Matt's POV
Tai
better stop soon or I'm going to have to start carrying T.K, he's so exhausted.
Just because Tai's the leader doesn't mean that he shouldn't pay attention.
That's the problem with him: always being in the front, he never looks back at
the rest of us, in more ways than one. Oh well, it's getting dark anyway, and
even Tai knows that we can't walk in the dark. Just thinking about all of the
evil digimon that could creep up on us without us knowing gives me the creeps.
What if one of them got T.K.? I wouldn't be able to forgive myself if something
happened to him. I am his older brother, I need to take care of him.
Now
that Kari's here it nice to see Tai going through all of the stressing stuff I
had to. It's not so easy to act all tough when you've got the weight of your
little sister on your shoulders, is it? Tai may be our leader, I'll admit it,
but everyone can basically take care of themselves. I know I can. I don't need
Tai's help, but when you have your own flesh and blood next to you, it's
totally different. Now that Tai's got a real taste of what I've gone through, I
think that he'll probably be a better leader. Maybe. Still, sometimes Tai just
doesn't get it. I just feel like smacking him over the head with something very
heavy and yelling "Wake up, you idiot! Think for once!" I suppose
that's why I'm always beating Tai up. Maybe not the smartest thing I've ever
done, but someone had to show Tai his
bone-headedness. I
can just imagine Joe or Izzy trying to pick a fight with Tai. That's just
wrong. Not that Tai's really a bad guy; he just gets on my nerves. All friends
do that though, I hope. All in all, I'd hate it if anything happened to him. He
sure keeps me from doing anything really stupid. I've had my stupid moments,
but around Tai I have to be careful. I don't want him to have any dirt on me.
Still, as friendship goes, he could like my harmonica playing a little more.
At
least Sora appreciates my harmonica talents. She even told me one day that she
thought that I was really good and one day I would be in a band. Who knows?
Maybe I will. Sora's a really nice person, I mean; she's even nice to Tai. Now
that's saying something. That was kinda mean, Tai's not all that horrible, but
Sora puts up with him a lot better than I do. I wish that I had her patience
and self-confidence. The most reassuring thing is she had the same kind of
problems that I've had in the Digiworld. At least I know that I wasn't totally
off the wall when I decided I needed a little time alone. Truth be told, Sora's
the kind of friend that I wish I could be. She's hardly ever mad, she can be
serious when you talk to her about your problems, and she can also joke around
when you need some comic relief. I've got a lot of respect for Sora.
I
really respect Izzy too, but for a totally different reason. If it's at all
possible, I think Izzy hides more than even I do. For some reason no else gets
on his case about it, but when I don't want to talk Tai is always getting on my
back. What Izzy could possibly have to hide is beyond me. What kind of problems
could he have? He's smart, level headed, people listen to him 'cause they know
that he knows what he's talking about, and he's got two parents that love him.
I just don't get it. Still, I can tell that there's something he's not telling.
I just hope he doesn't get pulled into a dark cave like I did. I wonder how I
know this. It's not like Izzy's come out and said "Hey! I've got a
problem, but I'm not going to tell you all because I don't want to!" Maybe
I'm just overly perceptive.
I
may be perceptive, but my first impression of Joe was really wrong. Maybe not
wrong, he is a hypochondriac and worries over more than is probably healthy,
but that's not the whole Joe. He's the guy that changed first when we came to
the Digiworld. Of course he'll always be on the verge of a nervous breakdown,
but I'm not going to complain. He saved T.K.'s life, twice! I owe him so much.
He could have died both times, but thanks to our digimon, he didn't. Still,
it's the thought that counts. Risking your own life for someone else's is not
something that normal people do once in their lives, much less twice. Maybe Joe
has a split personality. The annoying, doomed one, and the more heroic, brave
one. To bad I couldn't gradually change like Joe, no I've got to go andtry to
kill Tai. Sometimes my own stupidity scares me.
Mimi
is probably the exact opposite of Joe. Sometimes I don't know where she comes
from, she's just so out there. On the other hand, she did realize that fighting
can only hurt people, something that it took Tai a small millennium to realize.
I'm still not really sure how she got over the problem that made her leave the
group. Sora told me that Mimi didn't want to fight anymore, at all. I'll admit
that fighting can get obsessive, but in the Digiworld we really don't have much
of a choice. It's an 'eat or be eaten' kinda place. I guess that it finally got
to me, and that's what really made me snap. I wonder if that's the same reason
for Mimi? I guess I'll never know, I don't even want to try to get in Mimi's
mind. Mine's confusing enough, and I don't even want to know what's floating
around in hers. On the other hand, it can't be as scary as whatever's going on
in Tai's head.
I
seriously thought that Tai was going to kill me when Kari gave herself up to
Myotismon. No offense to her or anything, but you can tell that she and Tai are
from the same family. I suppose that it worked out all right, but she still
could have waited. I know that reinforcements were on their way, and we didn't
have to surrender to Phantomon. She could've been killed! The world could've
ended if Myotismon hadn't done the classic evil-guy gloat thing. I guess that
Myotismon really caused his own downfall with that. Still, it's nice for T.K.
to have a kid his age here in the Digiworld. I think that he was getting kinda
lonely when he was here all by himself. You can't blame him. I had Tai and Sora
who were my friends that were my age, and everyone else was close enough. Kari
was like a lifesaver to T.K.
I
tried to help T.K. as much as I could, since it's my job as a big brother to be
over protective. I knew that it was getting really bad when T.K. started to
complain about me trying to protect him from everything. Considering I've been
trying to do it all of his life, when he starts complaining it's really sad. I
can't say that I wish that we left T.K. in the real world though. I've gotten
to know him so much better from seeing him so much in the Digiworld. In the
real world we only get to see each other when our parents agreed on it, which
wasn't all that often. Now I get see him as much as I want, and hopefully when
we get home we can keep in touch better. I finally know my little brother's
favorite TV show, cartoon, his fears and things that he really likes. This trip
to the Digiworld hasn't only changed T.K. into a better person, but me and
everyone else. Even after all that's happened. I wouldn't trade it for the
world. Either one.