For some reason
this came out a lot more angst-y then I had anticipated. Don't ask me why, but
it did. *Shrugs* Go figure. Oh, and if you have a request for who's POV you
want me to do next just e-mail me (You can go to my author profile to find it)
or review. (Hehe, shameless way to try to get reviews. I'm so pitiful.) Now,
without further ado, here's the part that you are actually here for…the story!
Izzy's POV
It's actually really fascinating how our attitudes towards the Digiworld have changed after all of our experiences here. If people looked and compared the way that all of us feel now: trampling through the woods with a mission that we will stop at nothing to achieve, to the way that we felt when we first came here: jumping at any chance to leave and never come back, they would think that we were two different groups. The truth is, we actually may be. I'm a whole different person now, and I'm not the only person that feels that way. The life experiences that all of us have had here are truly astounding, and we couldn't get rid of them if we wanted to. For good or ill, we can't get rid of them.
Contrary to popular belief, I know that Tai has some memories from here that he would rather forget. I never thought that Tai could be so emotional, but after that whole fiasco with Kari I don't know. Getting all emotional is usually Mimi's job. A curse and a blessing I suppose. Tai always seemed so confident to me, so sure that everything he would do would turn out fine in the end. Even if it looked like it was going up in flames around him, he always managed to do something to make it turn out the way that he wanted to. He may have caused the problems that we got into half of the time, but he always got us out of them too. You would never expect someone like that to hold a deep, dark secret, a long buried guilt. I guess I don't know as much about my friends as I think that I do. I may know all of the intricacies of my laptop, but all of the neural pathways of my friends are a mystery to me. Computers you just pull the back off and look inside, but with people like Tai and the others you've got to really be with them for a long time to even see small glimpses of their inner psyche. Like with Tai, I never knew of the worries of his sister that he carried in his subconscious, but when a nervous breakdown occurs, you see parts of people you would never expect. Even when you have those moments when you can't help spilling your innermost feelings, like Tai did that one time, it's nice to know that you have friends that will understand.
Matt probably understands the most about keeping secret. Apart from me that is. He's so secretive by nature that I just know that's he's hiding something, and it's not just his emotions. If there is one thing that I refuse to be lead astray by is a facade. I'm the master of them, so consequently I can pin-point one of the a mile away. Unlike others who can see them, though, I know they're there for a reason. I know there was a reason for mine and Matt's too. While he was gone he obviously realized that he didn't need a mask anymore. I'm starting to realize the same thing he did, I think, since none of us took the opportunity to really question Matt about what he did while he was gone. All I've been able to deduce is that it had something to do with Gabumon. Makes sense, since Tentomon really helped me become less anti-social. People never thought that Matt was anti-social and he left the group for crying out loud! Just because I have a computer everyone thinks that I couldn't talk to someone to save my own life. Shows how much they really know about me. Still I'm not about to hand over my computer to Matt so that he can be the anti-social one. I like my laptop nice and un-crashed, thank you very much. No thanks to Tai I might add.
Thank goodness I have Sora to help me protect my computer from Tai's unrelenting assaults. She has the bravery to tell Tai to leave me alone when I'm working. She's one of the few in this squad of ours that actually understands that I do important things on my laptop. The Digimon Analyzer is not used so that I can look at the pictures. I may be as short as T.K. but I am much more mature. It only makes sense, I am older than he is. Of course, to Sora everyone needs to be taken care of a little bit. Her 'motherly instinct' must be kicking in early, not that anyone in our group would complain. It's nice to have someone like Sora around, someone you feel you could tell your secrets to. Just because you feel like you could doesn't mean that you will though, especially in my case. Still, it's nice to know that it's possible. I know that Sora would know enough about me that she wouldn't give me a big pity-party and would offer quiet support. It's what she does, and something that everyone has taken advantage of at one point in time. Sora is the type that you can admit that you are frightened to and she wouldn't even think of laughing in your face. It's nice to know that love doesn't just have to be the kind between a mother and father. Sora's a perfect example of the other kind, the kind that just cares about other people.
