k, ppls. You know the drill. I don't own Sailor Moon or Gfundam Wing, blah blah blah. I'm not going to write that anymore, I am dead tired of it. I think that everybody knows that I don't own Sailor Moon, or Darien/ Mamoru wouldn't exist. Same goes with Gundam Wing, only it would be with Relena. Things are getting really busy, and Mid-Tems'll be coming up soon, so I don't know how much'll get done. But I am going as fast as I can, I assure you. Thanks for everyones support, I've become semi-confident of myself. I'm sorry to the people who i haven't gotten to email back, like I said I've been really busy and my mailbox is bluging at the seams. Seriously, I have close to 100 letters in there. I need to do some renovating soon.
If you'll remember, last time Heero had just called Usagi to ask her to the dance, and she had also met Trieze. Someone said that Treize liked her, and I THINK it was Rita. No, Trieze doesn't think of her in the romantic way. He's just trying to figure out if he can use her to his advantage. Meanwhile, Duo had tried earlier to steal a kiss from her but had been un successful in his attempt, due to loss of balance. And poor Usagi got paired up with pompous, egotistical, sexist Chang Wufei in the baby projecy. What will happen to her next as the plot thickens? He he... knowing me, it probably won't be too pretty. Let's get on with this already.
Oh, WAIT!!! Before you go on, you should know something: Part Three A consists of the adult topic of rape. This is a serious matter, so when I write about it I'm not going to make it all light as though it were something nonchalant and to be taken lightly, because IT'S NOT. I emphasize on that, and the facts are going to remain the same: rape is an ugly, ugly, UGLY topic, and even the word itself is awful. If you think that you can't handle this truth, which some people can't and that's all right I spose, then please, I urge you not to read it. Thanks.
4A IS RATED R FOR BAD LANGUAGE AND ADULTISH CONTENT! YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!
Part Four A: As close as one can be to hell without actually being there.
Usagi had gone out for a much needed evening walk. She knew that it would be dark soon, but she really didn't care. She needed more than anything to sort out her life, and to do that she needed privacy, space, and silence. She was walking down to the park, bundeled up in her coat wearing her winter gear. She didn't quite know where she was going, btu knew the general direction at least. When the park came into sight, her destination became clear to her.
She wasted no time heading for the swing set, and sat down on the ice cold rubber. She shivered, but chose to ignore the urge to get up and go home. She closed her eyes at the thought of home in sadness. But where is home? Here, with Aunt Une? Or back in Tokyo, with my dead family and a past that I can't even remeber? Usagi felt tears well up, but she pushed them back down. Crying isn't going to do you any good now, Usagi Tsukino, she scolded herself mentally. But what will? I'm so lonely here... something's missing here, I can feel it I just don't know WHAT. And things are so confusing, I feel like I'm going to explode. First, Duo shows that... I dunno, he just tried to kiss me. And then Heero asked me out to the dance, but I got mad and blew him off instead... what is WRONG with me? Sure, I don't want to make an enemy of Relena but... but I think I really did want to go with him. And Wufei could use a beating.
Usagi opened her eyes at the sound of foot steps, and saw a shadow settle in front of her. Speak of the devil, she thought as she looked up to see Chang Wufei standing there in front of her. Usagi's eyes narrowed, partly out of anger and suspicion, and partly because the remaining sun's rays were glaring dead into her eyes. for awhile she said nothing, and finally got up. "What do you want," she demanded, glaring him down. He still said nothing, and when he finally did, her anger was set ablaze. " That baby of yours was driving me crazy, yowai on'na."
Usagi then felt something inside of her preparing to snap, coiled up like a snake with it's head ready snap with a deadly blow. "I have a name, and if you want to talk to me, you will use it. Good bye, Wufei. Have fun." She then spun on her heel curtly and walked out towards the woods. Usagi knew that she was going the wrong way, but she had had quite enough of his attitude, and wasn't in the mood for him. Wufei watched her head off into the woods, thinking, Stupid weak on'na. She's going to get lost, or mugged, or both. Now I have to follow her and fight for her since she can't.
