SHADOW OF A RAVEN

Readers Note:  Since I just noticed that not all of my italics have shown up in previous chapters (and that can make things confusing!) I'm going to flag all character thoughts with ::  :: to try and make things easier to understand! 

Like this :: some thoughts here…la de da ::

Now here ya go, hope you enjoy!

SHADOW OF A RAVEN

By ½ of The Pink Apocalypse

Chapter Three: Why Try?

"Friendship is the hardest thing in the world to explain. It's not something you learn in school.

But if you haven't learned the meaning of friendship, you really haven't learned anything."

Muhammad Ali

"Mwha ha ha ha!!!   You should be honored Vincent!  You will be helping me with a little experiment very similar to the one dear Lucrecia volunteered for.  It is almost like you two will be together again in spirit as you become an integral piece of my research!" 

Vincent bit his lip but said nothing as Hojo continued to ramble. 

Seeing that Vincent was not responding properly to his taunts the scientist leaned closer to the cage and spoke with all the venom he could muster.  "Yes, you heard me right," he cocked his head to the side, "I control that bitch even in death.  Why should I not?! She was my willing puppet in life!"

"Silence!!  You should not even be allowed to speak her name!  You know as well as I do she is gone!  Her soul would never return to this godforsaken place!"

"Oh, I guess you are right after all dear Vincent."  The scientist paused for a moment smiling. "I heard she flung herself from a cliff.  So, if I where inclined to believe in such absurd things as souls, I guess her's wouldn't be here, would it?  You are the expert on sin old friend, what is the punishment for those who commit suicide?  I don't think they return peacefully to the Promised Land, do they?  Oh yes, now I remember! Dear Lucrecia would be damned to hell where she belongs!"  Hojo smirked and stepped back from the cage as Vincent lunged for him. 

Hojo's eyes grew wide as he suddenly realized he had not stepped quite far enough back and Vincent had been able to catch the edge of his pristine lab coat.  The scientist let out a startled cry as an enraged Vincent violently pulled him toward the cage.  Panicking, Hojo threw all of his weight in the opposite direction, ripping the coat, and sending him tumbling, none to gracefully, to the floor.  From behind the bars Vincent merely glared at the man as Hojo's face became contorted with rage.  Despite the fact that the sneer was meant to look intimidating the balding scientist could look nothing other than comical lying prostrate on the floor.  Keenly aware of his utter loss of composure, Hojo rose to his feet and dusted off his lab coat, trying to regain some semblance of dignity.  Despite the fact that he looked like a fool, and Hojo hated looking like a fool, he was still pleased with himself for he had won after all.  He could still play on the ex-Turk's emotions like a fine tuned fiddle.  He knew exactly which buttons to push and how to push them.  Vincent was completely and utterly in his control.  Hojo, however, was done playing games.  He had gone to all of the trouble to order the Turks to retrieve his old friend and the Cetra for a specific reason and it was time to get down to business.  Though business did not necessary have to come without pleasure. 

Purposefully, Hojo walked over to a near by table and retrieved a clipboard.  Smiling, he turned back to Vincent.  "Enough play.  One can only dwell on the past so long before it becomes boring, now let's get to the point.  As I said before, you are going to be participating in my grand experiment!  Lucrecia helped me to create the perfect Jenova creature, my dear son Septhiroth, and now you and the Ancient are going to ensure that my research can continue as you create the perfect Cetra creature."

"I will do nothing to harm Aeris!!"

"Shut up!!!!  Did I say you could talk?!!! I AM EXPLAINING!!!!!!  Don't interrupt me!!," Hojo shrieked.  He paused for a moment and then continued as though he were speaking to a small child.  "I don't need your cooperation.  All I need is your DNA.  The methods of science have evolved while you were sleep, Vincent.  You may have ceased to exist, but the world progressed just fine without you.  We no longer have to rely on such crude methods of reproduction.  I have your DNA and samples from the Ancient and that is all I need to play GOD!!  Life can be created so easily in a petri-dish.  These days lives are cheep, but vision, VISION, is what changes the world.  It is people like me who will shape the future,"  Hojo paused and strolled over to Aeris' cage.  He knelt before the comatose girl's form and gently stroked her brown hair.

