^ I say it calmly, even though I'm breaking inside.^
-Tired-
~Fujin
I don't understand... his... weakness...? Does he love me? Well... he kissed me... deeper than I've ever been kissed before... But it could just be out of pity... After all, Squall did betray me...
A knock at the door.
"I'll get it. Seifer, go hide in your bedroom."
"Er, okay." I straightened out my hair, and walked over to the door.
"Hello. Is Seifer Almasy in?" Two female Balamb officers.
"NEGATIVE."
"Oh... do you live with him?"
"AFFIRMATIVE."
"Well then, can we ask you some questions about him?"
"YES. WAIT. WAS SLEEPING. MUST FIX SELF. MAKE SELVES AT HOME." I walked into my bedroom.
"Seifer." I whispered.
"Yes?"
"Come listen at the door. They are going to ask me questions about you... How should I answer them?"
"Are they male or female?"
"Female..."
"Make our relationship out to be very close and personal. They'll buy it. Okay?"
"Got it." I quickly ran a brush through my hair, and walked out
"APOLOGIES."
"Its okay. Have a seat. This could take a while. Oh, and don't mind if our questions are too personal... But, they have to be to get the truth."
"FINE."
"Eye color." Thank god I study Seifer.
"GREEN"
"Hair?"
"BLONDE."
"D.O.B"
"DECEMBER 22."
"Blood type"
"O."
"Social Security Number?"
"0123-2207"
"Wow, how long have you known him?"
"..SEVEN YEARS."
"What are your relations to him...?" Damn. Personal...
"FRIEND... AND LOVER."
"Oh, good... So, have you been married or engaged?"
"NO."
"Have you had intercourse?"
"NOT NESSCARY INFORMATION."
"Its just procedure..."
"YES."
"Alright..." They then asked me questions about the sorceress conflict.
"Well, then, he's not... liable to be arrested! We'll let SeeD handle it alone. ...hah." They left and Seifer came out.
"...Nice job. Now, we won't have to worry about them."
"...Yeah."
"Fuu, I-" Raijin walked in with some girl clinging to his arm.
"Oh, Raijin, you are so funnae!" ...Ditz. Thats all we need.
"I wasn't even serious... about the girl from the peir... I just wanted him to leave us alone." Seifer whispered. Seifer and I walked into the kitchen, and sat down. I did and didn't really want to talk about what had happened in the living room before Raijin showed up. So, I remained silent, not sure what to make of all of it... He was staring at me again, I could feel it. I know I'm not pretty... but it doesn't mean he has to stare. Not able to take it anymore, I stood up and walked over to the coffee maker and put some coffee on. I stared at the dark liquid as it dripped into the pot.
"Fujin." Oh... what is it? You said my name oddly... in a different tone. What kind of tone is this?
"Yes?" I say it calmly, even though I'm breaking inside.
"Why are you avoiding me...?" I'm not avoiding you... well...
"...I'm not. I just want coffee."
"...Sure..." F-fine... I'll sit. I sat across from him.
"What is it?"
"...You know... what happened in there..." He motioned his gloved hand into the living room.
"C-CONTINUE." I expected him to apologize and say something like "I didn't realize what I was doing..." but, he didn't say anything. The buzzer went off on the coffee maker. I stood up and walked over to it, but Seifer grabbed my arm. He stood up and grabbed my other wrist. I was scared. I look at him, trying not to look what I feel. Either way, he moved his hand up around my body. Seifer... He pressed his lips to mine, and I got that feeling again. That something wasn't right. Something didn't fit. I kissed him back, and after awhile I pulled away, and still in his arms, glared at the floor.
"Fujin... I did all that because...-"
"Hey, Fujin can you sleep on the sofa tonight, ya know?!" Keep getting interupted!
"You can't just kick her out of her own room!" Seifer shot back.
"FINE." I say, trying not to cause trouble.
"You can use my bed, I'll sleep on the sofa." Seifer said, finally.
"That's okay, really it is."
"No..."
"Please just continue what you have to say..." I say, wondering why I said it.
"...N-nevermind."
"Seifer."
"Can I have some coffee... please?" Seifer...
"Okay..." I pour him a mug of coffee, and me one too. Everything between us is silent for the rest of the day, and then Raijin and his girlfriend go into our room. It makes me mad; to have them doing that in my room... Its around ten pm, and Seifer is sitting on the sofa, staring into space, and I stare out the window, sitting on my window seat. I like to call it my window seat, because no one ever sits there. Anyhow, its raining again, and I watch it pour down in sheets onto the ground. Then I see the street light flicker, and the power goes out. Seifer doesn't say anything, but I can't see out the window anymore, so I stand up and glare around, my eye adjusting to the sudden darkness quickly, as it always does. Seifer is still staring into space, his hand grazing the carpet slightly. I step closer. He doesn't notice, he is too lost in thought. Closer. Closer. I'm two feet away from the sofa. I'm just a figure, in the darkness.
"...Fuu?" He finally says.
"...Yes?"
"Come here." I sit beside him, terrified of what will happen next.
"...Mhm...?"
"Just sit with me... okay?"
"Ah, alright." Its silent. We are so close... My eyelids feel heavy. They close, but I struggle to stay awake... however, I fail.
When I wake up, the house is still dark. I'm trying desperately to find out where I am and how I got there. I'm in... Seifer's bed? I sit up and glance at the small clock. 3 AM. I step out of bed, trying to figure out how I got there, and walk into the living room. There he is. Sleeping... on the sofa. I walk over to him, my bare feet making no noise to give away my presence. Is he even sleeping...?
"Hey, Fuu." I guess not.
"Um, how long was I asleep...?"
"I dunno... maybe four hours."
"Oh..." I sit beside him. "You should get some sleep."
"I can't."
"Why?"
