^You may love me, Seifer... But then, how come you do this?^
-Punished-
~Fujin & Seifer
Wishing I hadn't said anything, I continued to gaze out the window.
"What about us?" Why do I even say anything? I need to stop doubting things... but I can't help it! Seifer... he's fearless. Without any doubts.
"Um, just about our future as... us." I manage slowly.
"...What's botherin' ya about that?"
"I don't know... I was just thinking about it, that's all..."
"Mhm... Well, once this whole Squall thing is over, we'll talk about us..." I'm beginning to dread the day.
"Alright."
"Now, come on, let's go to bed, okay?"
"Mm." Well, we went to bed, though I didn't sleep. I went into the kitchen at around four AM, and drank a whole pot of coffee, then took a shower. After my shower, I was about to leave for work early (it was around 5 AM) when Seifer walked out of his bedroom.
"Where are you going so early?" He asks, scratching his head.
"Um... to work."
"Why so early? You don't have to be in for another four hours." I chewed at my lower lip, trying to think of something to say.
"Well?"
"I guess I just wanted to get some extra money... because I spent all of the money I had tucked away on the assassin." I said all of this painfully slowly, making it up as I said it. The truth was that I was trying to avoid him. I didn't like how he looked at me. He just *stared,* and said nothing. Sighing, I turned around.
"It seems to me like you are avoiding me." Damn, he's good.
"Seifer, what makes you think that? I wouldn't avoid you."
"Then come over here." I walked over suspicious of him. "Now, I want you to go into the kitchen, and make me coffee. Then, when I get out of the shower, you are still gonna be sitting right there, at the kitchen table. ...Ya got that?"
"Heheh, yes." He walked into the bathroom, and I walked into the kitchen. I turned on the coffee maker, putting coffee and water in their proper places, then sat at the table. He came out, five minutes later, and smiled at me, pouring himself the coffee I had made. Seifer... I nearly jumped when the phone rang. Seifer and I exchanged glances as I stood up and reached for the receiver.
"Hello?"
"Would you take a collect call from the B. District prison?"
"YES."
"Hey..." It was him. The assassin. Lloyd.
"L-Lloyd..." I whispered into the phone.
"You'll never guess where I am..."
"...Where...?"
"I-in..." That was the first time I ever heard him stutter. "...jail."
"You were...?"
"I got him. Do not worry. I never fail. Especially for you."
"B-but... when will you be out...?"
"Twenty years." Lloyd... Oh... I'm so sorry.
"I apologize..."
"It is fine. I will keep you out of the court case... and Almasy..."
"Lloyd no. Tell them the truth. I won't have you go to-"
"I'll stay in here for being an assassin still. There is no reason you should waste your life too. Farewell, Fujin. I will always care for you."
"..." I hung up the phone, and stared blankly at Seifer, who asked who it was.
"I don't know..."
"What?!"
"It was the wrong number." I had kept my voice low, so I don't think he heard any part of the conversation.
"Oh, heh, okay." Why didn't I want to cause any trouble? Then it hit me. Maybe Lloyd didn't want to cause any trouble either...
"Seifer, what's the punishment for murder?" I ask. He sips his coffee.
"Errrm, in Balamb?"
"Mmm..."
"Death, I think. Why?" No... no! No!
"I was just wondering."
"...Alright..."
"Seifer, we should get going for work..."
"Why?"
"Well, you know, you don't want to be late..." I need to be alone.
"Yeah, you're right."
"...Bye, Seifer."
"Bye." He left. Work was down the street. I didn't have to leave for an hour or so... Sighing, I went into my room, trying deperately to find out the right thing to do.
~Jump.to.Seifer.
Wrong number, my ass. I watched from the window as she went into her room. I silently entered the house, and walked into the kitchen. I looked at the empty chair she once sat in, and sighed, picking up the phone, and hit the "call-back" button, that had become my friend as of late.