Usagi was just wandering around, looking for something to waste her time on until she was sure that Wufei was gone. And then she'd be able to release the pent-up emotions that were in turmoil inside her. She didn't know what was the guy's problem; whether he just didn't like her or women in general. She was thinking about the mounting problems that her life was steadily accumulating, when out of nowhere, she was violently grabbed from behind. She screamed in shock, but it was muffled buy the huge, beefy, dirty, swollen, raw and calloused hand that covered it. She struggled, but found that she couldn't move her arms, as they were pinned behind her back. She thrashed hard, and was then pushed roughly against a tree, and tied to it. A bandana was stuffed ito her mouth jarringly, nad she couldn't get it out no matter how hard she tried.
Her capturers then let her see them. They were city boys, ragged and worn. They were older, in their mid twenties or so, and do filthy and smelly Usagi thought she might spew. They laughed cruelly at their victim as she fought against the rough hemp that itched due to the way it dug harshly into her tender, soft skin. Their eyes glowed fearsomely, and Usagi felt all hopes that it might be some cruel joke sink like the Titanic.
"Well, well, well... what have we here? A fine, young, pretty specimine of a female I'd say." She gave him her lazer glare, glazed with toxins that would have killed a pigeon with rabies. "Oh oh! Did you see that? The little lady just glared at me!" They laughed in scorn, and he showed an expression of mock hurt. Usagi learned true hate at that moment. The utter loathing was unbearable, as though she shouldn't be feeling this emotion at all costs.
If my mouth weren't covered, I'd spit on you, you son of a b- Her thoughts were interrupted as one of them searched her over for money. She screamed in utter as he patted her breasts and butt extra hard, and even reached inside her jacket to get a better feel of them. Usagi felt such a deep, dark hatred seep from her very essence that she wished this boy, and his companions, would rot in hell. Die.... die, die, die! Damn you, leave me alone! What have I done to deserve this??!!
He then proceded to get her coat off in, and Usagi felt the icy frigid air on her skin as a sign off her virginity's doom. No... no, please... please don't let this happen to me... Usagi felt hot, salty tears run down her pale cheeks to her dismay, nad they were shortly followed by dozens of others. She shivered violently, and horror ran through her as he actually touched her cheek, and slid his thick fingers down to her chin.
"Awww, don't cry. You won't feel a thing... after the first two times!" They laughed horribly, and Usagi's mind began to race in terror, as visions began to play, none of them ending happily. Usagi's chest was heaving, and she worked frantically at her bonds.
Usagi was alarmed, and with each passing second, becoming more so. She felt something rising with her growing panic, something beginning to unveil in her from deep within. Some secret, something deadly that would menouver itself in a single strike that would kill easily at impact. He laughed cruelly, rolled up his sleeves, and positioned him so that if there had been any hope of escape to free herself, then it died.
"Now, girlie... Let's get the show on the road!" He then placed her legs apart, held back her arms, and licked his lips as his eyes danced with an unholy light. Usagi's heart beat still faster, and her chest heaved with such force, that even the raper was surprised.
Usagi's thoughts then coiled down to one single thought. Nothing short of a miracle could save me now, but since there is no miracle to save me... I will lose another part of me. She closed her eyes in dispair as he ripped hir shirt open, to reveal her bra and chest to his open eyes, and to the frosty winter. He gaped slightly, and then said,
" Ye must bind yer chest, er somethin. Cuz ye sure have a big bust." Usagi felt more tears well up and cascade, and she cried inwardly, NOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Please, God, no! Don't let this happen to me! If you really love all your children as they say you do, then don't let him have me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
MEANWHILE....
"Matuka no yowai on'na. Running off at nearly night into the woods all alone." Wufei had been searching for nearly an hour, and was tired of the search. Maybe the on'na left already. He turned to go, when a huge beam of light struck out from the bushes, bathing the quickly growing blackness with an unearthly silver light. It disappeared into oblivion, and he hesitated before quickly running to find the source, hand on the hilt of his gun the whole way.
