Disclaimer: I Don't own Evangelion (damnit!) ahem, It all belongs to GAINAX blah blah.... The song 'Crawling' is owned by Linkin' Park (You rule!) ahem, so enjoy!
'Just another lonely night in my life.' said Shinji gloomily while heading to his room, his days where all but exiting, Asuka had been constantly staying over a Hikari's and Misato had been working non-stop at NERV.
'They don't care for me, no one does. I'm alone, everyone has deserted me, I probably deserve it, my life... meaningless, everyone I ever loved... left me, hurt by me, no one understands me, my pain, my loneliness, if they understood things would be different, but they don't care... I'm alone...'
With this Shinji dropped to his bed and took his SDAT player in hand, put his earphones on and pressed PLAY.
'What the...!' exclaimed Shinji noticing it wasn't the usual tape that played but that he had accidentally turned it to the RADIO option and was now listening to a radio station unknown to him. He had half a mind to change back to the usual when the a song that he had never heard before started playing, it had a rather radical tune and clearly caught Shinji's attention who listened carefully to the lyrics...
Crawling in my skin
These wounds / they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real
There?s something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
Consuming / confusing
This lack of self control I fear is never ending
Controlling / I can?t seem
To find myself again
My walls are closing in
[Without a sense of confidence / I?m convinced
there's just too much pressure to take]
I?ve felt this way before
So insecure...
Discomfort, endlessly has pulled itself upon me
Distracting / reacting
Against my will I stand beside my own reflection
It?s haunting how I can?t seem
To find myself again
My walls are closing in
[Without a sense of confidence / I?m convinced
there's just too much pressure to take]
I?ve felt this way before
So insecure...
He instinctively turned the SDAT player off and let it fall out of his hand, his mouth opened and his eyes widened, then a single tear fell down his cheek, the moonlight shining through his window was the only thing that made it visible in his light-deprived room, and the thought struck him.
'Some one understands how I feel... that song...' The song kept replaying over and over in his mind, and then a slight smile appeared on his face. 'There still hope...' where the last words he said before falling asleep. A serene smile could be seen on his face as he slumbered peacefully for it had been a long time since he had felt so relieved, he was happy...
'There is still hope...'
Author's comments: Well there it is, my 2nd songfic, I hoped you liked it, I was trying to improve some of the problems peeps found with my 1st one and I must explain that the reason I use these songs is because I think they very well explain how the character thinks. I'll appreciate all reviews.
'Just another lonely night in my life.' said Shinji gloomily while heading to his room, his days where all but exiting, Asuka had been constantly staying over a Hikari's and Misato had been working non-stop at NERV.
'They don't care for me, no one does. I'm alone, everyone has deserted me, I probably deserve it, my life... meaningless, everyone I ever loved... left me, hurt by me, no one understands me, my pain, my loneliness, if they understood things would be different, but they don't care... I'm alone...'
With this Shinji dropped to his bed and took his SDAT player in hand, put his earphones on and pressed PLAY.
'What the...!' exclaimed Shinji noticing it wasn't the usual tape that played but that he had accidentally turned it to the RADIO option and was now listening to a radio station unknown to him. He had half a mind to change back to the usual when the a song that he had never heard before started playing, it had a rather radical tune and clearly caught Shinji's attention who listened carefully to the lyrics...
Crawling in my skin
These wounds / they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real
There?s something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
Consuming / confusing
This lack of self control I fear is never ending
Controlling / I can?t seem
To find myself again
My walls are closing in
[Without a sense of confidence / I?m convinced
there's just too much pressure to take]
I?ve felt this way before
So insecure...
Discomfort, endlessly has pulled itself upon me
Distracting / reacting
Against my will I stand beside my own reflection
It?s haunting how I can?t seem
To find myself again
My walls are closing in
[Without a sense of confidence / I?m convinced
there's just too much pressure to take]
I?ve felt this way before
So insecure...
He instinctively turned the SDAT player off and let it fall out of his hand, his mouth opened and his eyes widened, then a single tear fell down his cheek, the moonlight shining through his window was the only thing that made it visible in his light-deprived room, and the thought struck him.
'Some one understands how I feel... that song...' The song kept replaying over and over in his mind, and then a slight smile appeared on his face. 'There still hope...' where the last words he said before falling asleep. A serene smile could be seen on his face as he slumbered peacefully for it had been a long time since he had felt so relieved, he was happy...
'There is still hope...'
Author's comments: Well there it is, my 2nd songfic, I hoped you liked it, I was trying to improve some of the problems peeps found with my 1st one and I must explain that the reason I use these songs is because I think they very well explain how the character thinks. I'll appreciate all reviews.