Disclaimer:
I don't own any of the characters or the song. These belong to the wonderful
J.K Rowling and the band Linkin Park. Please don't sue. I was bored so I wrote
this.
(A/N
This is a song fic I wrote to Linkin Parks' One Step Closer. It's about Sirius
in Azkaban. Hope you like it. Please read and review.)
I cannot take this any more
Sirius
sat back in his cell. It was all getting a bit too much. Going over and over
that night in his head.
I'm saying everything I said
before
"I'm
innocent, I'm innocent, I'm innocent, I'm innocent," he muttered. "I made a
mistake, but I didn't kill those muggles. It wasn't me. I'm innocent, I'm
innocent, I'm innocent."
All these words they make no
sense
He
could hear the other prisoners yelling. Accusing. Muttering things like:
"Forgive me lord. It wasn't me master." They were all crazy. They were all
guilty. Sirius knew they were.
I find bliss in ignorance
He
didn't wan to know how his old friends felt about him. "Remus," he whispered.
"I'm sorry, but it wasn't me. It wasn't me..."
Less I hear the less you say
He
couldn't stand the fact that nobody could hear him. Nobody to talk to. Nothing.
It was like he was dead. Sometimes he wished he was.
But you'll find that out
anyway
He
knew that they all thought he was guilty. They didn't want to hear him say he
was innocent. They just wanted him to go away.
Just like before
Like
the day before. And the day before that. Nobody but James and Lily knew he was
innocent. And they were dead. Nothing could make them come back. Nothing.
Everything you say to me
sends me one step closer to
the edge,
I'm about to break
He
was going insane in this place. 'Not even my powers can help me,' He thought.
Sure I can't feel this pain as bad when I'm a dog. But I can't stay a dog
forever can I? I have to change back sometimes. And then it all comes back. It
all come rushing back in.'
I need a little room to
breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to
the edge
I'm about to break
'This
damn cell is too small.' I can't breathe I here. I want some air.'
"One
BLOODY breath of FRESH AIR for GOD'S SAKE." He yelled.
I find the answers aren't so
clear
They
had asked so many questions and it was so hard for him to not jump up and yell
"I'm INNOCENT." They wouldn't have believed him anyway. They never did. And he
never even had a trial.
Wish I could find a way to
disappear
He
just wanted it all to go away. Just wanted one minute, one damn measly minute
when he didn't have to sit in this cell and breathe this dirty air.
All these thoughts they make
no sense
He
had so many thoughts whirling around in his head. He could hardly make out one
memory from another. He wished he had a pensieve. Oh how he wanted a pensieve.
Just to take some of these thoughts and put them into a gray stone bowl full of
memories.
I find bliss in ignorance
He
wished he'd never persuaded James and Lily to change their minds about him but
he was glad he didn't have to face Harry. At least he didn't have to know what
that poor boy must think of him.
Nothing seems to go away
It
never did go away. It was always there. Always in his head. He was innocent,
but that didn't mean he wasn't sorry. He'd never stop being sorry.
Over and over again
"Over
and over and over," he said to the wall opposite him. "I hate this place and I
damn well sure it hates me, but I still sit here and I tell it I'm innocent. I
tell it over and over again." He laughed. "I wish it believed me. I wish they believed me."
Everything you say to me
sends me one step closer to
the edge
and I'm about to break
"I
CAN'T TAKE THIS!" He yelled, and promptly changed into a dog. 'HA! TAKE THAT!'
He thought at the Dementors. 'They can't take me. They'll never take me.'
I need a little room to
breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to
the edge
And I'm about to break
'They
might try but they'll never win. Because I'm innocent. I'm innocent. I'M
INNOCENT.' That was the thought that ran through his head. He kept thinking it,
over and over again.
Shut up when I'm talking to
you
"Quiet
Sirius," he said, changing back into his human form. "There's only two things
you need to concentrate on. 1. I AM INNOCENT. 2. He's at Hogwarts....."
(A/N
By the way, you're not allowed to flame me saying that I got the words to the
song wrong cos I went on the official Linkin Park website and I got the words.
So they're not wrong!)
