Chapter 5
What was this feeling coming over him as he stared at the knife? He wasn't thinking right, was he really even thinking of this?
(( I can end it all, end all the pain... ))
His hand slowly advanced to the knife, the tips of his fingers touching it lightly, a small voice in the back of his head was telling him to walk away, go back into his room and forget it. He quickly pushed that thought away, his fingers wrapping around the knife, lifting it gently off the counter, he studied it with his ice blue eyes. Would he really go through with this? Would he end his life right here?
(( My miserable life... ))
He lightly pressed the knife against his left wrist, not putting any pressure on it... yet. He stood there staring at his wrist, feeling the coolness of the metal against his skin.
(( Maybe... maybe just a bit... ))
Still holding the knife in his hand, he slowly pressed down on it, a strange feeling rushing over him. The knife slightly piercing his skin, he took away the knife seeing a trickle of blood make its way down his arm, in a way... this felt good to him. Would he dare deepen the cut? Finish it off here and now?
Once again he raised the knife, placing it over where he pierced the skin first, wincing a bit as the sharp blades touched the slightly open wound, it hurt but in some way it was exhilarating. He went to go push the knife into his flesh one last time, to end it all when....
"Milliardo!" A young female voice called out, his eyes shot open looking to the kitchen doorway, seeing Relena standing there. "Milliardo! What are earth are you doing?!" She screamed out.
"I.. I.." He dropped the knife to the floor, a loud clack as it hit the hard floor. Relena gasped looking at his wrist, seeing the blood spreading over his left arm. He stumbled back and hit the counter behind. Relena ran over to him. "Why Milliardo? Why are you doing this?"
"I..... I...I can't stand this... I can't take it.."
"Milliardo..." She said, leading him to the living room. "Were... were all hurt and if.. if you would have gone through with that you... it would have hurt us more.." She started bandaging his left wrist, tears welling up in her eyes. The wound wasn't deep, but it would take a while for the bleeding to stop. Once she was done bandaging his wrist she tightly wrapped her arms around him.
"We don't want to see you do this to yourself." She said through sobs. "I know your.. your in pain but this isn't the right thing to do... your... your my only family I have left and I don't... want to loose you." The tears were streaming down her face.
He looked down at her crying and shaking figure, he must have worried her deeply, he returned her embrace.
"Relena... I'm sorry I was just... I didn't know what I was doing. What were you doing home? I thought you left with everyone else."
She shook her head. "I didn't feel well, but now I thank God I never went because I would have lost you, please brother, don't do anything like this again, your not helping yourself, your hurting those around you who... who care for you."
"I won't.. I won't worry you any more dear sister, I'm sorry."
She stayed there, sobbing more, trying to calm down, he looked down to her. What had he done? How could he do this? Why did he always have to hurt somebody? He felt a strange stinging in his eyes and wiped his eyes with the back of his right hand, seeing the glistening of liquid.
Tears.
He was crying.
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^_~ Hope you all liked that, I know that was a bit short, but I wanted one short thing just for this scene. I'll get more up as soon as possible!
What was this feeling coming over him as he stared at the knife? He wasn't thinking right, was he really even thinking of this?
(( I can end it all, end all the pain... ))
His hand slowly advanced to the knife, the tips of his fingers touching it lightly, a small voice in the back of his head was telling him to walk away, go back into his room and forget it. He quickly pushed that thought away, his fingers wrapping around the knife, lifting it gently off the counter, he studied it with his ice blue eyes. Would he really go through with this? Would he end his life right here?
(( My miserable life... ))
He lightly pressed the knife against his left wrist, not putting any pressure on it... yet. He stood there staring at his wrist, feeling the coolness of the metal against his skin.
(( Maybe... maybe just a bit... ))
Still holding the knife in his hand, he slowly pressed down on it, a strange feeling rushing over him. The knife slightly piercing his skin, he took away the knife seeing a trickle of blood make its way down his arm, in a way... this felt good to him. Would he dare deepen the cut? Finish it off here and now?
Once again he raised the knife, placing it over where he pierced the skin first, wincing a bit as the sharp blades touched the slightly open wound, it hurt but in some way it was exhilarating. He went to go push the knife into his flesh one last time, to end it all when....
"Milliardo!" A young female voice called out, his eyes shot open looking to the kitchen doorway, seeing Relena standing there. "Milliardo! What are earth are you doing?!" She screamed out.
"I.. I.." He dropped the knife to the floor, a loud clack as it hit the hard floor. Relena gasped looking at his wrist, seeing the blood spreading over his left arm. He stumbled back and hit the counter behind. Relena ran over to him. "Why Milliardo? Why are you doing this?"
"I..... I...I can't stand this... I can't take it.."
"Milliardo..." She said, leading him to the living room. "Were... were all hurt and if.. if you would have gone through with that you... it would have hurt us more.." She started bandaging his left wrist, tears welling up in her eyes. The wound wasn't deep, but it would take a while for the bleeding to stop. Once she was done bandaging his wrist she tightly wrapped her arms around him.
"We don't want to see you do this to yourself." She said through sobs. "I know your.. your in pain but this isn't the right thing to do... your... your my only family I have left and I don't... want to loose you." The tears were streaming down her face.
He looked down at her crying and shaking figure, he must have worried her deeply, he returned her embrace.
"Relena... I'm sorry I was just... I didn't know what I was doing. What were you doing home? I thought you left with everyone else."
She shook her head. "I didn't feel well, but now I thank God I never went because I would have lost you, please brother, don't do anything like this again, your not helping yourself, your hurting those around you who... who care for you."
"I won't.. I won't worry you any more dear sister, I'm sorry."
She stayed there, sobbing more, trying to calm down, he looked down to her. What had he done? How could he do this? Why did he always have to hurt somebody? He felt a strange stinging in his eyes and wiped his eyes with the back of his right hand, seeing the glistening of liquid.
Tears.
He was crying.
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^_~ Hope you all liked that, I know that was a bit short, but I wanted one short thing just for this scene. I'll get more up as soon as possible!