^Was she really gone? If she was... I wanted to die with her.^
-Guilty-
~Seifer.
Her eye closes slowly. You love me... I love you too... You can't be gone... no...
"*Fujin...!!*" The paramedics arrive and take her away. They took me with them. I guess it was because of the gash on my stomach, but that didn't matter now. It was just a scratch... Nothing more. Nothing less. But was Fujin dead?! They finished treating me on the ambulance, and took us both to the Deling hospital. I was fine. They made me wait for word on Fujin. Was she dead? Was she really gone? If she was... I wanted to die with her.
"Hey, can I go in yet?!" I ask the receptionist.
"No, sir."
"..." I walk in, even though they say I can't, but thats what they've been saying for the last two hours. No one comes after me, I find that odd. I finally arrive at room 8C. It is completely dark. I can see her. Her small body under all of those white sheets. My whole upper body is wrapped, with seventeen stitches, but that is nothing compared to the IV that is in her arm, and her heart, which is beating slower than normal. Beep... beep... beep... so slowly. I sit beside her bed.
"Fujin... Oh god, Fujin... I love you. This is all my fault... I'll have to take my own life should you die... I need you... to survive. Please... don't die." The beeping slows. Beep.... beep.... beep.... Two doctors rush in with a bag of blood, which is injected into her arm. Her heart rate returns to what it was before. They don't notice me. I just lurk in the shadows of the room. I'd give all of my blood for you to survive, Fuu... They said the only reason she was still alive was because she must have moved so the blade got her below where it would have killed her. But, they also said she was still bleeding, and might not make it... I killed Squall Leonheart. I'm glad too. The doctors left, and I walked over to Fujin.
"Fujin... please... I need you..." I can hear them talking in the hall... the doctors.
"We should just stop. I mean, there is no way she makes it." Fujin... My Fujin...
"Nah, there might be some hope..."
"Well, uh, does she have any family?"
"No... but there's that guy who came in with her... He had that gash..."
"Oh yeah, I wonder what his relation to her is..."
"Hm. Well, look, there's someone in 8A..." They continued to talk, but I ceased to listen. I knelt by Fujin's bed, wanting her to open her eye. They had taken her eye patch off... She was still as beautiful...
"Fujin," I whipered, "I need you to know... how much I love you... I'd do anything for you... anything in the world... just to make things right... for you... I loved you, for as long as I've known you... I know... I know, that I didn't act that way... And I know I hurt you... But it was an accident, a mistake. I know that I'm not good enough for you... but I could try... I'll give you all of the love I have... Just wake up... please... open your eyes..."
One half hour later, I noticed her heart rate return to normal. Beep. beep. beep. Her eyes opened.
"Fuu..." I said, looking at her.
"S-Seifer..."
"Oh, god, Fujin... I love you so much." I grabbed her arm and she looked at me.
"Seifer... I thought I was...dead."
"Me too..."
"Seifer, I heard you... talking to me."
"Oh..."
"I love you... too."
"She's awake?! By the faeries! A miracle... We thought she wouldn't make it...!" A doctor came in, followed by the other one who asked:
"How did you get in?"
"I just walked in..."
"You aren't supposed to be here..."
"Can you just help her!?" I asked.
"-Right." I stood back, and they took off bandages, and gave her stitches then exited.
"Fujin... I'm so sorry... dammit..."
"...No, you've... got nothing to be sorry about."
"This is all my fucking fault... God, Fuu, I should have just let them take me the first time... I'm a selfish fool..."
"...No! Don't say that..." The doctors came back in.
They said they wouldn't let her out for three days, but she would live. The doctors left, and I stared at Fujin, blaming my self for everything that had happened. I remember seeing her perfect body that day in the bathroom... Now, it would be flawed with a scar up her arm, leg, and lower neck... All because of me. It wasn't fair for her... What I had done to her... She had almost died, dammit! All because of me... She had said it wasn't my fault, but I knew we both thought otherwise.
I left the hospital, and the three days passed. Raijin was gone off with Toni most of the time... so, I was alone. On the third day, I walked to the hospital, and got Fujin out. She had to go easy, and not strain or anything.
When we got home, she sat on the window seat, as she usually would, and stared out the window. I went into the kitchen and put some coffee on. Coffee was what I lived on... it kept me awake... yet, I still have not learned to make it correctly. Smoke began to rise from the maker.
