^I'm crying? Why? Is it because I trusted you?^
-Betrayed-
~Fujin
Hopeless. Hopelessly... in love. Seifer wrapped his arms around me and kissed me deeper. Oh god, Seifer... Um, shouldn't we get the door...? ...I swear, all Squall did was kiss me... please... just stop it. But... the only problem was, I was joining in the dance. Finally, I fought off my senses, and was going to stop, but, by that time, I didn't want to.
"Hewo?! Answer the door! I know you guys are home!"
"We should get that..." I finally manage to suggest.
"...No, we shouldn't..." He continued to kiss me. Stop it. He only kissed me deeper, and then my neck began to hurt.
"Awright! Don't make me use da key Raijin gave me."
"He gave that bitch a key to our house?!" Seifer said pulling away from me.
"I guess so..."
"Fucking..." I couldn't hear the rest of the things he said, since he moved to the door, and unlocked it, then walked out. I could still feel his lips on mine, and it was only a reminder of how much control he had over me... without me even knowing it. I love him... so much it hurts... but, I'm just so... so afraid he doesn't really love me. He's reassured me so many times... I just... just can't believe. I didn't mind him having so much control over me... I just needed to know that he loved me- for real. Still.
I finally stepped out of the bedroom, and seen Seifer talking to Toni. Was it just me, or were they flirting? ...Seifer. Walking up to them, I placed my hand on Seifer's arm. He was leaning against the doorframe, as they talked about Raijin. There was eough fake laughter and smiles to make me sick.
"Ooh, weell, I should be goin' now. Nice ta see ya, Seifour." She said his name oddly. It made me upset.
"Bye, now." He said, waving as she walked away. ... He walked back in and shut the door. I turned around, too upset to face him... Making "friends" with Raijin's fiancee... Bastard. I sat on the sofa and turned on the T.V. I pretended to be real enthrawled in "Your Local Forcast." I shouldn't be mad. It's not like we said that we were going to commit to eachother... I mean... yeah. He has the right to... mess with every girl in Balamb. So what if he loves me? He probably loves tons of other people too...! Seifer walked into the kitchen. Laying back on the sofa, I sighed. I sat back up because the position made it uncomfortable for my neck. I walked into the bathroom, and opened the bottle of aspirin, preparing to take more, but Seifer cleared his throat, leaning on the doorframe.
"WHAT?!"
"...You shouldn't take so many in such a closed period of time."
"..." I downed two of them. I'll take whatever I want.
"What the hell is your problem?" He asked.
"..."
"Answer me."
"...YOU."
"What the fuck did I do?"
"SELFISH, EGOISTIC. BASTARD." ...Shouldn't have said that.
"What did you say?!"
"SAID, SELFISH, EGOISTIC. BAS-TARD!" ...I need to stop. Okay, no more. Just go in your room. He left the key in the keyhole. I can just lock him out.
"...Damn... what the fuck did I do?!" ...Stop. Don't say anything.
"..."
"Friggin' say something." Come on, two more feet, and you can reach your door.
"..." Just as I reach for the door knob, he grabbed me and turned me around. I looked up at him angrily.
"...Well!?" I closed my eye and turned my head.
"..." I pulled away from him, and opened the door to my room. Just walk in. Almost there. He grabbed me again, and turned me around.
"Talk to me, dammit!"
"..." My breathing becomes heavy. I feel threatened. I look up at him. He's angry. Seifer is scary when he's angry. Stop it. His grip on my wrist tightens. Ah... that hurts... let go.
"Let me go!"
"No."
"Seifer, you're hurting me." My wrist is so small compared to his gloved hands. So... fragile.
"So?"
"Seifer!" I cry out as he tightens his grip.