"...I've got too many things on my mind."
-Tired-
~Fujin
I don't understand... his... weakness...? Does he love me? Well... he kissed me... deeper than I've ever been kissed before... But it could just be out of pity... After all, Squall did betray me...
A knock at the door.
"I'll get it. Seifer, go hide in your bedroom."
"Er, okay." I straightened out my hair, and walked over to the door.
"Hello. Is Seifer Almasy in?" Two female Balamb officers.
"NEGATIVE."
"Oh... do you live with him?"
"AFFIRMATIVE."
"Well then, can we ask you some questions about him?"
"YES. WAIT. WAS SLEEPING. MUST FIX SELF. MAKE SELVES AT HOME." I walked into my bedroom.
"Seifer." I whispered.
"Yes?"
"Come listen at the door. They are going to ask me questions about you... How should I answer them?"
"Are they male or female?"
"Female..."
"Make our relationship out to be very close and personal. They'll buy it. Okay?"
"Got it." I quickly ran a brush through my hair, and walked out
"APOLOGIES."
"Its okay. Have a seat. This could take a while. Oh, and don't mind if our questions are too personal... But, they have to be to get the truth."
"FINE."
"Eye color." Thank god I study Seifer.
"GREEN"
"Hair?"
"BLONDE."
"D.O.B"
"DECEMBER 22."
"Blood type"
"O."
"Social Security Number?"
"0123-2207"
"Wow, how long have you known him?"
"..SEVEN YEARS."
"What are your relations to him...?" Damn. Personal...
"FRIEND... AND LOVER."
"Oh, good... So, have you been married or engaged?"
"NO."
"Have you had intercourse?"
"NOT NESSCARY INFORMATION."
"Its just procedure..."
"YES."
"Alright..." They then asked me questions about the sorceress conflict.
"Well, then, he's not... liable to be arrested! We'll let SeeD handle it alone. ...hah." They left and Seifer came out.
"...Nice job. Now, we won't have to worry about them."
"...Yeah."
"Fuu, I-" Raijin walked in with some girl clinging to his arm.
"Oh, Raijin, you are so funnae!" ...Ditz. Thats all we need.
"I wasn't even serious... about the girl from the peir... I just wanted him to leave us alone." Seifer whispered. Seifer and I walked into the kitchen, and sat down. I did and didn't really want to talk about what had happened in the living room before Raijin showed up. So, I remained silent, not sure what to make of all of it... He was staring at me again, I could feel it. I know I'm not pretty... but it doesn't mean he has to stare. Not able to take it anymore, I stood up and walked over to the coffee maker and put some coffee on. I stared at the dark liquid as it dripped into the pot.
"Fujin." Oh... what is it? You said my name oddly... in a different tone. What kind of tone is this?
"Yes?" I say it calmly, even though I'm breaking inside.
"Why are you avoiding me...?" I'm not avoiding you... well...
"...I'm not. I just want coffee."
"...Sure..." F-fine... I'll sit. I sat across from him.
"What is it?"
"...You know... what happened in there..." He motioned his gloved hand into the living room.
"C-CONTINUE." I expected him to apologize and say something like "I didn't realize what I was doing..." but, he didn't say anything. The buzzer went off on the coffee maker. I stood up and walked over to it, but Seifer grabbed my arm. He stood up and grabbed my other wrist. I was scared. I look at him, trying not to look what I feel. Either way, he moved his hand up around my body. Seifer... He pressed his lips to mine, and I got that feeling again. That something wasn't right. Something didn't fit. I kissed him back, and after awhile I pulled away, and still in his arms, glared at the floor.
"Fujin... I did all that because...-"
"Hey, Fujin can you sleep on the sofa tonight, ya know?!" Keep getting interupted!
"You can't just kick her out of her own room!" Seifer shot back.
"FINE." I say, trying not to cause trouble.
"You can use my bed, I'll sleep on the sofa." Seifer said, finally.
"That's okay, really it is."
"No..."
"Please just continue what you have to say..." I say, wondering why I said it.
"...N-nevermind."
"Seifer."
"Can I have some coffee... please?" Seifer...
"Okay..." I pour him a mug of coffee, and me one too. Everything between us is silent for the rest of the day, and then Raijin and his girlfriend go into our room. It makes me mad; to have them doing that in my room... Its around ten pm, and Seifer is sitting on the sofa, staring into space, and I stare out the window, sitting on my window seat. I like to call it my window seat, because no one ever sits there. Anyhow, its raining again, and I watch it pour down in sheets onto the ground. Then I see the street light flicker, and the power goes out. Seifer doesn't say anything, but I can't see out the window anymore, so I stand up and glare around, my eye adjusting to the sudden darkness quickly, as it always does. Seifer is still staring into space, his hand grazing the carpet slightly. I step closer. He doesn't notice, he is too lost in thought. Closer. Closer. I'm two feet away from the sofa. I'm just a figure, in the darkness.
"...Fuu?" He finally says.
"...Yes?"
"Come here." I sit beside him, terrified of what will happen next.
"...Mhm...?"
"Just sit with me... okay?"
"Ah, alright." Its silent. We are so close... My eyelids feel heavy. They close, but I struggle to stay awake... however, I fail.
When I wake up, the house is still dark. I'm trying desperately to find out where I am and how I got there. I'm in... Seifer's bed? I sit up and glance at the small clock. 3 AM. I step out of bed, trying to figure out how I got there, and walk into the living room. There he is. Sleeping... on the sofa. I walk over to him, my bare feet making no noise to give away my presence. Is he even sleeping...?
"Hey, Fuu." I guess not.
"Um, how long was I asleep...?"
"I dunno... maybe four hours."
"Oh..." I sit beside him. "You should get some sleep."
"I can't."
"Why?"
"...I've got too many things on my mind."