"Get away from her," Vincent growled.

Hojo clenched his sides laughing manically, "You are in no position to be giving me orders!  Besides I'm already done with her.  I thought I would do one little favor for you Vincent, just for old times sake.  I have told her nothing,"  Hojo rose and returned to Vincent's cage.  "The existence of your son or daughter, as the case may be, is a little secret between you and I.  Tell her if you like, or keep the knowledge to yourself.  Whatever you do is of no consequence to me.  But rest assured I will be a…" he paused for a moment watching the utter contempt dance in Vincent's demon red eyes, "…a wonderful surrogate father to your child."  Hojo took a small breath and continued almost remorsefully,  "I was denied the chance to raise my own son and I shall make up for it with yours!"

Vincent could say nothing as he was possessed by a fit off emotion beyond anger.  In the back of his mind his inner demons tore at the edges of his sanity stripping him of all coherent thoughts except one – I will kill him…

"As much fun as this has been, old friend, I really do need to get back to work, but I want you to help me with one last thing, if it's not too much trouble.  As long as I have you here I want to have my assistants test the limits of the improvements you received during our last… collaboration.  Just a few little tests, and if you're a good boy, when they are done I'll give you a lollipop.  See, look how paternal I can be."  Hojo snickered again, called for his assistants, and removed a tranquilizer gun from his pocket.  He raised the gun to Vincent's chest, taking care to stand a few feet beyond his reach.  As he pulled the trigger he sneered whispering, "Sweet dreams, dear Vincent."

****

"I'm telling you that traveling in a party of three is a $@!!$#^ stupid way to try and save the %&*^$ world!  Are ya trying to tell me that evil can only be combated by groups of three?!!" Cid shrieked,  "I'm telling YOU if we weren't moving in stupid groups of three it would be harder for the Turks to just sneak up out of the blue and jump our asses!"

Barret's eyes narrowed and he advanced on the old pilot "Whatcha talkin' 'bout ol' man!  People need ta travel in groups no bigga dan three or else dere wou' be no sneakin' in nowhere!  I tink I got a little more experience dan you space cowboy in tryin' ta lead rebel groups!  Can you imagine tryin' ta sneak inta a buildin' wit ten or so people, let alone tryin' ta buy supplies witout catchin' da 'tention of the local authorities!!!  Get people millin' around in large groups and nobody don't know who's supposed ta be doin' what!" Let alone who's leadin'!  No, groups of three is easier ta work wit an' manage, foo'!"

"But if we all just $^%# bum rushed whatever was standing in our way with eight or nine people we would…"

Barret shook his fist in rage, "You tryin' ta say I don't know what I'm talkin' 'bout here Cancer Man?!"

Cid leaned forward and blew a puff of smoke in the angry man's face, "That just might be what I'm implying here, so what are ya going to do about it?"

Rubbing his head Cloud chose that instant to move in-between the two before Barret and Cid decided to try and tear each other apart.  "Guys! Knock it off!!  We will go in two parties of three, all right?!," he paused, making a point of looking each man in the eyes.  Just as the two opened their mouths to continue the argument Cait Sith bounced over.

The giant mog hopped up and down happily as Cait Sith raised his megaphone to shout in Cloud's ear. "Heya Cloud!"  Cloud rubbed his ear and glared at the cat while taking a step back.  He opened his mouth to say something but Cait just keep talking, "Since we are going into the Shinra Building I just wanted to let you know that, well, being a fortune telling machine and all, I've got connections – meaning I got what ya need to get in and get out quick!  Besides, seeing as you and Barret and Tifa have already busted into the building once you all should be old pros at this!!"

Tifa tightened her gloves and looked up at Cait Sith.  Cocking her head to the side she asked, "What do you mean you have what we need?"

