Izzy's Diary_1

My first Izzy fic....I just read the reviews of my story 'Joe's Diary', and there someone said that I should make a serie of it...Diary's of each Digidestined. Okay, I thought, and started to write about Izzy. Somehow it turned into a love-story....I DON'T KNOW WHY! I wanted to make it similar to Joe's Diary, but well...*coughs* I never know where my stories will end...
So please don't be too strict, and when you see grammatical or spelling mistakes remember that I am German and usually spend my time in English lessons with writing, drawing and sleeping*sweatdrop*
Anyway, I hope you like this!






Izzy's Diary

by Kaeera


First Entry:

Now I am sitting here, in front of my computer, typing down all the things which bother me. Kind of a Diary or so. It's just that I feel so confused during the last weeks, and I really can't see a reason. That's strange, genius Izzy normally knows everything, not?
But even geniuses can fail.

Long time ago I was happy when I had my computer. That was enough; only my computer and I, solving tough problems. But now that doesn't satisfy me anymore.
I've experienced what it means to have real friends.
I've experienced what it means to have someone you can rely on, someone who isn't a machine. Someone who has feelings.
Life has been much more....bigger for me since I've been in the Digital World. There are so many things which I didn't notice before.
I never noticed, for example, how nice flowers can be. I used to watch them with a 'Okay-that's-a-flower-well?-expression. But no flower is only a flower! Every single one is individual, has it's own style, it's own color. Things which are produced by machines are always similar. Things which are produced by the nature are unique!
But why do I write down this?
How I said, I am confused.
Confused about the world and especially about me.
Because...well...
I don't care about my computer anymore!
Really!

Okay, I write my diary on my computer, but that's only because I can write faster with a keyboard than with a pencil. And the clicking of the keys makes me calmer.
The last time I didn't spend any time with my computer. It bores me.
I prefer the sunshine and the nature.
But that's so untypical for me! C'mon, imagine an Izzy who enjoys the nature? That's not me! I have the feeling as if I would be someone totally different.
As if the Izzy everybody used to know disappeared without a track.

And why?

Well...I met this girl.

No, don't laugh. I know what you think – you think that I have fallen in love, isn't it so?
But I'm not. I don't feel like it. I mean, everybody describes it like 'the sweetest feeling ever' or so. I didn't feel anything like that. I am just confused.

Very confused.

But I should tell you more facts about this.

I was in the shopping center – wanted to buy some new things for my computer.
There I met her. She was in front of me, searching for some software – I don't know what exactly. She's a little bit taller than me(that's not very difficult), with a black ponytail and green eyes, and is about the same age as me.
She looks kinda cute, I think. But her character isn't cute, oh no, it's the total opposite.
She's nasty, arrogant and....I can't find words which are hard enough!
I hate her, and she hates me!
Where did I stop....ah yes, well, she stand there and watched me. Then she came over, stroke over my head(!) and said grinning: "What a sweet little computer whizz!"
I first didn't know what to say. Nobody called me sweet, without my mum.
This girl, she noticed my speechlessness and laughed. She laughed about me! I can't stand this!

"Hey, what's so funny?", I demanded angrily, but she continued laughing.
That was the point when I decided that it would be better to leave this crazy person.

Well, it wasn't so bad, this first meeting. Yeah, first!
Because I met her many other times after this. I think destiny wants to make me angry.
And everytime we meet, she makes jokes about my haircut and my haircolor. I make jokes about her laughing(sounds like cow who is sneezing) and other things. We always end in yelling towards each other. I usually never yell, it's a waste of energy, but I am always so MAD of her! I wish I wouldn't see her all the time. Especially not when my friends are around me – they start making jokes now, too: "Izzy, you have a girlfriend? tell us about it..." and so on. I swear, when I hear one more stupid joke of Tai I will smash him my computer against his stupid head!

Now you'll sure ask yourself what that has to do with the fact that I'm confused.
The truth is....

I DON'T KNOW IT EITHER!

Since I met this incredible horrible person, I feel confused. I hate her!
She always wins against me....Oups, I forgot to tell this fact, didn't I?
That will be a long diary entry....
Anyway, she is VERY good at computers. And she likes it to hunt me when I'm in the Internet. She hacks into my computer and mixes things around. Nothing really bad, but it's annoying. And it hurts my proud that such a terrible girl is better than me!
Of course, I am not that bad at all, I managed it to put a lil'virus on her computer(I know, that's nasty, but I wanted revenge), she was very angry about that(and that satisfied me somehow). But she's still a little bit better than me, and shows that very often and to everybody!

This are the reasons why I feel confused.
I wish that this whole war will be over, soon, but sometimes I catch myself in thinking that that's funny....and that U wouldn't mind if it would last forever.
And my computer has become so unimportant! I only use it when I start a revenge Action against Latrisha. Latrisha, that's the nickname she uses in the Internet. How hard I tried it, I couldn't find her real name.
What's Latrisha for a name, anyway? It sounds weird.

Now I told it all. I expected that I would see clearer after writing down all the things, but nope! I am as confused as before, maybe even more.
I already tried to talk with my friends about it. Not with Tai, he would have made fun about me. But nobody could help me.

First I talked with Joe. He just scratched his head and said: "Well, Izzy, I have no idea. I'm not the right one to discuss about girl problems. Maybe you should ask Matt."

Okay, I thought, and visited Matt the next day. But he didn't help either – he just patted on my shoulders and said, half serious and half laughing: "Izzy, even when you don't wanna realise it, you are in love with this girl. Congratulations!"
"I don't love her!", I protested immediately: "She is nerving me! We are always fighting! I can't stand her!!"
"Well, love isn't logical, Izzy.", he replied in a wise tone.
"And you think you are a love expert, only because hundred of girls run after you, huh?", I stated angrily. He just laughed, which made me really mad. He didn't take me serious!
Normally everybody takes me serious, and believe what I say. Why not this time?
I'M NOT IN LOVE WITH HER!

Nope. Never! And when we would be the two last human beings on earth, I wouldn't love her!
People say that Diary's help you. But it didn't help me! Hey, I wrote about two hourss, and I feel still....CONFUSED!

Why did she had to appear? My life is a chaos, only because of her.
Yesterday I walked in the kitchen and said to my mother that the flowers are very beautiful this spring(how did I get the idea to say this? I am not interested in flowers – they have nothing to do with computers!). My mother watched me with a surprised expression, then she smiled and answered that she would be really happy if I could introduce her my girl-friend.

GIRL-FRIEND!

I have not the time to think of a girl-friend. I don't want to have a girl-friend! Are they all crazy? Having Latrisha as a girl-friend would be equal to jump in the open mouth of a hungry lion.

I'm not in love with her. And I hope that you, my electronical diary, will believe me that, when the others don't. Hey, if I am in love I would be the first one to notice, not?

After all I'm the genius, not?

End of first Entry




It seems that there will one more chapter...or mabye more. Hey, I wanted to write a one-shot! I really wanted! But then I liked my idea....seems that the other parts of my Diary serie will have to wait a little...*sighs*
You can always give me suggestions about the next part....maybe some of you know a good name for 'Latrisha'? I have one in my head, but I wanna hear what you like!
And you can always email me under dragonbeing@hotmail.com !

Please review and let me know what you think about this!

Thanks a lot for reading!

:) Kaeera