Authors note…Been on holiday. I know I have a back log of three to do, just bare with me, I'll get them up eventually.
Whayhay! It's Izzy's turn again. I like writing for Izzy. He amuses me and makes my heart go squooshey at the same time. *Sigh* That's what happens when you're a rabid Izzy fangirl. But I thought of this after seeing his expression at the end of the episode. You could just hear his brain ticking over going Oh shit oh shit oh shit… but I know that Izzy doesn't really swear so maybe he was thinking something similar. Plus he didn't seem all that worried about Ken being the Emperor all of which inspired me to write this. As always, I love feedback. Tell me if I screwed up a character, then I'll try to fix it.
The Monster
Oh my God.
It's all my fault.
Tentomon, what have I done to you? I've unleashed this monster on you. And it's all my fault.
I could've stopped him. I could've out thought him. I could've done something.
But I didn't. And now Ken will try to wipe you out.
I can't stop him as the others barely listen to me. They didn't call when they were in trouble, they never ask for help. They think I'm useless. I had to force my way in, nearly begging them to let me help.
They don't see that I can understand Ken. But I do.
I'm as smart as Ken.
I'm not saying this in the same way that Davis says he's as good as Ken at soccer. That I.Q. number in the paper has significance to me as well.
I never told the others. After all they'd either start to get twitchy over it or think I was infallible. I'm not. I make just as many mistakes as they do.
And it's even scarier to realise that I'm looking into a mirror. There but for the grace of God… They don't know. Hell, I wish I didn't know. But it's the truth. I could be just as evil as Ken given the right motivation. I could have been a terror to the Digital World. I could have been a god to them. But I wasn't. I had friends who needed me, kept me grounded. But Ken doesn't.
I know what the isolation can drive you to.
They wouldn't understand. How you can be alone when surrounded by friends. How you feel isolated because your brain is working through things faster than everyone else is. How they seem so slow in comparison. It's like the entire world is running through viscous taffy, but you're running in the clear.
I had my computer. Ken had the entire Digiworld.
Did you know how easy it is to stop thinking of others as your equals? I've caught myself doing it once or twice. That feeling of superiority is like a drug. You are all-powerful, they are insects. You can do anything, they nothing.
No wonder he's screwed up, just look at his parents. How can he stand knowing that not even at home he has someone at his level? He's completely alone.
And possibly insane, but that's besides the point.
He's gone darkside. God help us all. There is nothing more dangerous than someone who considers all other life expendable. We're just pieces of a puzzle to him.
He scares me. That sort of calm, computer-like thinking is efficient, but unforgiving. We're nothing but problems to him, same as he used to be nothing but an enemy.
Now we know who he is, we have the disadvantage. He still sees us as he saw us before. Insects. But we see him as one of us with thoughts and feelings. And we won't be going all out to stop him, like he is for us. We won't kill him. He would crush us in an instant given the chance.
Maybe I should talk to T.K. and Kari about all of this. Somehow I think that they would listen to me more readily that Davis. We need to out think him, outmanoeuvre him. And that wont happen if Davis is calling the shots.
We need to attack him psychologically. Get him to make him a mistake. Find out what makes him tick then mess it up.
Find out who he is copying.
He doesn't strike me as the kind of person who would wear a costume for the fun of it so there must be a reason. Davis told me that he took off his glasses to speak his name. Does that mean that he hides behind the glasses, or that he considers the Emperor to be a separate person to Ken Ichijouji? Why go to all the trouble of different clothes and hair? It's not like any of the digimon that were around before we came could identify him, so why do it?
I think it's time I did some hacking into government files again. I may not like breaking into them, but they're most likely to have the information that I need to stop him.
Correction, to help Davis and the others stop him.
Watching isn't enough anymore. I've got to get out there and help. Those are my friends who are being hurt in the Digiworld too.
Tentomon, I promise you, if he hurts you then I will stop him myself.
Even if I have to go darkside myself to do it.