EPOV
"Hello?" I was surprised to receive a call from Bella at 3 am. It meant the sleep was also not coming to her.
"Hello..." she said, but didn't say anything after that.
I didn't know for how long we stayed on the line without speaking.
It's like we wanted to be in each other's company, but didn't know what to say without making everything worse than it already was.
"I brought up Emmett's name to piss you off," she said after some time, "I didn't mean that."
"I know," I said.
"You never forced me to get into this relationship," she said, "I don't think it's right to put blame just on you for whatever happened today."
I knew she was crying, and I was never going to forgive myself for this.
I was the only person responsible for what she was going through.
"You didn't say anything wrong," I said, "None of this would have happened if you were in a relationship with anyone but me."
"That's the problem," she said, "I don't want anyone but you."
"I think it's for the best if you don't get what you want," I said.
It was not going to bring her anything but pain, sadness and humiliation.
I was questioning everything now.
Why would she shed tears for me?
Was there anything to like about me?
Why would she love me?
Why?
I'd probably not be able to love someone like me if I were in her shoes!
"Can't you leave her?" she asked, but then cried out loud, "I'm sorry... I didn't mean to... I don't know what I was thinking..."
"Yes, I can leave her," I said, "And I will."
"But it's going to get dirty, and I don't want to involve you," I said, "You don't deserve any of that."
A/N: I'll stop for real now!
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