BACK TO USAGI....
Usagi panted in effort as she sat there on the dead grass, forward on all fours She gasped for air, and to try and figure out what had happened. Her head was spinning, and she was unsure of anything at the moment. When the world finally settled into place, she figured everthing out but didn't quite believe it. Just when he had been about to rip off her bra, and shame her ultimately and do the unthinkable to her, something inside of her snapped and came into place.
A voice associated with another picture of the strange cat talking to her had appeared, and Usagi guessed it for a memory as far as she could tell, and it had said, "Usagi, you must learn: there is far more power inside of you than even I can imagine. You can harness at least a small fraction of it intp a single beam when you are frightened to help you. But be careful when you use your gifts, Usagi. No one must know that you are Sailor Moon, or even in some way related to her or the Sailor Scouts. Much less that you are the Moon Princess."' Usagi moaned softly at the memory that made even less sense than ever. The more I learn about myself, the less I understand.
Usagi saw that the three men who had held her captive and threatened her were unconcious. "Serves you right... ecchis. She then spit on them, while grabbing the remains of her shirt nad her jacket. She stuffed her shirt into her pocket, and then zipped up her jacket totally. After all, she couldn't walk around wearing a shirt that was riped totally up the front.
She looked back, to see that there was a break in the rope. As soon as she had somehow released that beam, it had split itself, more than willing to release her. That sure was useful... I wonder if I could call that up more often? She walked out of the clearing beyond the big bushes that hid it from view, only to be ran over by some one.
Usagi had had a hell of a day, and her emotional stress had only been mounted upon. She growled out, "Kuso!" She hit the ground on her side painfully, and stood up with out a moment's hesitation. She spat out, "Why don't you watch where you're going, ass hole??!" She then releazed what she had just said, when it might have been some helpless kid lost in the woods looking for help, and sighed. "Sorry, I didn't mean-" She cut herself off when she saaw that it was Wufei.
"I take that back, you ARE an ass hole. And why don't you watch where you're going, or do you have your damned pigtail tied so tight that you can't see where you're going?" She was steaming, and was sick of acting all nice around him. This time, she would punch, whether or not a teacher or police officer or whatever came into view. This was her fight, and she had had enough harassment from this guy and the rest of hte world. She was finally ready to fight back full force.
"I was looking for you." Usagi failed to notice that he hadn't added the weak on'ne part, and instead said, "What for? To harass me some more? Well, you know what Chang Wufei? I'm fed up with you. You are nothing more than a damned, chauvinist, sexist PIG and I will NOT take your attitude anymore. I want to have nothing to do with you, and if it weren't for the fact that I was most unfortunate to have to be paired up with you, I wouldn't! Now, leave me alone or I SWEAR I will make you regret ever pissing me off."
There was a silence for a few moments, and he looked genuinly shocked, and Usagi felt ready to kill. The same force from before was rising again, nad if that beam came out of her, she didn't care if it killed him. He frowned, and then hissed, "I came to see if you got into trouble like all trhe other weak on'nas I've ever known and to help you." Usagi for a moment was so shoked, that she actually reeled back like she had been slapped. Her head spun, and her thoughts were jumbled.
He... he came to help me? Maybe.. but then why didn't he get here sooner? Maybe he does care... maybe I've been wrong about him... Usgi regained her composure, and then snarled, "Well, you're too late. I had to save myself from being raped." It was his turn ot be shocked, and he finally choked out, "Where?" She pointed back to the clearing, and he entered to re-emerge minutes later. He looked her over cooly, and finally said, "You're too weak. Someone else had to have done it." Usagi snapped then, and lunged forward on instinct, punching him once in the gut, giving him a nasty upercut, and then throwing him over her shoulder to crash into a tree hard. He looked up at her, nose and mouth bleeding badly. He looked at her, as if to say, "Why?" Usagi felt her resolve weaken, and the black fury that had consumed her disapeared. Tears shimered in her eyes, and then fell like rain. She breathed deeply; her breath coming out in fog. "For my sake, and for your health, I will warn you once more: do not mess with me." And Usagi walked home, unsure of anything anymore.