"Hello, you've reached the B. District prison... press one for..." I slammed down the phone. ...Why would she lie to me?
~Jump.to.Fujin.
I heard a noise, mid-thought. What the hell was that?! Jogging into the kitchen, where the sound came from, I seen Seifer, who looked up.
He ripped a button off of the phone, and threw it at the ground in front of my feet. I knew I was in trouble... Dammit, I can't do anything right. There's always critizism, always anger! Directed towards me. You may love me, Seifer... But then, how come you do this? I glanced at the small peice of plastic at my feet. The call-back button. As I thought.
"Seifer... Let me explain..."
"Yeah, you better do some friggin' explaining." ...Seifer. I bit my lower lip and looked him in the eye. I could feel my body trembling, despite my desperate attempts to stop it. My lower lip quivered, and my eye burned. No. I won't cry. It's stupid, useless, and childish.
"He killed Squall. Squall's dead. No more Squall..."
"So, why the fuck did I get the prison?"
"He... got caught. He's in prison. He promised he wouldn't bring us into it... But it's all my fault! I told him to. What if your plan worked, Seifer?! Then he would be able to live... Seifer..." Stop it. Stop, Fujin! Dammit. I have to stop... Its not a big deal... I've killed people before, why do I care?! Seifer, you made me care. Its your fault... No... Its mine... It was then I realized how silent Seifer had become.
~Jump.to.Seifer.
For me. Someone was dying for me. And Fujin. No. I won't have that. NO! Just because I wouldn't go to prison. Just because I'm a *stuborn,* egoistc bastard who doesn't give a fuck about the world around him. Just himself. I'm a selfish bastard who doesn't even deserve to live. This assassin. He could make Fujin happy, but all I've brought are tears... to everyone, but myself. I need to be punished.
"Fujin..." She looks up.
"Y-yeah?"
"I've made a decision, and I think its for the best..." She nodded, telling me to go on.
"I'm gonna turn myself in. You've got no part in this."
"Seifer! No...! Don't." Fuck, Fujin, stop it. You're making it harder. No, don't cry. Fujin. Why do you have to do this? Why do you have to cry?
"Please, Seifer, don't..."
"Fujin, its something I have to do..."
"No, Seifer! Oh, please, no..." She walked over to me, and stopped when she was about six inches away.
"Please, you can't change my mind. You're only making it harder..." At this point, I wanted to cry. But, of course, I couldn't do that.
"But, its my fault, not yours! Please, Seifer, just listen to me..."
"Fujin! Stop it..."
"...N-no. You aren't gonna do this, no! I won't let you!"
"Fuu... please, just stop it. They probably won't kill me. They'll just do stuff. Put me in prison for awhile...
"Seifer, no! You don't have to do this... Just, please?!"
"N-no... I have to go."
"Seifer!" I stepped by her, and she came after me, grabbing my arm.
"You can't leave me, Seifer. Not now... Not ever. You said... You said to me... the other night... Raijin's wedding night... I couldn't remember it, but now I do... You said that you wanted to stay with me forever, and you'd never leave me... Seifer, you *can't* leave." I had said that... I meant it. But, I didn't expect this to happen. This is just something I have to do.
"Fujin... I love you. I always will. And I want to stay here, forever, with you. But I can't. I must do this. Honor."
"So, honor is more important than me?!" Fujin, don't do this!
"No... I'll come back, Fuu. I promise." ...I'll try.
"Seifer, no." She somehow found her way into my arms, and I held her.
"Please, I will see you again, Fuu... don't... worry."
~~~
Jump.to.Fujin
I shouldn't have let him go... I tried... but I couldn't hold him back. I got word today, that he'd be in there for ten years. I'd be thirty-four in ten years, yet, he left... Maybe... we weren't meant to be... I sat on the floor, and brought my knees up to my chest, and cried. So, now the only thing left for me to do is wonder... Will I ever see you again... my Seifer Almasy?
