yeah?" His voice was resigned. He followed Ken's gaze, and mirrored his position. "Time to dig it up, huh?"
"I think that now's as good a time as any." They spoke quietly, not really wanting to draw the attention of the others. "We'll start with an easy one. How are your grades this semester, Dai?"
"I'm passing them all with flying colors."
"I thought as much." Ken looked at Dai out of the corner of his eye. The other boy looked relaxed, but he could feel the tension that emanated from him. "Next one. What agreement do you have with your father?"
"That wasn't quite as easy." Dai tried to laugh, but couldn't manage a genuine sounding one. "As long as he leaves me alone, I leave him alone, and I don't call Child Services."
There was more to it than that, but he'd push that point later. "Have you attempted suicide?"
"If I had attempted it, we wouldn't be discussing this right now. I would have either succeeded the first time, or kept at it until it worked. Believe it or not, I like many parts of my life, especially my friends."
"That's good to hear." Ken meant it. He didn't know what he would do if his best friend left him. Even though it was being made very apparent that he hadn't always been there for Dai, he knew that there wasn't anything that Dai didn't know about him. "What's up with the poem that T.K. was pushing about?"
"It was an assignment in class. We were studying poets from around the world, and we were told to come up with one of our own. I wrote mine when slightly depressed, and I realized at the last minute that I didn't want the whole class knowing my business. So I spouted off another one off the top of my head."
"Can I read it sometime?" Dai looked at him, resting his cheek against the back of the couch. He nodded when he realized that Ken wouldn't let up on it. "Last one for right now. How at risk are you for endangering someone else?"
The brunette opened his mouth to give a sarcastic reply, but the cerulean eyes that met his stopped him. "Depends." He looked away, and glanced into the kitchen in time to see Tai pull an agitated Matt into his arms and kiss him.
"On what?"
"If you're my father, then the risk is high." He turned his head back, and stared into Ken's eyes. "But I'd kill myself before I ever hurt you." They kept eye contact, Dai waiting patiently while Ken searched his eyes.
"What are you two talking about?" T.K. leaned over the arm of the couch, and Kari smiled at them from a chair across from them. They had been there for several moments during the silence without gaining the attention of the other two. Dai leaned back against the couch, and Ken felt himself blush slightly.
"We were arguing over what television show to watch. I want to watch that new comedy that's on, but he insists on watching his favorite police drama." Dai covered easily. "We were going to settle it with another staring contest, before you so rudely interrupted us, T.Z."
"Neither sounds really interesting." Kari input. T.K. shrug. For once, he didn't push.
"I'm not much on T.V., either way. Hey, we can take in a movie!" He sounded excited at the prospect, and his brother smiled at his enthusiasm as he reentered the room.
"No doubt that it will be some violent flic, what with your new-found bloodlust, T.K."
From the kitchen, where he was eating his ice cream out of the container, Tai spoke up. "That sounds like a good idea! There's this new movie out, called 'The Day It Landed' down at the Cineplex. It's about this evil alien from some far away planet that lands, and tries to enslave all the bellydancers of the world!"
Matt turned around and raised an eyebrow at him. "And why do you want to see a movie with half-naked women, Taichi?"
"Uh..." At a lost for words, Tai just shoveled another scoop of ice cream into his mouth. Matt just nodded knowingly.
"There also happens to be a new comedy playing as well. Action, romance, humor. All the fun things that we all enjoy, rolled into one." Kari pronounce brightly. Daisuke had a sudden urge to vomit.
Instead, he nodded in agreement and jumped off the couch. "Right after the ice cream's gone!" He raced into the kitchen, grabbed one of the pints that Tai had taken from the freezer, and then returned to his seat.
"What about lunch?" Matt gave him a threatening look.
With a disarming grin, Dai shoved his spoon into the cold treat. "Trush me, I'll have room." The other's simply groaned as the two biggest pigs in Japan seemingly raced to finish their ice cream off in under a minute. Kari made a gagging noise as they all watched with a sort of disgusted fascination.
Melted ice cream dripping down his cheek, Tai looked up and caught the glances bouncing back and forth between him and the second generation goggle-boy. "What?"
"You two are -so- disgusting." Takeru was kind enough to point out.
"Oh, and you're not?" It was lame come-back, even for Dai, but it made Kari giggle, and Matt smile slightly. "That's high opinion coming from the boy who drinks a jar of pickle juice before every game."
Four pair of eyes swiveled to T.K., who blushed and looked down. "That was a while ago." He muttered defensively. "And it's not like it ever did anything bad to me."
"No. You only threw up on the coach after two games." He grimaced at Hikari. "What? It's true! You can ask any of the guys on your team, and they'll all admit it."
"You're supposed to be on my side, Kari." She smiled innocently, her eyes sparkling.
"But I am, T.K., really." They shared a look, only to be interrupted by the elder blonde.
"That's nice. Now that we have that worked out, why don't you two finish lunch while Tai and I...look at my new...C.D." He grinned at his boyfriend as the brunette jumped up, dumped the empty ice cream container in the trash, and then pulled the taller boy to his bedroom. The door shut loudly behind them.
"Um...that's nice." Dai commented. "Looks like lunch is out for today. And I'm going to have to skip the movie, too. Sorry, but I can't stay out that late. Trying to get along with my parents and all. Breaking curfew would be a bad move, ya know?" The other's nodded in understanding, nobody pointing out that it was only three in the afternoon.
Ken stood up also. "I should be going, too." The other's accepted his departure as calmly as they had Dai. "See you guys later."
"Bye, Ken. Bye, Davis." Kari waved at them happily from her chair. T.K. grunted stubbornly, not appreciating his friends ganging up on him.
"Later." Daisuke and Ken left together, and walked silently to the elevator. Once inside, Ken pushed the stop button.
"Um, Ken? People might want to use this thing." He pointed out nervously. He wasn't afraid of closed in places, he just didn't want to discuss what Ken had started earlier.
"They can wait." Ken leaned against the wall opposite Daisuke and regarded him through narrowed eyes. "Are you ready to talk now?"
With a grimace, Dai hit his head against the wall. He perked up suddenly and grinned at his blue-haired friend. "Sure. Ready when you are." His false cheer passed by without a blink from Ken.
"Do you really want to stay at your house?" He asked.
"No. I hate my father, and I don't like being there. It has never been a home to me. Ever." His eyes were sad, bitter. He looked at Ken and smiled sadly, unable to think of anything else to say.
"Will they miss you if you don't go home?" He shook his head in lieu of a verbal response. "Then you're coming to stay with me." Brown eyes shot to indigo. "We'll stop at your place, pick up some stuff, and then take the bus to my house. My mother won't mind."
"Thank you, but I can't ask you for such a thing."
"You're not asking, Dai. I'm offering it to you freely. A chance to let your guard down a little someplace where you know you're cared for." A single tear slipped unbidden down tanned cheeks, and Ken went to him, wrapping the shorter boy in his arms. He promptly started crying, his arms circling Ken's slim waist.
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End note: Is anyone out there still reading this? Are am I just wasting my time by going on? If anyone has any thoughts/suggestions, put it in a review, or email me at raegan_1@hotmail.com.