"I've got the hook up, I am the number one, supreme code crakin', tap dancin' cat this side of Gold Saucer!  You guys go in and distract the guards and I will have all the doors open in no time!  No worries about access codes or key cards!  I am your personal passport to the sixty-eighth floor!  So, since Cid and Barret were so kind as to figure out that we shall be crashing Hojo's little party in two groups of three I'll go with Cloud and Red to the lab!"

"Um, Cait?," Tifa shrugged, " I don't think that is the best party to be rushing into the lab with."

"Who better?," Cait grinned, "I'm sure Red is looking forward to seeing Hojo again, on his own terms, and if I were Hojo, and boy am I glad I'm not, and I saw a very angry Cloud running at me with that sword, I would be running the other way as fast as my lily legs could carry me!"

"But…"

"Good," Cait said cutting Tifa off, "that means that you, Barret and um… Cid will be running the distraction, and sorry Yuffie you'll be sitting on the bench for this one."

"Hey," Yuffie shrieked suddenly becoming very interested in the conversation, "that's not fair I'm coming too!"

Cait shook his tiny head and mog mimicked his movement, "No Yuffie, we need someone to stay behind and be ready with cure spells, potions, and medical supplies because we have no idea what condition we are going to be getting Aeris and Vincent back in."  Sighing Yuffie reluctantly agreed.  

****

With a shaking hand, Reeve set down the microphone and turned away from the monitor allowing Cait's A.I. to resume control of the android. 

::No turning back now, Reeve, you are going to come through for Avalanche this time.   Okay, before I turned Cait back on autopilot I uploaded all of the pass codes the guys are going to need to get in.  I'm about to give Tzeng and Reno the night off, Elena is on babysitting duty with Rufus, and Rude is in the infirmary.  Good that will clear out the Turks… that just leaves the regular guards.  When the guys get to the top plate of Midgar I'll just set a little fire on the sixty-fourth floor which will not only distract the guards by setting off the alarm system but it will also shut down all of the elevators in the building so if the remaining guards do detect the guys back up will be a long time in the coming.::

 Scratching his head he sighed and a small grin spread across his features. 

::That leaves the good doctor practically all by himself to deal with Cloud and Red XIII.:: 

****

The lab assistant had been pawing over Vincent for hours while the "good doctor" played with his perti-dish in another lab.  The young man had poked and prodded taking every type of sample from the disgruntled ex-turk ever imagined by science.  It was painfully obvious to Vincent by now that the boy was a novice for when he drew blood he acted more like a blind man searching for a light switch than a professional lab technician.  He had already stuck Vincent in the arm and missed the vein five times.  He finally hit the vein on the sixth try but by then it felt more like the assistant was jamming a turkey baster into his arm than a hypodermic needle. 

As the boy scribbled down something on his clipboard he cast a fearful glance at the restrained man on the table and walked over to a communicator on the wall.  "Doctor Pierce would you please notify Doctor Hojo that the initial readings have been taken from the… um… patient…"

"Specimen, Roberts, specimen."

"Yes, the specimen, Doctor Pierce, and the pa… um I mean specimen is ready to begin the trials."

"Thank you, Roberts we will be in shortly."  The young technician stiffened and darted about the lab making sure everything was in perfect order.  Vincent glared at the young man and pulled at his restraints causing blood to run down his wrists.  A few minutes later Vincent heard Hojo's hollow laughter approaching from down the hallway.  The door was flung open and Hojo and another, even shorter man waltzed into the room. 