-Punished-
~Fujin & Seifer
Wishing I hadn't said anything, I continued to gaze out the window.
"What about us?" Why do I even say anything? I need to stop doubting things... but I can't help it! Seifer... he's fearless. Without any doubts.
"Um, just about our future as... us." I manage slowly.
"...What's botherin' ya about that?"
"I don't know... I was just thinking about it, that's all..."
"Mhm... Well, once this whole Squall thing is over, we'll talk about us..." I'm beginning to dread the day.
"Alright."
"Now, come on, let's go to bed, okay?"
"Mm." Well, we went to bed, though I didn't sleep. I went into the kitchen at around four AM, and drank a whole pot of coffee, then took a shower. After my shower, I was about to leave for work early (it was around 5 AM) when Seifer walked out of his bedroom.
"Where are you going so early?" He asks, scratching his head.
"Um... to work."
"Why so early? You don't have to be in for another four hours." I chewed at my lower lip, trying to think of something to say.
"Well?"
"I guess I just wanted to get some extra money... because I spent all of the money I had tucked away on the assassin." I said all of this painfully slowly, making it up as I said it. The truth was that I was trying to avoid him. I didn't like how he looked at me. He just *stared,* and said nothing. Sighing, I turned around.
"It seems to me like you are avoiding me." Damn, he's good.
"Seifer, what makes you think that? I wouldn't avoid you."
"Then come over here." I walked over suspicious of him. "Now, I want you to go into the kitchen, and make me coffee. Then, when I get out of the shower, you are still gonna be sitting right there, at the kitchen table. ...Ya got that?"
"Heheh, yes." He walked into the bathroom, and I walked into the kitchen. I turned on the coffee maker, putting coffee and water in their proper places, then sat at the table. He came out, five minutes later, and smiled at me, pouring himself the coffee I had made. Seifer... I nearly jumped when the phone rang. Seifer and I exchanged glances as I stood up and reached for the receiver.
"Hello?"
"Would you take a collect call from the B. District prison?"
"YES."
"Hey..." It was him. The assassin. Lloyd.
"L-Lloyd..." I whispered into the phone.
"You'll never guess where I am..."
"...Where...?"
"I-in..." That was the first time I ever heard him stutter. "...jail."
"You were...?"
"I got him. Do not worry. I never fail. Especially for you."
"B-but... when will you be out...?"
"Twenty years." Lloyd... Oh... I'm so sorry.
"I apologize..."
"It is fine. I will keep you out of the court case... and Almasy..."
"Lloyd no. Tell them the truth. I won't have you go to-"
"I'll stay in here for being an assassin still. There is no reason you should waste your life too. Farewell, Fujin. I will always care for you."
"..." I hung up the phone, and stared blankly at Seifer, who asked who it was.
"I don't know..."
"What?!"
"It was the wrong number." I had kept my voice low, so I don't think he heard any part of the conversation.
"Oh, heh, okay." Why didn't I want to cause any trouble? Then it hit me. Maybe Lloyd didn't want to cause any trouble either...
"Seifer, what's the punishment for murder?" I ask. He sips his coffee.
"Errrm, in Balamb?"
"Mmm..."
"Death, I think. Why?" No... no! No!
"I was just wondering."
"...Alright..."
"Seifer, we should get going for work..."
"Why?"
"Well, you know, you don't want to be late..." I need to be alone.
"Yeah, you're right."
"...Bye, Seifer."
"Bye." He left. Work was down the street. I didn't have to leave for an hour or so... Sighing, I went into my room, trying deperately to find out the right thing to do.
~Jump.to.Seifer.
Wrong number, my ass. I watched from the window as she went into her room. I silently entered the house, and walked into the kitchen. I looked at the empty chair she once sat in, and sighed, picking up the phone, and hit the "call-back" button, that had become my friend as of late.
