Hands clapped and I jumped to my feet. I stumbled, I'm so tired. A familiar laugh taunts me. "You told me to go, you didn't say I couldn't come back," he said, lying down on my bed.
"What the hell do you think you're doing?" I asked impatiently.
"Havin' a go at conversation. Want to take a peek?"
I smiled, What else am I gonna do? Patrol?
"What've you been doing this past month?" He asked.
"I don't know, you take a guess Dip-shit." I'm getting cocky.
"Dip-shit? Is that a new yank word to go along with the accent…Dumb-ass?" He replied.
"Shut-up woman."
"Oh, Ivory's words of wisdom."
"Bitch."
"Slut."
"Putz."
"Landlick."
"Fluffy."
"Fluffy?" He asked smiling.
"Landlick?" I asked him.
"Fluffy?" He said again. I charged at him, leaping onto my bed, and forcing him to flinch. As I moved around to make myself comfortable on his chest, I could feel him breathe deep. I know he feels the loneliness as I do. Only more for me because I saw him die, both times. But the comfort goes up and I feel safe and protected. I don't want this to end. I don't want Jon to grow up without a dad to look after her while I'm away. I want him back.
After a while this becomes an issue and has to end. He might get in the way of m duty. My innocent is being hunted, and although he may be the "tough leader of Brooklyn", he can't fight this. My comfort comes to a tragic finish when "The Powers" start ticking the clock in my brain. I should be with Spot, no here, in the arms of the dead. HE'S NOT DEAD YET, half of me argues, AND YOU'RE STILL HERE.
She had a good point, and the damn gods didn't like it. As soon as I decided to stay, they sent me a painful vision of me rotting in Hell: actual Hell. When they had calmed down, they promised that if I saved this innocent then they would save Desent.
What?! I sat up so fast that I bumped heads with Desent, who had been holding me down because of the vision, which sent him into a cussing fit. If I save Spot, I keep Dee. I ran this over in my head. That means all attention on Spot, no Dee till Spot's safe, Dee is Distraction, distraction bad. USE COMPLETE SENTENCES, YOU SOUND LIKE A BLITHERING IDIOT. Said the bad annoying half that always gets her way.
I pushed Desent away from me and got out of bed. From the door to my room I told him, " I can't be with you right now. There's too much to do, and I can't deal," I walked a little further and turned again to face him. He was sitting on my bed with a pathetic look on his face as he watched me go. "I love you." I said simply, and as I shut the front door behind me I heard him say, "I know."
I made my way to the lodging house around 11:30 p.m. They were still up (in their "Bed clothes") playing cards and talking loudly. Some boys were asleep in their bunks, though I don't know how. Jack was the first to notice me, "Hey! I told you dawn!" He yelled from across the room, causing everyone in the room to shut-up and pay attention. All eyes on me.