Izzy's Diary_4

This is the shortest part of this fic. Then only one more part(I promise, this will be long then!) and all the problems are solved...maybe...
But I won't hurry much with it...I mean, nobody seems to be interested in this story and reviews, so I take my time to write this....




Izzy's Diary

by Kaeera





Fourth Entry

I can't write much today.
Didn't hear of Trisha the last weeks.
No sign of her. Everybody keeps asking me where my girlfriend is.
Despite that she isn't my girlfriend, I have no idea.
It's just not her – to disappear without a word.
And she didn't even start her last revenge action. She just....disappeared.
No, I'm not worried, I am happy about that.

Maybe she is ill?

Geez, why do I think about that, I should be happy that this horrible person is away now.

But what if she's really sick?

And again, I find myself in front of my screen, very very confused.
I can't get her out of my head. Why not?

Perhaps because I......like her?

No. Never.

Really?

I miss her...somehow. I miss the fights – it was the 'pepper' in my usual boring life.

I wanna know what happened to her!

Damn, I'm Izzy, the genius, I will find it out and when it needs days!
Her computer can be as safe as the Pentagon, I will break the walls!
It's a question of honour!

I have to do that. That's the only way to get my confusion away!

*

It's the last unicorn....

What does that mean? I can't see any deeper sense behind it. Unicorns are like white horses, and they only exist in stories. Like dragons.
So what does Trisha mean when she says "It shows many things....things you might be afraid to express them in words..."

What things?

It's a sad song.
And it's about loneliness. Well, I think. The unicorn is the last, so it'll be lonely, for sure!

Things you are afraid to express in words...

Why afraid? Because it hurts?

Because it makes you hurtful?

Maybe....when you tell something about yourself, it's always dangerous – so many people make fun of you.
I know this feeling very well. All the kids in my childhood made fun of me, so I worked with my computer. It was my only friend, and he never lied or betrayed me.
But it wasn't a friend, either.

Then I became a digidestined and learned how wonderful friendship can be – when you are willing to take the risks and the sorrow, too.

Is Trisha lonely?

Or is it something different?

If it wouldn't be so difficult to delve into her head...

When she's lonely, so why does she act like a jerk towards me?

Was she...frightened?

Was she afraid of showing something??

I don't know....

*

I really must find her!

I thought about this whole problem and the only solution is to TALK with her.

Talking that doesn't mean yelling and screaming. I wanna talk seriously, and I will ask her all the things which are confusing me.

If I only could find her....

Now I am really worried!



End of Fourth Entry



Oh yay! That's what we call short! I AM SO NASTY! BUAHAHAHAHA! *evil laughter*