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If you'll remember, last time Heero had just called Usagi to ask her to the dance, and she had also met Trieze. Someone said that Treize liked her, and I THINK it was Rita. No, Trieze doesn't think of her in the romantic way. He's just trying to figure out if he can use her to his advantage. Meanwhile, Duo had tried earlier to steal a kiss from her but had been un successful in his attempt, due to loss of balance. And poor Usagi got paired up with pompous, egotistical, sexist Chang Wufei in the baby projecy. What will happen to her next as the plot thickens? He he... knowing me, it probably won't be too pretty. Let's get on with this already.
Oh, WAIT!!! Before you go on, you should know something: Part Three A consists of the adult topic of rape. This is a serious matter, so when I write about it I'm not going to make it all light as though it were something nonchalant and to be taken lightly, because IT'S NOT. I emphasize on that, and the facts are going to remain the same: rape is an ugly, ugly, UGLY topic, and even the word itself is awful. If you think that you can't handle this truth, which some people can't and that's all right I spose, then please, I urge you not to read it. Thanks.
4A IS RATED R FOR BAD LANGUAGE AND ADULTISH CONTENT! YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!
Part Four A: As close as one can be to hell without actually being there.
Usagi had gone out for a much needed evening walk. She knew that it would be dark soon, but she really didn't care. She needed more than anything to sort out her life, and to do that she needed privacy, space, and silence. She was walking down to the park, bundeled up in her coat wearing her winter gear. She didn't quite know where she was going, btu knew the general direction at least. When the park came into sight, her destination became clear to her.
She wasted no time heading for the swing set, and sat down on the ice cold rubber. She shivered, but chose to ignore the urge to get up and go home. She closed her eyes at the thought of home in sadness. But where is home? Here, with Aunt Une? Or back in Tokyo, with my dead family and a past that I can't even remeber? Usagi felt tears well up, but she pushed them back down. Crying isn't going to do you any good now, Usagi Tsukino, she scolded herself mentally. But what will? I'm so lonely here... something's missing here, I can feel it I just don't know WHAT. And things are so confusing, I feel like I'm going to explode. First, Duo shows that... I dunno, he just tried to kiss me. And then Heero asked me out to the dance, but I got mad and blew him off instead... what is WRONG with me? Sure, I don't want to make an enemy of Relena but... but I think I really did want to go with him. And Wufei could use a beating.
Usagi opened her eyes at the sound of foot steps, and saw a shadow settle in front of her. Speak of the devil, she thought as she looked up to see Chang Wufei standing there in front of her. Usagi's eyes narrowed, partly out of anger and suspicion, and partly because the remaining sun's rays were glaring dead into her eyes. for awhile she said nothing, and finally got up. "What do you want," she demanded, glaring him down. He still said nothing, and when he finally did, her anger was set ablaze. " That baby of yours was driving me crazy, yowai on'na."
Usagi then felt something inside of her preparing to snap, coiled up like a snake with it's head ready snap with a deadly blow. "I have a name, and if you want to talk to me, you will use it. Good bye, Wufei. Have fun." She then spun on her heel curtly and walked out towards the woods. Usagi knew that she was going the wrong way, but she had had quite enough of his attitude, and wasn't in the mood for him. Wufei watched her head off into the woods, thinking, Stupid weak on'na. She's going to get lost, or mugged, or both. Now I have to follow her and fight for her since she can't.