It's nice to know that I'm not the only person that has problems with their parents. I mean, at least my parents, or my adoptive parents but parents nonetheless, came to support me when we defeated Myotismon. A theory of mine, that I think has been proved many times over, is when people believe in you then you are able to do things you may have never been able to do without their support. When we were on the verge of defeat from Myotismon we got encouragement from all of our parents to keep fighting, all except Joe. Sure, he had his brother, but it's not the same. That's another thing that I don't have the whole story about, but I'm working on it. It's possible that Joe's parents could have been under Myotismon's spell, but I watched him closely, and he and his brother were checking on a plethora of people. They didn't automatically go to any one person like Sora to her mom or Mimi and Tai to their parents. Then again, it could just be Joe's feeling of responsibility for all of the people there. It's not unknown for him to put everyone else before him. I can truly attest to it, considering he did try to save my life by sacrificing himself to Piedmon. We didn't know that after someone was turned into a key chain they could definitely be brought back, but Joe tried to save me anyway. That was one of the only times I think I ever cried in front of someone besides my parents or Tentomon. I don't know if Joe realizes the implications of that, but there are a lot of them. Now that I think about it, I've never seen Joe cry. Ever. Sure he's complained, and sometimes for good reason, but I don't ever remember him crying. Strange, could Joe be hiding something too?
All I know is that Mimi's not hiding anything. With her crest of sincerity I think that it's impossible for her to have secrets like the rest of us. Mimi's such the total opposite of me that it's a wonder that we can work together at all. Somehow we manage to do it. I must admit, I envy Mimi sometimes. She has no qualms about telling people exactly what she knows and thinks. I always have to think about how someone could be hurt by me knowing what I do, and sometimes making the decision of whether or not to tell what I know can kill me. Mimi just tells you how it is, and that's that. Not that she doesn't have her problems as we all do. She just puts them out in the open, where they can be seen by everyone. I suppose that allows more people to help her, but I'm amazed by the fact that she doesn't feel the least bit embarrassed by it. I have problem crying in front of people, laying out my deepest feelings is something I could never do. Holding things inside is what I do, and spreading them out for all to see is Mimi's. To each his or her own. Mimi doesn't know how good she's got it.
T.K.'s known for his naïveté, which is another thing that I wish that I could share sometimes. Not to quote Joe, but "Sometimes too much information is a bad thing." With knowledge comes the realization that in the end, everybody dies. T.K.'s still in that blissful time where he believes the worst thing that could happen would be that Puppetmon would come back. Even then, he probably thinks that Matt will protect him if he gets in too deep. Sometimes I wish that I could stop him from ever learning that someday Matt won't be able to shield him and then he'll have to look at the world bluntly, face to face. The world isn't always pretty. T.K., though, will always concentrate on the silver lining, and not the dark cloud. Something that we can all learn from him. That mindset was the same thing that finally got me to realize that being adopted isn't the worst thing that ever happened to me. Looking statistically, I'm sure I would find that I've had many more opportunities than most orphans. And I'm really not an orphan. I have parents that love me. Thanks T.K., being around you has helped me see how good I really have it.
Kari's
the light that will always remind me that you can look at the bad information
streaming in, but you've got to concentrate on the good stuff that will always
outweigh it. Kari's got the belief that no one is past redemption, and the
world would be a better place if everyone thought the same way. If everyone
thought that the world was doomed from the beginning then we would never have
even bothered to try to save the Digiworld and, along with it, the Real World.
It wasn't until Kari came along that we could identify it, but we really had
her light all along. She doesn't know how important her gift is to everyone.
The incarnation of the light inside of everyone: that's Kari. Not the easiest
job in the world, but if she has any of the DNA that Tai does; the "Never
give up!", and "Fight till the bitter end and after!" spirit
then I know that she'll do fine. I know she will. Considering I have the crest
of knowledge that should be saying something. Just like I know that, in the
long run, everything will be all right.