"..." He lets go, and I run into my room, not even bothering to lock the door behind me. I climb over to my bed, and sit, glancing at my shuriken. Maybe I'll never come out of here... Seifer why did you hurt me? ...Did you want to hurt me...? What did I do wrong? You did the wrong thing, not me! ...I wait patiently for some sort of noise. Nothing, dead silence. An hour later I finally hear a bang, and the wall in front of me shakes. A small, foward, dent appears. I step out of my room. Everything is dark. Stepping quietly, I search for Seifer. The light in the bathroom is still on from when I left it, and I look down at my wrist. Its red, and has a growing bruise. Seifer... I shut off the light. He's not in the kitchen. He must be in his room. I try to open the door. Its locked. Then I remember the key he left in my room... Will it work? I get it, and come back. It fits and I unlock the door. Taking a deep breath, I walk into the room. The sudden coldness startles me, yet I keep going. I trusted you, Seifer. I thought you'd never hurt me... He's staring out the window. I glance at the wall. There's a rather large dent, and some blood on it... So angry... at me? I glance at his hand, and there is some blood streaming down onto the carpet. He continues to stare out the window, not noticing my presence. I step closer. I exhale, and walk over so I'm only a foot behind him. I take his bleeding hand into my own, and wipe away some of the blood with my sleeve. He turns and looks at me. He looks upset... but not angry.
"Fujin... I'm so sorry..."
"Seifer..." He takes me in his arms and holds me against his body. I've lost some trust in you... please, Seifer, renew it. That's when I notice it. I'm crying? Why? Is it because I trusted you? He runs his fingers through my hair. I back away from him, and wipe away stray tears.
"Fuu..."
"Don't... please don't." I shake my head, and fork my fingers through my hair.
"Fujin..."
"I didn't think that... you'd... ever... hurt me..." I back away some more, wondering why I ever came in here.
"Fujin, I wasn't thinking..."
"...Mhm." I backed away some more.
"Fuu... please..."
"N-no..."
"Fujin."
"Stop it."
"...Just listen."
"NO!" I turn around and head for the door, getting out. The front door. I can leave now, and never come back. Never have to see Seifer again... No, it was just a mistake, he won't do it again... Ugh...!
"Fujin." He's right behind me. Real close. Oh god... don't. I won't turn around. I turn and face him.
"Yes?"
"...I'm... so sorry. I wasn't thinking. You can leave, if you want to... I'm not gonna hold you back."
"I don't want to leave. I love you, Seifer, nothing can change that... But, I can lose trust in you... and I did."
-Betrayed-
~Fujin
Hopeless. Hopelessly... in love. Seifer wrapped his arms around me and kissed me deeper. Oh god, Seifer... Um, shouldn't we get the door...? ...I swear, all Squall did was kiss me... please... just stop it. But... the only problem was, I was joining in the dance. Finally, I fought off my senses, and was going to stop, but, by that time, I didn't want to.
"Hewo?! Answer the door! I know you guys are home!"
"We should get that..." I finally manage to suggest.
"...No, we shouldn't..." He continued to kiss me. Stop it. He only kissed me deeper, and then my neck began to hurt.
"Awright! Don't make me use da key Raijin gave me."
"He gave that bitch a key to our house?!" Seifer said pulling away from me.
"I guess so..."
"Fucking..." I couldn't hear the rest of the things he said, since he moved to the door, and unlocked it, then walked out. I could still feel his lips on mine, and it was only a reminder of how much control he had over me... without me even knowing it. I love him... so much it hurts... but, I'm just so... so afraid he doesn't really love me. He's reassured me so many times... I just... just can't believe. I didn't mind him having so much control over me... I just needed to know that he loved me- for real. Still.
I finally stepped out of the bedroom, and seen Seifer talking to Toni. Was it just me, or were they flirting? ...Seifer. Walking up to them, I placed my hand on Seifer's arm. He was leaning against the doorframe, as they talked about Raijin. There was eough fake laughter and smiles to make me sick.
"Ooh, weell, I should be goin' now. Nice ta see ya, Seifour." She said his name oddly. It made me upset.
"Bye, now." He said, waving as she walked away. ... He walked back in and shut the door. I turned around, too upset to face him... Making "friends" with Raijin's fiancee... Bastard. I sat on the sofa and turned on the T.V. I pretended to be real enthrawled in "Your Local Forcast." I shouldn't be mad. It's not like we said that we were going to commit to eachother... I mean... yeah. He has the right to... mess with every girl in Balamb. So what if he loves me? He probably loves tons of other people too...! Seifer walked into the kitchen. Laying back on the sofa, I sighed. I sat back up because the position made it uncomfortable for my neck. I walked into the bathroom, and opened the bottle of aspirin, preparing to take more, but Seifer cleared his throat, leaning on the doorframe.