Usagi was just wandering around, looking for something to waste her time on until she was sure that Wufei was gone. And then she'd be able to release the pent-up emotions that were in turmoil inside her. She didn't know what was the guy's problem; whether he just didn't like her or women in general. She was thinking about the mounting problems that her life was steadily accumulating, when out of nowhere, she was violently grabbed from behind. She screamed in shock, but it was muffled buy the huge, beefy, dirty, swollen, raw and calloused hand that covered it. She struggled, but found that she couldn't move her arms, as they were pinned behind her back. She thrashed hard, and was then pushed roughly against a tree, and tied to it. A bandana was stuffed ito her mouth jarringly, nad she couldn't get it out no matter how hard she tried.
Her capturers then let her see them. They were city boys, ragged and worn. They were older, in their mid twenties or so, and do filthy and smelly Usagi thought she might spew. They laughed cruelly at their victim as she fought against the rough hemp that itched due to the way it dug harshly into her tender, soft skin. Their eyes glowed fearsomely, and Usagi felt all hopes that it might be some cruel joke sink like the Titanic.
"Well, well, well... what have we here? A fine, young, pretty specimine of a female I'd say." She gave him her lazer glare, glazed with toxins that would have killed a pigeon with rabies. "Oh oh! Did you see that? The little lady just glared at me!" They laughed in scorn, and he showed an expression of mock hurt. Usagi learned true hate at that moment. The utter loathing was unbearable, as though she shouldn't be feeling this emotion at all costs.
If my mouth weren't covered, I'd spit on you, you son of a b- Her thoughts were interrupted as one of them searched her over for money. She screamed in utter as he patted her breasts and butt extra hard, and even reached inside her jacket to get a better feel of them. Usagi felt such a deep, dark hatred seep from her very essence that she wished this boy, and his companions, would rot in hell. Die.... die, die, die! Damn you, leave me alone! What have I done to deserve this??!!
He then proceded to get her coat off in, and Usagi felt the icy frigid air on her skin as a sign off her virginity's doom. No... no, please... please don't let this happen to me... Usagi felt hot, salty tears run down her pale cheeks to her dismay, nad they were shortly followed by dozens of others. She shivered violently, and horror ran through her as he actually touched her cheek, and slid his thick fingers down to her chin.
"Awww, don't cry. You won't feel a thing... after the first two times!" They laughed horribly, and Usagi's mind began to race in terror, as visions began to play, none of them ending happily. Usagi's chest was heaving, and she worked frantically at her bonds.
Usagi was alarmed, and with each passing second, becoming more so. She felt something rising with her growing panic, something beginning to unveil in her from deep within. Some secret, something deadly that would menouver itself in a single strike that would kill easily at impact. He laughed cruelly, rolled up his sleeves, and positioned him so that if there had been any hope of escape to free herself, then it died.
"Now, girlie... Let's get the show on the road!" He then placed her legs apart, held back her arms, and licked his lips as his eyes danced with an unholy light. Usagi's heart beat still faster, and her chest heaved with such force, that even the raper was surprised.
Usagi's thoughts then coiled down to one single thought. Nothing short of a miracle could save me now, but since there is no miracle to save me... I will lose another part of me. She closed her eyes in dispair as he ripped hir shirt open, to reveal her bra and chest to his open eyes, and to the frosty winter. He gaped slightly, and then said,
" Ye must bind yer chest, er somethin. Cuz ye sure have a big bust." Usagi felt more tears well up and cascade, and she cried inwardly, NOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Please, God, no! Don't let this happen to me! If you really love all your children as they say you do, then don't let him have me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
MEANWHILE....
"Matuka no yowai on'na. Running off at nearly night into the woods all alone." Wufei had been searching for nearly an hour, and was tired of the search. Maybe the on'na left already. He turned to go, when a huge beam of light struck out from the bushes, bathing the quickly growing blackness with an unearthly silver light. It disappeared into oblivion, and he hesitated before quickly running to find the source, hand on the hilt of his gun the whole way.
BACK TO USAGI....
