A/N: This chapter is pretty much unchanged.
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When it was over, he lay next to me, satisfied. I was satisfied, but only physically. He smiled at me. Don't smile at me, damn it. Don't smile at the monster beside you. How could I do such a thing and send you to your death? I betrayed you. I betray everything I hold dear. I close my eyes as I pull him in for a kiss. When I close my eyes, I can't see him smile. Then it doesn't matter, does it? It doesn't matter that I ruined him, made him want a twisted soul like me so that he begged for me to take him. You should weep, love, not smile. Weep for the purity I've tainted. But you smile still. I can feel it against my lips. What can I do to wipe that smile off you face? I bit his lip. He moaned, pressing his body against mine. God, you want even this. Your hands are on my hips, pulling me closer. I took everything you had to give. Later I'll take your life and you want me still. No. You don't want me. You want the feeling I can give you. Exquisite pleasure bordering on pain. You want it so badly. I can feel your hands tremble as you shift your weight so that I'm on top of you.
He lands butterfly kisses on my neck and rests his head on my shoulder. "Fill me," he whispered. "Please." Don't speak. It hurts me to hear you speak in something other than hatred. It hurts because I know you mean them and it means that I've corrupted more than just your body. "Please," he says again, tears in his eyes. Tears of shame, of weakness, of anger at himself. I kissed them away. I couldn't bring myself to laugh. Mine. I knew it, he knew it, and it brought joy to neither of us. I wrapped him in my arms and entered him slowly. I'm much more gentle with him this time. I don't need the brutal pleasure to keep his focus on me. Mine. What have I done?
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Oh dear, here comes the next part. Is Lucius going to turn Harry in? Will his conscious finally revolt? What will Lord V do to Harry? Questions that need answers, m'dears. What do you hope/think?
Thanks to tweety, Becks, Lindsay Beth, Juniper, Von, medivalmaiden, nekokijo, Raggona (I have no idea. The unconventional just love me.), SolidSnake Jahazi, Flamer, Tom Riddilpley.
For you poor dears who don't know whether to shudder or smile- I'm not sure either.
Luv ya-
J. Silver
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When it was over, he lay next to me, satisfied. I was satisfied, but only physically. He smiled at me. Don't smile at me, damn it. Don't smile at the monster beside you. How could I do such a thing and send you to your death? I betrayed you. I betray everything I hold dear. I close my eyes as I pull him in for a kiss. When I close my eyes, I can't see him smile. Then it doesn't matter, does it? It doesn't matter that I ruined him, made him want a twisted soul like me so that he begged for me to take him. You should weep, love, not smile. Weep for the purity I've tainted. But you smile still. I can feel it against my lips. What can I do to wipe that smile off you face? I bit his lip. He moaned, pressing his body against mine. God, you want even this. Your hands are on my hips, pulling me closer. I took everything you had to give. Later I'll take your life and you want me still. No. You don't want me. You want the feeling I can give you. Exquisite pleasure bordering on pain. You want it so badly. I can feel your hands tremble as you shift your weight so that I'm on top of you.
He lands butterfly kisses on my neck and rests his head on my shoulder. "Fill me," he whispered. "Please." Don't speak. It hurts me to hear you speak in something other than hatred. It hurts because I know you mean them and it means that I've corrupted more than just your body. "Please," he says again, tears in his eyes. Tears of shame, of weakness, of anger at himself. I kissed them away. I couldn't bring myself to laugh. Mine. I knew it, he knew it, and it brought joy to neither of us. I wrapped him in my arms and entered him slowly. I'm much more gentle with him this time. I don't need the brutal pleasure to keep his focus on me. Mine. What have I done?
***
Oh dear, here comes the next part. Is Lucius going to turn Harry in? Will his conscious finally revolt? What will Lord V do to Harry? Questions that need answers, m'dears. What do you hope/think?
Thanks to tweety, Becks, Lindsay Beth, Juniper, Von, medivalmaiden, nekokijo, Raggona (I have no idea. The unconventional just love me.), SolidSnake Jahazi, Flamer, Tom Riddilpley.
For you poor dears who don't know whether to shudder or smile- I'm not sure either.
Luv ya-
J. Silver