^ I stared down at the floor, but I could feel his eyes burning into me.^
-Ignorant-
~Fujin
Squall had come by the cafe'. He asked me to get off shift and go talk to him. I did, of course. We talked about things... but I never once mentioned Seifer. He kissed me... I was surprised, then he asked me to meet him here again, when I got off of work the next night. Seifer got mad at me. He doesn't care. He just hates Squall... I'm hurting now... Seifer hates me... he really does...
"...Fujin." I look up from my booth, where I sip coffee, during my ten-minute break. Its Seifer.
"YES?" He sits. I get nervous, but I don't show it.
"...I wanted to... apologize."
"WORK?" I ask, wondering why he isn't in work.
"...I didn't go." But you always work...
"EXPLAIN."
"...I couldn't." Why?
"WHY?"
"I needed to apologize to you..." What? You skipped work just to apologize...?
"WHAT FOR?"
"How I acted... this morning, and last night." Wow.
"FORGIVEN." I say blankly.
"No... really, you have the right to do whatever... with Squall." Oh... so it doesn't bother you... I just nod.
"B-BREAK. OVER."
"...Fuu." I stood up and walked back into the kitchen. It was so hard to do, yet had to be done. I'm not gonna hurt for you anymore...
At 11pm, I ended my shift, and was trying to decide whether to go home and see Seifer, or to go to the docks to see Squall, but, Squall came to walk me to the docks. I wouldn't stay as long tonight. We talked for awhile.
"Can you just talk normal, Fujin?" He asked. No... I only talk normal to... Seifer, on occasion... I still love Seifer... I can't help that.
"NO. TOO MUCH STRAIN." I lied.
"Oh, sorry."
"RINOA. YOU. BREAK UP?" I ask, working to change the subject.
"Er, yeah, we did."
"SORRY."
"N-no, its okay." ... "So, what about you and Seifer?"
"WHAT ABOUT?"
"You still in contact with him?"
"Y-YES."
"He live close to here?" Why do you care?
"WITH ME. AND RAIJIN."
"...I see."
"BETTER GO. BYE." I stand up and walk away from him.
"I'll come to your house tommarow." NO!
"N-NO!" I say, turning around. But he's gone... dammit. Seifer nor I work tommarow. Raijin does though... Damn! Its around midnight when I get home. I walk into the living room. Empty. Raijin must already be in bed. Seifer is in the kitchen, I notice when I walk in. He looks up. He has a look on his face I've never seen before... Hurt?
"H-hi." I mutter.
"Hey, Fuu..." He goes back to staring down into his mug.
"What are you doing up?" I ask.
"I dunno. Couldn't sleep."
"Oh..." I sit across from him.
"Raijin brought home a cat..." He says.
"From where?"
"I dunno. I'm gonna get ridda it tommarow."
"Okay..."
"You see Squall again?" He asks finally.
"...Yes." I answer, wanting to disapear, but not able to lie to him.
"...I see..."
"I'm sorry." Why did I apologize? Its not like I did anything wrong...
"You didn't do anything..."
"... You should go get some sleep." I suggest.
"Nah, I'll be home all day tommarow..." Squall... dammit!
"...Alright." I stared down at the floor, but I could feel his eyes burning into me. Seifer, stop it. Please?
"I'm... I'm gonna go sleep." I say, finally.
"Good night, Fujin." He says. Something's wrong... Something has got to be wrong. I stand up and walk over to him. I crouch, so I am at eye level.
"Seifer... what's wrong?" I ask.
"Nothing."
"Tell me... please?"
"I'm just tired, Fuu..."
"...Mmkay... Good night... Seifer." I walk into my bedroom... and... sleep.
The next morning I wake up. I'm in shock, since I slept. Raijin has already left for work. I can hear something from the living room.
"God damned son of a bitch! Get the fuck out of my house!" At first, I must admit, I thought he was talking to me... I was scared. But then I thought maybe Squall had come. But I was wrong on both accounts. He was talking to Raijin's cat, which scampered out the front door as soon as I emerged from my room.
"S-Seifer?"
"Fucking cat shit on the sofa."
"I'll clean it..." I say.
"No. We have to send it out. Its coming from Raijin's paycheck! I'm not payin' for it!"
"Alright... I'll um, call that place... in Dollet. They are the closest."
"...Fine."
~~~
About fifteen minutes after the men came and picked up the sofa, Seifer went to bed, saying he was tired. And Squall arrived shortly after.
"GREETINGS." I say.
"Thanks..." He kissed me on the cheek... Why? Well, whatever, it felt good... to be cared about.
"OFFER PLACE TO SIT. BUT, SOFA SENT. CLEANED."
"I see... So, is anyone else home...?"
"SEIFER."
"Where is he?"
"SLEEPING." I could have sworn I seen a look of disapointment. Then his pager went off.
"I gotta go. Bye." He left. That was quick... I shrugged and sat on the window seat. It had stopped raining, which was just too bad.
Seifer came out.
"Why'd you invite him here?" He asked.
"I didn't. He came on his own."
"...Sure. Why was he looking for me?" Didn't sleep... did you?
"... I don't know."
"... Fujin don't trust him." What?
"Who do you want me to trust then?! I just want to be able to trust someone! Not you. I can't trust you." I walked into my room, knowing that he would not understand what I had last said.