"...Shit." I muttered.
"Seifer. Add more water." Fujin called in from the next room. I did so, and the coffee turned out alright... I guess.
"Ya want some?" I asked her.
"...Sure." I poured her a mug, and handed it to her.
"Th-thanks." She said, drinking some. She made a face, and set the coffee down. Dammit, I can't even make coffee!
"Sorry..." I say sheepishly.
"N-no, its okay."
~~~
The next day, I wake up, and realize, to my dismay, that I have to work all weekend and today... Friggin' job. Friggin' Squall... It's all his fault... dammit. And Fujin can't work either... which is why I have to work all weekend. I walk into the bathroom and undress. Then I just look around me. Damn... Fujin was right there... bleeding... It was all my fault...
After my shower, I walked into the kitchen. It was empty... I missed Fujin just waiting there, drinking her coffee... I glanced at the coffee maker, and shook my head, deciding not to make coffee... this morning.
~~~
I got home from work at around 2:30 am, and didn't really expect anyone to be awake, but Fujin was staring out the window again. I want to know what she thinks about... all those hours she must glare out that window... I toss my trenchcoat on the sofa and sigh.
"Hey, Fuu..." I mutter.
"Hi..." We haven't spoken of anything really interesting, such as our relationship, as of as late, and things are rather boring.
"What are you doing still up?"
"I, um, couldn't sleep..."
"Why?" ...
"I dunno... I guess I have too much on my mind."
"Like what?"
"...Seifer, you need sleep."
"Fujin."
"Hm...?"
"...Tell me... please?"
"I...was, em, it's nothing important."
"...Fuu."
"Seifer, I'm tired."
"Then why are you awake?" And difficult.
"I'm going to bed." She stood up and walked foward. I stepped in her way.
"Seifer."
"Fujin, tell me."
"Stop it." She said, trying to push by me again. I grabbed her good arm.
"I'm not letting you go until you tell me."
"...Then I guess you won't be letting me go."
"Fuu."
"...Seifer, just let me go... okay?"
"No, something's bothering you. Maybe I'll have to force it out of you, but I'll get it outta you. You know it."
"Seifer..." I kissed her, without thinking.
"Tell me."
-Guilty-
~Seifer.
Her eye closes slowly. You love me... I love you too... You can't be gone... no...
"*Fujin...!!*" The paramedics arrive and take her away. They took me with them. I guess it was because of the gash on my stomach, but that didn't matter now. It was just a scratch... Nothing more. Nothing less. But was Fujin dead?! They finished treating me on the ambulance, and took us both to the Deling hospital. I was fine. They made me wait for word on Fujin. Was she dead? Was she really gone? If she was... I wanted to die with her.
"Hey, can I go in yet?!" I ask the receptionist.
"No, sir."
"..." I walk in, even though they say I can't, but thats what they've been saying for the last two hours. No one comes after me, I find that odd. I finally arrive at room 8C. It is completely dark. I can see her. Her small body under all of those white sheets. My whole upper body is wrapped, with seventeen stitches, but that is nothing compared to the IV that is in her arm, and her heart, which is beating slower than normal. Beep... beep... beep... so slowly. I sit beside her bed.
"Fujin... Oh god, Fujin... I love you. This is all my fault... I'll have to take my own life should you die... I need you... to survive. Please... don't die." The beeping slows. Beep.... beep.... beep.... Two doctors rush in with a bag of blood, which is injected into her arm. Her heart rate returns to what it was before. They don't notice me. I just lurk in the shadows of the room. I'd give all of my blood for you to survive, Fuu... They said the only reason she was still alive was because she must have moved so the blade got her below where it would have killed her. But, they also said she was still bleeding, and might not make it... I killed Squall Leonheart. I'm glad too. The doctors left, and I walked over to Fujin.
"Fujin... please... I need you..." I can hear them talking in the hall... the doctors.
"We should just stop. I mean, there is no way she makes it." Fujin... My Fujin...
"Nah, there might be some hope..."
"Well, uh, does she have any family?"
"No... but there's that guy who came in with her... He had that gash..."
"Oh yeah, I wonder what his relation to her is..."
"Hm. Well, look, there's someone in 8A..." They continued to talk, but I ceased to listen. I knelt by Fujin's bed, wanting her to open her eye. They had taken her eye patch off... She was still as beautiful...