"Hello, you've reached the B. District prison... press one for..." I slammed down the phone. ...Why would she lie to me?
~Jump.to.Fujin.
I heard a noise, mid-thought. What the hell was that?! Jogging into the kitchen, where the sound came from, I seen Seifer, who looked up.
He ripped a button off of the phone, and threw it at the ground in front of my feet. I knew I was in trouble... Dammit, I can't do anything right. There's always critizism, always anger! Directed towards me. You may love me, Seifer... But then, how come you do this? I glanced at the small peice of plastic at my feet. The call-back button. As I thought.
"Seifer... Let me explain..."
"Yeah, you better do some friggin' explaining." ...Seifer. I bit my lower lip and looked him in the eye. I could feel my body trembling, despite my desperate attempts to stop it. My lower lip quivered, and my eye burned. No. I won't cry. It's stupid, useless, and childish.
"He killed Squall. Squall's dead. No more Squall..."
"So, why the fuck did I get the prison?"
"He... got caught. He's in prison. He promised he wouldn't bring us into it... But it's all my fault! I told him to. What if your plan worked, Seifer?! Then he would be able to live... Seifer..." Stop it. Stop, Fujin! Dammit. I have to stop... Its not a big deal... I've killed people before, why do I care?! Seifer, you made me care. Its your fault... No... Its mine... It was then I realized how silent Seifer had become.
~Jump.to.Seifer.
For me. Someone was dying for me. And Fujin. No. I won't have that. NO! Just because I wouldn't go to prison. Just because I'm a *stuborn,* egoistc bastard who doesn't give a fuck about the world around him. Just himself. I'm a selfish bastard who doesn't even deserve to live. This assassin. He could make Fujin happy, but all I've brought are tears... to everyone, but myself. I need to be punished.
"Fujin..." She looks up.
"Y-yeah?"
"I've made a decision, and I think its for the best..." She nodded, telling me to go on.
"I'm gonna turn myself in. You've got no part in this."
"Seifer! No...! Don't." Fuck, Fujin, stop it. You're making it harder. No, don't cry. Fujin. Why do you have to do this? Why do you have to cry?
"Please, Seifer, don't..."
"Fujin, its something I have to do..."
"No, Seifer! Oh, please, no..." She walked over to me, and stopped when she was about six inches away.
"Please, you can't change my mind. You're only making it harder..." At this point, I wanted to cry. But, of course, I couldn't do that.
"But, its my fault, not yours! Please, Seifer, just listen to me..."
"Fujin! Stop it..."
"...N-no. You aren't gonna do this, no! I won't let you!"
"Fuu... please, just stop it. They probably won't kill me. They'll just do stuff. Put me in prison for awhile...
"Seifer, no! You don't have to do this... Just, please?!"
"N-no... I have to go."
"Seifer!" I stepped by her, and she came after me, grabbing my arm.
"You can't leave me, Seifer. Not now... Not ever. You said... You said to me... the other night... Raijin's wedding night... I couldn't remember it, but now I do... You said that you wanted to stay with me forever, and you'd never leave me... Seifer, you *can't* leave." I had said that... I meant it. But, I didn't expect this to happen. This is just something I have to do.
"Fujin... I love you. I always will. And I want to stay here, forever, with you. But I can't. I must do this. Honor."
"So, honor is more important than me?!" Fujin, don't do this!
"No... I'll come back, Fuu. I promise." ...I'll try.
"Seifer, no." She somehow found her way into my arms, and I held her.
"Please, I will see you again, Fuu... don't... worry."
~~~
Jump.to.Fujin
I shouldn't have let him go... I tried... but I couldn't hold him back. I got word today, that he'd be in there for ten years. I'd be thirty-four in ten years, yet, he left... Maybe... we weren't meant to be... I sat on the floor, and brought my knees up to my chest, and cried. So, now the only thing left for me to do is wonder... Will I ever see you again... my Seifer Almasy?