-Ignorant-
~Fujin
Squall had come by the cafe'. He asked me to get off shift and go talk to him. I did, of course. We talked about things... but I never once mentioned Seifer. He kissed me... I was surprised, then he asked me to meet him here again, when I got off of work the next night. Seifer got mad at me. He doesn't care. He just hates Squall... I'm hurting now... Seifer hates me... he really does...
"...Fujin." I look up from my booth, where I sip coffee, during my ten-minute break. Its Seifer.
"YES?" He sits. I get nervous, but I don't show it.
"...I wanted to... apologize."
"WORK?" I ask, wondering why he isn't in work.
"...I didn't go." But you always work...
"EXPLAIN."
"...I couldn't." Why?
"WHY?"
"I needed to apologize to you..." What? You skipped work just to apologize...?
"WHAT FOR?"
"How I acted... this morning, and last night." Wow.
"FORGIVEN." I say blankly.
"No... really, you have the right to do whatever... with Squall." Oh... so it doesn't bother you... I just nod.
"B-BREAK. OVER."
"...Fuu." I stood up and walked back into the kitchen. It was so hard to do, yet had to be done. I'm not gonna hurt for you anymore...
At 11pm, I ended my shift, and was trying to decide whether to go home and see Seifer, or to go to the docks to see Squall, but, Squall came to walk me to the docks. I wouldn't stay as long tonight. We talked for awhile.
"Can you just talk normal, Fujin?" He asked. No... I only talk normal to... Seifer, on occasion... I still love Seifer... I can't help that.
"NO. TOO MUCH STRAIN." I lied.
"Oh, sorry."
"RINOA. YOU. BREAK UP?" I ask, working to change the subject.
"Er, yeah, we did."
"SORRY."
"N-no, its okay." ... "So, what about you and Seifer?"
"WHAT ABOUT?"
"You still in contact with him?"
"Y-YES."
"He live close to here?" Why do you care?
"WITH ME. AND RAIJIN."
"...I see."
"BETTER GO. BYE." I stand up and walk away from him.
"I'll come to your house tommarow." NO!
"N-NO!" I say, turning around. But he's gone... dammit. Seifer nor I work tommarow. Raijin does though... Damn! Its around midnight when I get home. I walk into the living room. Empty. Raijin must already be in bed. Seifer is in the kitchen, I notice when I walk in. He looks up. He has a look on his face I've never seen before... Hurt?
"H-hi." I mutter.
"Hey, Fuu..." He goes back to staring down into his mug.
"What are you doing up?" I ask.
"I dunno. Couldn't sleep."
"Oh..." I sit across from him.
"Raijin brought home a cat..." He says.
"From where?"
"I dunno. I'm gonna get ridda it tommarow."
"Okay..."
"You see Squall again?" He asks finally.
"...Yes." I answer, wanting to disapear, but not able to lie to him.
"...I see..."
"I'm sorry." Why did I apologize? Its not like I did anything wrong...
"You didn't do anything..."
"... You should go get some sleep." I suggest.
"Nah, I'll be home all day tommarow..." Squall... dammit!
"...Alright." I stared down at the floor, but I could feel his eyes burning into me. Seifer, stop it. Please?
"I'm... I'm gonna go sleep." I say, finally.
"Good night, Fujin." He says. Something's wrong... Something has got to be wrong. I stand up and walk over to him. I crouch, so I am at eye level.
"Seifer... what's wrong?" I ask.
"Nothing."
"Tell me... please?"
"I'm just tired, Fuu..."
"...Mmkay... Good night... Seifer." I walk into my bedroom... and... sleep.
The next morning I wake up. I'm in shock, since I slept. Raijin has already left for work. I can hear something from the living room.
"God damned son of a bitch! Get the fuck out of my house!" At first, I must admit, I thought he was talking to me... I was scared. But then I thought maybe Squall had come. But I was wrong on both accounts. He was talking to Raijin's cat, which scampered out the front door as soon as I emerged from my room.
"S-Seifer?"
"Fucking cat shit on the sofa."
"I'll clean it..." I say.
"No. We have to send it out. Its coming from Raijin's paycheck! I'm not payin' for it!"
"Alright... I'll um, call that place... in Dollet. They are the closest."
"...Fine."
~~~
About fifteen minutes after the men came and picked up the sofa, Seifer went to bed, saying he was tired. And Squall arrived shortly after.
"GREETINGS." I say.
"Thanks..." He kissed me on the cheek... Why? Well, whatever, it felt good... to be cared about.
"OFFER PLACE TO SIT. BUT, SOFA SENT. CLEANED."
"I see... So, is anyone else home...?"
"SEIFER."
"Where is he?"
"SLEEPING." I could have sworn I seen a look of disapointment. Then his pager went off.
"I gotta go. Bye." He left. That was quick... I shrugged and sat on the window seat. It had stopped raining, which was just too bad.
Seifer came out.
"Why'd you invite him here?" He asked.
"I didn't. He came on his own."
"...Sure. Why was he looking for me?" Didn't sleep... did you?
"... I don't know."
"... Fujin don't trust him." What?
"Who do you want me to trust then?! I just want to be able to trust someone! Not you. I can't trust you." I walked into my room, knowing that he would not understand what I had last said.