To the song "In My Arms Again" as sung by Michael W. Smith
Note: Blah. I wrote this because I was bored. It's not really all that good, but I'm working on a longer 1XR fic. So please be kind...
Here I go again. I'm thinking of you today. I have tried so desperately to realize that you are gone, that
you will never return, but still I hope against hope that somehow you survived. Every night I have prayed that you will return to me. But, no. I must realize that you will never again look upon me with such
intensity, and sometimes sadness, in those blue eyes, that you will never give me another kind smile, that
you will never again hold me. Sometimes I wish that tears could bring you back again, my love. I would
give anything I have ever owned just to see you once more, just to hear your voice again, just to feel your arms around me. Now I will have to live the rest of my life without you. There are nights when I am
alone and I cannot stop the tears from coming. At times, I think I can almost feel you. I know that you
would be ashamed of me for crying as I do, but I cannot help it. I loved you so very, very much, and I
shall never see you again.
::It was written in the stars, on the pages of my heart...::
The first time I ever set eyes on you, I was overcome by emotion. You were so madly enthusiastic, so violently passionate, and I knew then that I loved you. With every word you spoke, I became more and more convinced that my heart belonged to you. I decided then that I would be near you whatever it took, even if I had to sacrifice my life. I know that it hurt you to see me put my hair up and wear those dreadful glasses. I know that it made me look severe, but I wanted to advance in my ranks so that you would notice me, and the only way to do so was to be severe.
::Oh, that someday I would find the love I feel for you tonight...::
I became two different people. On the one hand, I was the brutal Colonel Une, who would do
anything and kill anyone to win. That was the woman I was forced to become to advance in Oz and
reach my goals. I became Colonel Une for you, Treize, and it hurt me as much as it hurt you. On the
other hand, I was simply Ann, a naive girl who had a hopeless crush on a high political official. I do not
know, now, which is the true me.
::On the ocean of our dreams, like a prayer you came to me...::
I prayed that you thought of me. I longed to be more than a simple officer in your army. I
wanted to be your companion, your soulmate, yes, even your lover. I felt as if my heart would throw itself
from my body and scream all that I felt if I didn't let my love for you out. I had almost given up hope of
your ever loving me--and then one night you sent for me.
::And the longing that had been found its ending in your eyes...::
From that night on, you treated me gently, kindly. You loved me in return. The joy that I felt is
indescribable. You were all I wanted, all I needed, and you loved me.
::I am missing you tonight...::
This boy Wufei cannot justify his actions. He is little more than a child, and I do not think that he
understands fully why he did what he did. I could execute him; indeed, I wanted at first to kill him
myself. I sought him out with every intention of avenging you, but I had never seen a person, man or
woman, with so much pain, so much regret in their eyes. He was truly sorry, and I have forgiven him,
though the pain he has caused me will never go away. True, it may be lessened with time, but it will
never fully leave me.
::I really want to see you. I really want to touch you. If only I could hold you in my arms again. I
really want to reach you, forever to be with you. If only I could hold you in my arms again...::
As I think of you tonight, on this very lonely evening, the tears come again. But I have forced
myself to carry on your goals even though you are not here to see them realized. Dekim Barton is
dead, and the threat to universal peace is now lessened. Relena Peacecraft has continued toward her goal of pacifism. Your daughter is so like you. She has your eyes, your face, and your commanding
presence. Little Mariemeia is yours beyond doubt, and she has turned out to have the same ambitions
that you had. She is passionate, enthusiastic, and willful as you were, and every time I see her, it is
almost like catching a glimpse of you again. Almost, but not quite.
::Across the waves, across the sea, separating you from me, here's a promise and it's mine: I will
love you for all time. I'm wishing you were here tonight...::
I look eagerly forward to a day when I shall see you, a day when I can touch you and
hold you once again. If I live a thousand years, no one will ever take your place in my heart. I love you.
Farewell, my Treize-sama. Until we meet again...
::I really want to see you. I really want to touch you. If only I could hold you in my arms again. I
really want to reach you, forever to be with you. If only I could hold you in my arms again...::