Hojo walked over to Vincent's side, smiling, and looked down at his purple arm.  Chuckling, the scientist turned to the lab technician, "You've been practicing, haven't you Roberts?  Much better boy, we will make a doctor out of you yet, don't you think Vincent?" Vincent merely turned his head away.  Sneering, Hojo, grabbed his long hair and forced Vincent to meet his gaze.  "We've had such a nice talk already, let's just get down to business."  With a flick of his wrist, Hojo grabbed a scalpel from the tray beside Vincent.  Smiling he ran the blade across Vincent's face, as though he were caressing his cheek.  Seconds later the skin pealed apart blood oozed from the gash.  Vincent grimaced but refused to give Hojo the satisfaction of a response.  "We are now going to test your new limits, old friend.  I want to see just how far I can push the beast."  Hojo snapped his fingers and the boy scampered over to the wall and turned on opera music for the doctor to work to.  "Do you think you could trouble yourself to scream to the music?  It would just make things so much more poetic!!"  The balding man then proceeded to laugh maniacally as he ran the scalpel down the entire length of his captive's right arm.  He then repositioned the blade so that he held it as though it were weapon and gouged it into one of the scars on Vincent's left arm above his bronze claw.  He then raised the blade and brought it down, again and again, until Vincent began to scream in agony.  The lab assistant turned his back to the screaming man and covered his mouth to keep himself from vomiting.

Roberts turned back on the scene and watched the man on the table convulse in pain.  "Don't you think you've gone far enough Doctor?"

Angrily Hojo spun around on the boy, "Do you presume to question ME?"

"No, sir," he replied, shaking.  Hojo sighed and pulled a gun out of his lab coat aiming at the young boy's leg.  Just as the opera singer's voice in the background began to fall from a high note Hojo pulled the trigger and turned back to Vincent.  Without missing a beat, he dropped the gun and continued to stab Vincent until the restrained man uttered a low growl.  Suddenly, Vincent lunged forward as he transformed from a man into a purple, horned beast.  Hojo laughed as the beast lunged frantically against the restraints.  "Pierce, get over here," Hojo roared.  Like a well-trained dog, the doctor leapt to Hojo's side.  Trembling, he held out a guard's nightstick to the mad scientist.  Gleefully, Hojo took the blunt object from his trembling assistant and turned back to Vincent.  He then raised his weapon and proceeded to bludgeon Vincent until the monster's skin turned an odd lavender color.  As the beast fell limp, Hojo tossed his weapon to the ground and clenched his sides laughing.  As his breathing returned to normal, he turned to the other doctor, "Record the time Pierce, clean up this mess… and do give Roberts a band-aid."

 

****

When she had come to in the harsh white room she was all-alone, for a moment she could not figure out where she was.  The only thing she could hear was the soft, familiar voice of a man.  Her eyes refused to focus as she groaned in pain.  Almost immediately after she had cried out Aeris had found her body enveloped in a soft green light as the disembodied voice whispered, "Cure."  Suddenly, the world came into focus and she looked toward the voice.  Tzeng stood outside the cage she had been deposited in.  His demeanor was harsh and his dark form contrasted sharply with the white walls behind him.  His eyes, however, were softened by pity as he looked at the young flower girl.   Quietly he cast cure again before kneeling down to her level.  For a moment he just looked at her and then began to speak in a hushed voice.  "Hojo is not here, it's alright for the moment.  I have to go, but I wanted to make sure you were alright."  He paused for a moment but did not wait for her to speak before continuing.  This time as he spoke he cast his eyes to the ground, "I am sorry, Aeris.  I wish…This is my job I have to do this but…  I am sorry."  When he finished he slid a candy bar into her cage like he had always done for her when she was a child in the lab.  As he stood he said quickly. "You should eat that, Hojo will probably forget to feed you."  Before she had a chance to reply he left the lab without looking back. 

Then she was alone.

Five hours later she had heard the scuffling of boots on the floor and Hojo's all too familiar laughter.  Before they entered the room Aeris threw herself back to the floor of the cage and pretended to be unconscious.  She heard the opening of a cage door and the dull thud of flesh hitting metal before the door slammed shut and the footsteps retreated.  About seven minutes after Hojo's cackling disappeared down the hallway she tentatively opened her eyes to see a broken, bloody Vincent in the adjacent cage.

