Unconventional Warfare
Max and I went to Logan's apartment and raided for all things resembling food. We would have bought some, but neither of us had any money on us. Logan had wanted to come, but Max stopped him with a brief kiss and a few soft words that I had not ordained to listen in on.
"So why do you think Mr. Stick Up His Ass never told us about you?" Max asked on the drive.
I shrugged.
"He has his reasons. He wants to keep me safe." I said.
I didn't say that I had often wondered the same thing. Didn't Zack trust his own family to keep the secret? I think that maybe through me Zack was guarding a part of himself.
I changed the subject.
"So who's this Logan?" I asked.
Max smiled.
"Logan is...you know, I'm not sure exactly what Logan is. He's special.
"But you care for him, right?"
"Yes. I care a lot, really." Max admitted.
And now my brother's feelings came into perspective. I dropped the topic.
We made what Zack would call pointless small talk until we arrived back at what I'd come to think of as our base of operations. Despite the fact that she was causing my brother all kinds of problems, I decided I liked this Max.
We got out of the car to the noise of Zack yelling loudly at SP-452/493.
"You will speak when you are spoken to, soldier!"
SP-452/493 smiled sarcastically.
"What's the matter, Zackie
"She's got guts." Max commented, "Even I wouldn't call him Zackie."
I didn't comment but continued to watch.
Zack got right in the SP's face and his voice lowered to a growl.
"You don't know who you're messing with."
"Neither do you." she replied.
Zack was really mad. I could see his jaw twitch from where I stood. One more comment from SP-452/493 and things would become physical instead of verbal.
"Besides," she continued with that one comment that would do it, "you couldn't take me if you tried."
"Krit!" Zack yelled.
I could see Krit wince as he cautiously approached.
"Where are the keys to those handcuffs?
"Are you sure that's a good..." Krit began.
"Are you questioning me?" Zack demanded, whirling on Krit.
I knew Zack. He would not tolerate his command being questioned in the presence of the enemy. Krit knew this, too. I could tell.
"No, sir." he said, eyeing the SP as he said it.
"Give me the keys." Zack said stiffly.
Krit
"This outta be good." Max said, leaning back against the car to watch the show.
The SP didn't move until Zack had unlocked both handcuffs. A smart move considering she wouldn't have the use of her hands if she had kicked Zack the second her feet were free.
Zack backed up, tossing the keys back at Krit. The SP followed, her eyes never leaving him. They circled, each studying the other. Everyone in the building from Max and me to Lydecker and Renfro were watching.
I heard Logan wheel up beside Max, but didn't take my eyes off the fight.
"What's the point of this anyway?" Logan asked.
"He's trying to break her." Max explained, "He's proving he's C.O."
"So basically he's trying to prove that he's still dominant over his little pack.
His tone of voice made my eyes snap towards him and I felt an urge to shake him until his teeth rattled for such a comment
"Just don't, Logan. I'm getting really sick of the petty jealousy thing. There's nothing between Zack and me and there isn't going to be. But he is my brother, got it? So stop with the chauvinistic crap!
"I'm sorry, Max. You're right. You're right. I trust you. Zack and I...we just have conflicting personalities. I can't help it." Logan apologized quickly.
This soon after loosing Max and thinking he would never get her back I wasn't surprised at how quick his apology was. Just from the little I knew about Logan, I doubted he and Zack would ever like each other.
I dismissed Logan from my thoughts as I sensed a rapid movement out of the corner of my eye. Someone had attacked. The SP, she had attacked first. Zack blocked and counterattacked. Their blows were all very fast. Zack scored the first hit, to her stomach. The force of the blow sent her stumbling back a few steps as she caught her breath. Zack showed no mercy. but continued to attack. She blocked furiously, but she had lost the offensive and her advantage. We all knew it was Zack's fight although she fought really well. Better than I had when I fought Zack. I had to admit that although I did so grudgingly. She had scored on him a couple of times, exploiting his weak spots: the bullet wounds. If Zack hadn't been so angry she might have won.
But had it had any affect on her besides to make her glare up at Zack from the ground where she had fallen and not yet risen from yet? The whole idea was for Zack to earn her respect in a way that she would understand.
"On your feet, soldier." Zack ordered her.
The SP looked at Zack, then looked at Renfro. She looked back at Zack again and spat on the ground in disgust. Zack turned away from her, still angry and motioned to Krit and Syl to go get her and handcuff her again. He signaled to Max to watch everything, then signaled to me to follow him. I nodded and walked with him outside.
"Are you alright?" I asked once we were beyond the hearing of everyone inside.
"I'm fine." Zack grunted in that way that I knew meant he was hurt but wouldn't admit it.
"You know you might have made a little progress there if it hadn't been for Renfro. We have to separate the two." I said.
"I know." Zack agreed.
"So what did you want to talk to me out here for?" I asked, stopping.
Zack refused to meet my gaze and said nothing.
"Are you going to talk or aren't you?" I pressed.
"You're the only one I can talk to, Ty." he said slowly.
I waited for him to continue.
"I'm attracted to her."
Did he mean the SP?! He had to mean her. But how could he...? Why was he telling me this?
"Why are telling me this?" I asked cautiously.
"You're supposed to yell at me! Tell me that it's sick and wrong to be attracted to her because she's part Max! You're supposed to tell me what an asshole I am for not stuffing this phoney sentimentality! You're supposed to tell me that I don't ever have a shot in hell with Max and I shouldn't hate Logan for having her. You're supposed to call me a sick, cold-hearted bastard for trying to substitute SP-452/493 for Max."
"Zack, stop." I said.
"Why?" he asked scornfully, "I deserve worse. I should..."
"Stop it!" I yelled at him.
Zack just looked at me strangely.
"Zack, there is nothing wrong with you being attracted to her.
"But I do, Ty. I hate that I feel this way and I can't do a damn thing about it. I hate that I can't say a word about how I feel to anyone but you. I hate that I'm so much like the soldier that Manticore wanted me to be because I don't know how to be anything else. I hate that I am the way I am." Zack insisted.
"But Zack, if you were any other way, you wouldn't be you. You sacrifice yourself repeatedly for us and I don't think you know that you do. And that's who you are. You're my strong, caring, protective big brother and I love you." I finished and hugged him.
"Ty." Zack protested in his embarrassed voice and I could almost see him roll his eyes without having to look.
"I'll stop embarrassing you if you stop the Zack-bashing." I offered.
"Deal."
I let him out of the hug and stepped back. We were both silent for a long moment.
"Your hair smells good.
"Zack!" I said in mock-surprise, "That sounds like an attempt at meaningless small talk."
"If I let you ride my motorcycle
"Of course." I agreed quickly, "But you have to go eat. You made me go find food so you better eat it."
"And trust you alone with my motorcycle?"
"Don't try me."
"No, sir." Zack taunted me.
"Careful. You might get a sense of humor." I replied.
In the end, I was granted the freedom of flying down Seattle's streets while Zack disposed of a large portion of Logan's food supply. With the wind in my face it was hard to think about anything else.
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