"Fujin," I whipered, "I need you to know... how much I love you... I'd do anything for you... anything in the world... just to make things right... for you... I loved you, for as long as I've known you... I know... I know, that I didn't act that way... And I know I hurt you... But it was an accident, a mistake. I know that I'm not good enough for you... but I could try... I'll give you all of the love I have... Just wake up... please... open your eyes..."
One half hour later, I noticed her heart rate return to normal. Beep. beep. beep. Her eyes opened.
"Fuu..." I said, looking at her.
"S-Seifer..."
"Oh, god, Fujin... I love you so much." I grabbed her arm and she looked at me.
"Seifer... I thought I was...dead."
"Me too..."
"Seifer, I heard you... talking to me."
"Oh..."
"I love you... too."
"She's awake?! By the faeries! A miracle... We thought she wouldn't make it...!" A doctor came in, followed by the other one who asked:
"How did you get in?"
"I just walked in..."
"You aren't supposed to be here..."
"Can you just help her!?" I asked.
"-Right." I stood back, and they took off bandages, and gave her stitches then exited.
"Fujin... I'm so sorry... dammit..."
"...No, you've... got nothing to be sorry about."
"This is all my fucking fault... God, Fuu, I should have just let them take me the first time... I'm a selfish fool..."
"...No! Don't say that..." The doctors came back in.
They said they wouldn't let her out for three days, but she would live. The doctors left, and I stared at Fujin, blaming my self for everything that had happened. I remember seeing her perfect body that day in the bathroom... Now, it would be flawed with a scar up her arm, leg, and lower neck... All because of me. It wasn't fair for her... What I had done to her... She had almost died, dammit! All because of me... She had said it wasn't my fault, but I knew we both thought otherwise.
I left the hospital, and the three days passed. Raijin was gone off with Toni most of the time... so, I was alone. On the third day, I walked to the hospital, and got Fujin out. She had to go easy, and not strain or anything.
When we got home, she sat on the window seat, as she usually would, and stared out the window. I went into the kitchen and put some coffee on. Coffee was what I lived on... it kept me awake... yet, I still have not learned to make it correctly. Smoke began to rise from the maker.
"...Shit." I muttered.
"Seifer. Add more water." Fujin called in from the next room. I did so, and the coffee turned out alright... I guess.
"Ya want some?" I asked her.
"...Sure." I poured her a mug, and handed it to her.
"Th-thanks." She said, drinking some. She made a face, and set the coffee down. Dammit, I can't even make coffee!
"Sorry..." I say sheepishly.
"N-no, its okay."
~~~
The next day, I wake up, and realize, to my dismay, that I have to work all weekend and today... Friggin' job. Friggin' Squall... It's all his fault... dammit. And Fujin can't work either... which is why I have to work all weekend. I walk into the bathroom and undress. Then I just look around me. Damn... Fujin was right there... bleeding... It was all my fault...
After my shower, I walked into the kitchen. It was empty... I missed Fujin just waiting there, drinking her coffee... I glanced at the coffee maker, and shook my head, deciding not to make coffee... this morning.
~~~
I got home from work at around 2:30 am, and didn't really expect anyone to be awake, but Fujin was staring out the window again. I want to know what she thinks about... all those hours she must glare out that window... I toss my trenchcoat on the sofa and sigh.
"Hey, Fuu..." I mutter.
"Hi..." We haven't spoken of anything really interesting, such as our relationship, as of as late, and things are rather boring.
"What are you doing still up?"
"I, um, couldn't sleep..."
"Why?" ...
"I dunno... I guess I have too much on my mind."
"Like what?"
"...Seifer, you need sleep."
"Fujin."
"Hm...?"
"...Tell me... please?"
"I...was, em, it's nothing important."
"...Fuu."
"Seifer, I'm tired."
"Then why are you awake?" And difficult.
"I'm going to bed." She stood up and walked foward. I stepped in her way.
"Seifer."
"Fujin, tell me."
"Stop it." She said, trying to push by me again. I grabbed her good arm.
"I'm not letting you go until you tell me."
"...Then I guess you won't be letting me go."
"Fuu."
"...Seifer, just let me go... okay?"
"No, something's bothering you. Maybe I'll have to force it out of you, but I'll get it outta you. You know it."
"Seifer..." I kissed her, without thinking.
"Tell me."