"Vincent…Vincent!  Can you hear me?, " Aeris whispered as her brow knitted in concern. 

::Oh Planet is he dead?!::  Aeris shifted her gaze up and down his body trying to find some sign of life in the tattered mass of flesh that hours ago had been her gloomy friend.  Tears slowly spilled out of her eyes as she looked at Vincent. 

::What happened to him?!!!  There is blood everywhere. ::

She continued to stare, hoping that if she looked long enough she would see him move.  Finally, she caught the faint rise and fall of his chest and she knew he was still alive.  She called his name again but he made no response, so she pulled herself over to the corner of her cage closest to his and tried to touch him.  The cages were too far apart but as she watched his body slowly began to convulse in agony, she could not bear to just sit and do nothing.  So she did the only thing she could think of to calm him – sing.  When she was small and scared and alone in the lab, just the sound of Tzeng's voice speaking had the power to soothe her.  Or when she was sick and her, mother sang to her she felt safe.  There was something comforting about they rhythm of the voice of someone who cared for you – it never mattered what they said – it was just the reassurance that someone was there for you - and at the moment it was all she had to offer.     

***

The only sound Vincent could hear was the ragged rhythm of his own breathing.  Slowly, he opened his tired eyes as a feeling of weightlessness passed over him.  Darkness assailed his senses as he spun around desperately trying to orient himself in the oppressive blackness.  As he whirled around his cape spun wildly behind him in an esoteric flash of crimson, stirring up the stagnant air.  He breathed in, and suddenly noticed that the air around him was damp and musty with the slightest hint of decay.  Giving into his surroundings, Vincent allowed himself to feel at peace alone in that dark crypt like place.  For the briefest of moments he allowed himself to believe he was dead and had finally been rewarded with the peace he had so desperately sought in life. He allowed his eyes to slide shut for what he hoped would be the last time, but suddenly realized what was happening to him.  The dream was coming. Coming as it always did whenever he tried to sleep.  It always started in the darkness. He could no longer remember why – perhaps, he had once been afraid of the dark, he could not remember now – not that it mattered anyway. This place was the always the beginning, the threshold into the nightmare that was nothing more than his life.  Cringing on the inside, he tried to pull away yet, it seemed that the simple motion pulled him further into the dream.  Still refusing to open his eyes, he breathed in the subtle sent of lavender and felt the soft, cold touch of Lucrecia's hand against his cheek.  He inhaled deeply of the lavender perfumed air around him and leaned into the touch. Reluctantly, Vincent opened his eyes and saw Lucrecia  leaning over him.  Her lips moved, as though she where speaking, but no sound came from her mouth.  Vincent, however, did not need to hear the words; he already knew what she had said.  It never changed.  He opened his own mouth to speak to her, to warn her, to beg her, to plead with her, however, even though he could hear his own shattered words, she could not.  She rose, as always, and stepped off the plane following in Hojo's footsteps as the scientist headed toward the Nibelhelm mansion.  Slowly, at first, images of his past, his moments of regret - his sins – flashed before his eyes.  With growing intensity the visions came faster and faster layering themselves on top of each other so that at one instant Lucrecia, his angel, Hojo, his nightmare, and the Galian Beast, the manifestation of demon he had become, blended together in a mesh of color and emotion.  Clenching his head Vincent stumbled backward, screaming.  Refusing to be alone in the silence with his memories, Vincent continued to roar in anguish until his voice cracked and faded.

As his own voice melded with the silence a new sound emerged from the darkness.  Hesitantly, Vincent lifted his head. 

::This is wrong::  The dream was always the same and there was never any sound other than those he created for himself.  The repetitive noise was soft and out of place. As it weaved its way through Vincent's mind the images around him faded into a gray mist.  Again, Vincent closed his eyes, hoping that by robbing himself of sight he would be better able to focus on the sound.  As his eyes slid shut he realized that it was not a noise that had penetrated his nightmare, but a simple melody.  In the same way the images had only moments ago layered themselves upon one another rising into a crescendo of emotion, the notes of this foreign melody build upon one another to create song.  He could now tell it was a woman's voice, but he could not understand the words she spoke; the melody, nonetheless, continued to sooth him.  Vincent let himself be carried away by the notes.  Never, in his life could he remember being sung to, nor could he remember being so at peace – with himself.