Usagi panted in effort as she sat there on the dead grass, forward on all fours She gasped for air, and to try and figure out what had happened. Her head was spinning, and she was unsure of anything at the moment. When the world finally settled into place, she figured everthing out but didn't quite believe it. Just when he had been about to rip off her bra, and shame her ultimately and do the unthinkable to her, something inside of her snapped and came into place.
A voice associated with another picture of the strange cat talking to her had appeared, and Usagi guessed it for a memory as far as she could tell, and it had said, "Usagi, you must learn: there is far more power inside of you than even I can imagine. You can harness at least a small fraction of it intp a single beam when you are frightened to help you. But be careful when you use your gifts, Usagi. No one must know that you are Sailor Moon, or even in some way related to her or the Sailor Scouts. Much less that you are the Moon Princess."' Usagi moaned softly at the memory that made even less sense than ever. The more I learn about myself, the less I understand.
Usagi saw that the three men who had held her captive and threatened her were unconcious. "Serves you right... ecchis. She then spit on them, while grabbing the remains of her shirt nad her jacket. She stuffed her shirt into her pocket, and then zipped up her jacket totally. After all, she couldn't walk around wearing a shirt that was riped totally up the front.
She looked back, to see that there was a break in the rope. As soon as she had somehow released that beam, it had split itself, more than willing to release her. That sure was useful... I wonder if I could call that up more often? She walked out of the clearing beyond the big bushes that hid it from view, only to be ran over by some one.
Usagi had had a hell of a day, and her emotional stress had only been mounted upon. She growled out, "Kuso!" She hit the ground on her side painfully, and stood up with out a moment's hesitation. She spat out, "Why don't you watch where you're going, ass hole??!" She then releazed what she had just said, when it might have been some helpless kid lost in the woods looking for help, and sighed. "Sorry, I didn't mean-" She cut herself off when she saaw that it was Wufei.
"I take that back, you ARE an ass hole. And why don't you watch where you're going, or do you have your damned pigtail tied so tight that you can't see where you're going?" She was steaming, and was sick of acting all nice around him. This time, she would punch, whether or not a teacher or police officer or whatever came into view. This was her fight, and she had had enough harassment from this guy and the rest of hte world. She was finally ready to fight back full force.
"I was looking for you." Usagi failed to notice that he hadn't added the weak on'ne part, and instead said, "What for? To harass me some more? Well, you know what Chang Wufei? I'm fed up with you. You are nothing more than a damned, chauvinist, sexist PIG and I will NOT take your attitude anymore. I want to have nothing to do with you, and if it weren't for the fact that I was most unfortunate to have to be paired up with you, I wouldn't! Now, leave me alone or I SWEAR I will make you regret ever pissing me off."
There was a silence for a few moments, and he looked genuinly shocked, and Usagi felt ready to kill. The same force from before was rising again, nad if that beam came out of her, she didn't care if it killed him. He frowned, and then hissed, "I came to see if you got into trouble like all trhe other weak on'nas I've ever known and to help you." Usagi for a moment was so shoked, that she actually reeled back like she had been slapped. Her head spun, and her thoughts were jumbled.
He... he came to help me? Maybe.. but then why didn't he get here sooner? Maybe he does care... maybe I've been wrong about him... Usgi regained her composure, and then snarled, "Well, you're too late. I had to save myself from being raped." It was his turn ot be shocked, and he finally choked out, "Where?" She pointed back to the clearing, and he entered to re-emerge minutes later. He looked her over cooly, and finally said, "You're too weak. Someone else had to have done it." Usagi snapped then, and lunged forward on instinct, punching him once in the gut, giving him a nasty upercut, and then throwing him over her shoulder to crash into a tree hard. He looked up at her, nose and mouth bleeding badly. He looked at her, as if to say, "Why?" Usagi felt her resolve weaken, and the black fury that had consumed her disapeared. Tears shimered in her eyes, and then fell like rain. She breathed deeply; her breath coming out in fog. "For my sake, and for your health, I will warn you once more: do not mess with me." And Usagi walked home, unsure of anything anymore.
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