"WHAT?!"
"...You shouldn't take so many in such a closed period of time."
"..." I downed two of them. I'll take whatever I want.
"What the hell is your problem?" He asked.
"..."
"Answer me."
"...YOU."
"What the fuck did I do?"
"SELFISH, EGOISTIC. BASTARD." ...Shouldn't have said that.
"What did you say?!"
"SAID, SELFISH, EGOISTIC. BAS-TARD!" ...I need to stop. Okay, no more. Just go in your room. He left the key in the keyhole. I can just lock him out.
"...Damn... what the fuck did I do?!" ...Stop. Don't say anything.
"..."
"Friggin' say something." Come on, two more feet, and you can reach your door.
"..." Just as I reach for the door knob, he grabbed me and turned me around. I looked up at him angrily.
"...Well!?" I closed my eye and turned my head.
"..." I pulled away from him, and opened the door to my room. Just walk in. Almost there. He grabbed me again, and turned me around.
"Talk to me, dammit!"
"..." My breathing becomes heavy. I feel threatened. I look up at him. He's angry. Seifer is scary when he's angry. Stop it. His grip on my wrist tightens. Ah... that hurts... let go.
"Let me go!"
"No."
"Seifer, you're hurting me." My wrist is so small compared to his gloved hands. So... fragile.
"So?"
"Seifer!" I cry out as he tightens his grip.
"..." He lets go, and I run into my room, not even bothering to lock the door behind me. I climb over to my bed, and sit, glancing at my shuriken. Maybe I'll never come out of here... Seifer why did you hurt me? ...Did you want to hurt me...? What did I do wrong? You did the wrong thing, not me! ...I wait patiently for some sort of noise. Nothing, dead silence. An hour later I finally hear a bang, and the wall in front of me shakes. A small, foward, dent appears. I step out of my room. Everything is dark. Stepping quietly, I search for Seifer. The light in the bathroom is still on from when I left it, and I look down at my wrist. Its red, and has a growing bruise. Seifer... I shut off the light. He's not in the kitchen. He must be in his room. I try to open the door. Its locked. Then I remember the key he left in my room... Will it work? I get it, and come back. It fits and I unlock the door. Taking a deep breath, I walk into the room. The sudden coldness startles me, yet I keep going. I trusted you, Seifer. I thought you'd never hurt me... He's staring out the window. I glance at the wall. There's a rather large dent, and some blood on it... So angry... at me? I glance at his hand, and there is some blood streaming down onto the carpet. He continues to stare out the window, not noticing my presence. I step closer. I exhale, and walk over so I'm only a foot behind him. I take his bleeding hand into my own, and wipe away some of the blood with my sleeve. He turns and looks at me. He looks upset... but not angry.
"Fujin... I'm so sorry..."
"Seifer..." He takes me in his arms and holds me against his body. I've lost some trust in you... please, Seifer, renew it. That's when I notice it. I'm crying? Why? Is it because I trusted you? He runs his fingers through my hair. I back away from him, and wipe away stray tears.
"Fuu..."
"Don't... please don't." I shake my head, and fork my fingers through my hair.
"Fujin..."
"I didn't think that... you'd... ever... hurt me..." I back away some more, wondering why I ever came in here.
"Fujin, I wasn't thinking..."
"...Mhm." I backed away some more.
"Fuu... please..."
"N-no..."
"Fujin."
"Stop it."
"...Just listen."
"NO!" I turn around and head for the door, getting out. The front door. I can leave now, and never come back. Never have to see Seifer again... No, it was just a mistake, he won't do it again... Ugh...!
"Fujin." He's right behind me. Real close. Oh god... don't. I won't turn around. I turn and face him.
"Yes?"
"...I'm... so sorry. I wasn't thinking. You can leave, if you want to... I'm not gonna hold you back."
"I don't want to leave. I love you, Seifer, nothing can change that... But, I can lose trust in you... and I did."