With a moan Vincent cracked open his eyes and, as pain shot through every nerve in his body, he knew that he was no longer asleep.  Harsh, white light blinded him, however, as he waited for his eyes to adjust, he realized that he could still hear the soothing melody. As his eyes finally came into focus, Vincent realized that he was back in his cage, in the lab.  Instinctively, he looked toward where he had last seen Aeris.  She was pressed in the corner of her cage closest to him.  Her eyes where closed and her head swayed slightly as she sang softly to him.  Sensing his eyes on her, Aeris' eyes opened in a flash of emerald.

"Vincent?," she muttered shocked, "You've been asleep for so long I was beginning to worry that you weren't going to wake up."  She flashed him a faint, comforting smile and fixed her eyes on him, waiting for him to speak.

Noticing the look of concern in her eyes, Vincent parted his lips to try and reassure her, but he was too overcome by pain to form the words.  Instead, he recoiled in agony as his body convulsed.

Chewing on her lower lip, Aeris reached out her hand to him through the bars.  ::I can't just sit here and do nothing.::  For a moment, Aeris almost let herself break down and cry.  She had been in the lab many times, but she had never seen anyone tortured like this before.  As emotion welled up in the back of her mind, she felt herself edge closer to her limit.  Slowly she raised herself to her feet and lifted her arms.  Closing her eyes she whispered, "Healing Winds," and concentrated all of her energy on Vincent.   Sucking in a sharp breath Vincent found himself wrapped in an ethereal glow.  Dropping her arms, Aeris fell to her side exhausted.  She knew her limit break would not do much, but at least it should be able to ease her friend's pain.  Both of them lay on their sides panting for a moment before Aeris locked her green eyes with Vincent's red.  She held his gaze and smiled.  "You know Vincent, you're not alone.  Avalanche will be here as soon as they realize where we are and… until then… I'll be here for you." 

Despite the labor of  Vincent's shallow breathing, the corner of his mouth turned up in small smile.  Pulling herself back into a sitting position, Aeris smiled to herself as she recognized the small gesture was Vincent for "thank you."  As silence settled over the lab, Aeris pulled her knees to her chest and began to sing again.  Comforted by the sound of her voice Vincent allowed his eyes to slide shut once more and, for the first time in more years than he cared to remember, fell into a restful sleep.        

          

***Author's Notes***

Well, sorry that took so long to get to you all.  I had another little project I was working on – you have no IDEA how hard it is to make Edea's (from FF8) cape thing with cardboard and an exact-o knife (Was fun though, right Jovi ^_^)!  Mha ha ha. Heh… ya you read that right!  Just in case you where wondering we went the Final Fantasy Fan Appreciation Day in San Francisco and entered the costume contest for kicks!  Co-conspirator Kree went as Tifa and Jovi was Rinoa!  There were Squalls, two really great Seifers, Rinoas, an awesome Irvine, a Cid Highwind, a handful of Zells, a Fujin (!), a Locke, and just about everybody else you can imagine!  It was so cool!  But, anyway that's my excuse for taking so long; hope it was worth the wait!

Back to the point of this, as always please give me your feedback… I crave it (and thanks for reviewing me twice DarkMutatedBrock big smile I really appreciate that!!!)

Writing Hojo is so fun, he is one evil bastard!  And what did you think of the Tzeng thing?  "Gee Aeris, I'm sorry I turned you over to a crazy scientist, but here's a Snickers Bar… don't hate me, K?"  This is what happens when you write hungry!

And a special thanks to Meg and Kree for proof reading this thing! All hail Megs and the Muse!  Perhaps, I will be easier to understand that usual. Probably not but one can hope, right?