Disclaimer: I do not own Outlaw Star.
This is kind of a depressing story and if you don't like seeing Aisha in pain do not read this.
One week. For one week he has been dead. I have lost myself. In the beginning I cried for four days straight. Then I drank. Yesterday and the day before that. Today there is nothing. I wish I had a hangover so I could feel. But I feel nothing. So much pain. I curse my exsistance. Why do Ctal-Ctal have to be immortal? I want to be with him.
I have felt this way before. When I was younger. My father was a cruel man he never noticed me. I learned the hard way I had to be number one or my father wouldn't give a shit about you. My mother on the other hand noticed every flaw. Aisha your hair is a mess today put something else on you look like a whore she would say and I would obey taking her comments as if they didn't fase me a bit. I cried a lot. Never in front of my parents. Always at night, in the dark.
I trained to be a great warrior so my father would notice me and my mother would have nothing to say. I tried. I graduated at the top of my class. My father never congradulated me. My mother said I looked fat in my graduation outfit. After that I stopped coming home. And there was emptyness. I never felt. I used logic for along time.
I followed Gene Starwind when he got me in trouble I followed him across the galaxy hunting my goal. The galatic layline. I wanted my end. My wish would be for death. Then I started to feel again and I allowed Gene to gain the prize.
I came with them to Earth. I felt alone again. I was the only one of my kind on that planet. I left Gene and the others for space but I returned ten years later to see them again. I found some changes but none as drastic as the man at the door. The man who I married. The man who I loved. The man whose death has just passed.
He was human, but I loved him anyway. I mourn his death with the children we created together.
I'm walking now. Walking to the cemetary where his body lays. Such a long walk but I don't care. I can see his new grave. I can see his name.
The wind blows around me as I say outloud and I can feel hot tears once again pouring down my face. "I'll love you forever and you will never be replaced in my heart."
I leave that gray place, but I look back first and I can still see the red roses I placed on his grave. Right next to his name...James Hawkings.
Ohhh well I always liked the idea of Aisha and Jim as a couple I don't know why. Well I hope you liked it. :-D
This is kind of a depressing story and if you don't like seeing Aisha in pain do not read this.
One week. For one week he has been dead. I have lost myself. In the beginning I cried for four days straight. Then I drank. Yesterday and the day before that. Today there is nothing. I wish I had a hangover so I could feel. But I feel nothing. So much pain. I curse my exsistance. Why do Ctal-Ctal have to be immortal? I want to be with him.
I have felt this way before. When I was younger. My father was a cruel man he never noticed me. I learned the hard way I had to be number one or my father wouldn't give a shit about you. My mother on the other hand noticed every flaw. Aisha your hair is a mess today put something else on you look like a whore she would say and I would obey taking her comments as if they didn't fase me a bit. I cried a lot. Never in front of my parents. Always at night, in the dark.
I trained to be a great warrior so my father would notice me and my mother would have nothing to say. I tried. I graduated at the top of my class. My father never congradulated me. My mother said I looked fat in my graduation outfit. After that I stopped coming home. And there was emptyness. I never felt. I used logic for along time.
I followed Gene Starwind when he got me in trouble I followed him across the galaxy hunting my goal. The galatic layline. I wanted my end. My wish would be for death. Then I started to feel again and I allowed Gene to gain the prize.
I came with them to Earth. I felt alone again. I was the only one of my kind on that planet. I left Gene and the others for space but I returned ten years later to see them again. I found some changes but none as drastic as the man at the door. The man who I married. The man who I loved. The man whose death has just passed.
He was human, but I loved him anyway. I mourn his death with the children we created together.
I'm walking now. Walking to the cemetary where his body lays. Such a long walk but I don't care. I can see his new grave. I can see his name.
The wind blows around me as I say outloud and I can feel hot tears once again pouring down my face. "I'll love you forever and you will never be replaced in my heart."
I leave that gray place, but I look back first and I can still see the red roses I placed on his grave. Right next to his name...James Hawkings.
Ohhh well I always liked the idea of Aisha and Jim as a couple I don't know why. Well I hope you liked it. :-D