...
" . . . What does your heart tell you?"
...
Anakin sat tentatively on the medical bed waiting for a healer to come and attend to him. He had gotten over his sudden tantrum a few hours ago and was
anxiously waiting for his Master to return. Though many times Anakin had tried to speak, the words did not seem to come out. He had opened his mouth
and tried in a brutal attempt to coax his voice out.
Nothing seemed to work - nothing ever seemed to work out in his life. Ever since Obi-Wan had quickly left, Anakin had been reevaluating his earlier
thoughts. It was widely known that the Sith could somehow bend a person's mind so that their victim was actually convinced that they were insane.
No - that can't be right! Could the Sith had made me think that the whole Temple and most of all Obi-Wan, were against me? he thought, make me think
that I was a disgrace and a disappointment to the whole Jedi Order? Was that possible? But the question now is does Obi-Wan still care for me enough
to come back and see me?
After all, had I not just a few hours ago force-thrown cup, plates - anything I could find at Obi-Wan. I wouldn't exactly be jumping at the chance to come
back in here if I were he. But I'm not him - I'm an insignificant Padawan that just happen to be The Chosen One by chance. I suppose that's how the force
works everything's by chance.'
Everything happens for a reason - well that's what Master Windu says anyway. Then why did the Sith kidnap me - what was the reason behind that? So I
could insult my master and go nearly insane. Insane - oh yes I was beyond that.'
'That Sith, how could have he possibly tricked me? Mind games, the quick movements of his wrinkly hands, the endless pain of the torturing - I was put
through all that day after day. There are really only a few things that I remember about my time with the Sith, one of those being his cruel sickly yellow eyes
which seemed to glow in the darkness.
Nothing could ever bring me to look into those again. Everyday he would flash an evil smile my way and chuckle as I pleaded for Obi-Wan to come and
save me. Every time I would yell out for Obi-Wan or any of the Jedi Masters he would constantly remind me that I was in his clutches and that there was
no way of escaping.
I even yelled out for Nina - my ex-girlfriend - once. Nina was the first girl I ever kissed, she was still a Padawan in the temple not unlike me. I pictured her
adorable smile or her sweet giggle many times in my dreams. The Sith, no doubt keep track of my dreams by invading my mind every day.
There were many dreams that Nina was involved in. But there was no forgetting the first time I ever dreamed of her - now that was a sweet dream. In the
dream, I was about fourteen years old and was quite obnoxious at the time.
*Flashback*
"Anakin!" A tall blonde female in her early teens yelled out. She ran towards a young man who also had blonde hair but was cut in an effective yet sexy
Jedi Padawan haircut. Anakin sat on one of the many seats that were planted around the Jedi garden. He looked up from what he was doing for a quick
second to acknowledge the blonde's presence.
"Anakin Skywalker, where have you been? the blonde asked as she brushed some of her long golden hair out of her eyes, " Master Kenobi has been
looking for you everywhere."
Anakin sighed. Must I get no peace?
"Nina, I've been right here for the last few hours. I always sit here for a few hours everyday, you should now that by now." Sometimes this girl annoyed
him and if she wasn't his training partner he would have totally ignored her.
"Hey Skywalker, don't get cheeky with me," she replied as she playfully slapped his left arm and took a seat beside him.
She's flirting with me, Anakin chuckled, might as well play along! He clutched his arm protectively as though her slap had hurt him badly.
Nina giggled and flashed her eyelashes at him. Anakin took this moment to take a good look at her. She was quite tall for her age and was nearly Anakin's
height. Her most striking feature was her bright blonde hair that seemed to shine in the sunlight. She had this cute little baby face which was often used to
convince people to either do things for her or to give her things.
Her eyes were a bright green that somehow reminded Anakin of the colour of Opals. Her eyelashes were as black as night and seemed to blend perfectly
with her Opal eyes. Her full lips were a light shade of pink, any man would die to kiss her.
Nearly every boy in the temple had a crush on her even though her attitude annoyed most people including Anakin. However she seemed to be after only
one man - or rather boy - in the temple and that was the unexacting Anakin Skywalker.
Though Anakin was quite the heart breaker himself with his bright blue eyes and his blonde hair that gave him that little glint of mischief. He also looked
as if he was much older than he actually was. In some places it seemed as though his muscles were breaking out of his tunic.
Anakin, like Nina, had some special talent that would make women fall at his feet. His cheeky smile and that spark in his eyes - every time he looked at a
member of the opposite sex he managed to win them over. But still one thing remained - his first kiss.
"So Anakin, what ya doing?" Nina asked in a surprisingly sexy voice. She was after him and boy did he know it.
"Umm . . . nothing really," he almost squeaked back. Now is not the time to get nervous, Skywalker, he reminded himself.
"Doesn't look like nothing, lemme see," Nina insisted as she carefully looked over to see what he was doing. In the process she somehow managed to
brush her lips across his ear - by chance perhaps. Anakin jumped and blushed immediately. Nina smiled - one of his all time favourite smiles.
"See . . . nothing," Anakin managed to spit out. Nina nodded and moved a little bit closer to Anakin. He smiled back and tried frantically to think of
something else to talk about.
"How was your --," He stopped himself immediately when he noticed that Nina's face was barely two centimeters from his own.
He gazed into her opal eyes and could not fight back the urge to smile. She giggled, her breath vibrating on his skin.
"Skywalker," she whispered as she swooped in to catch his lips in a kiss. Anakin's breathing stopped completely as he felt her lips on his.
Anakin's body was boiling by now. He grabbed Nina's head and pulled her closer. Nina moaned and eagerly pressed her lips hard on his.
*End of Flashback*
Okay, course all that was in the past now. He had no desire for women - let alone his one time girlfriend Nina.
All of a sudden the door slid open. Anakin jumped and spun around expecting to see his Master - instead a healer entered the room.
"How are you today, Padawan Skywalker? My name is Master Selena and I'm going to attending to your needs for a while."
Anakin tried to answer, but yet again nothing seemed to come out. Selena glared at him for a second till she realized.
"You really should be over the shock of your whole ordeal. Can you speak for me?" She asked.
Anakin nodded and open his mouth trying to somehow say he was all right. Selena approached him slowly and pressed her finger on his neck checking
certain things.
"Well by all rights you should be able to talk. None of your important vocal cords seem to be injured --," she stopped herself automatically as the door slid
open. Obi-Wan slowly walked through the door, a small smile played on his face.
"Umm . . . Excuse me. I better be going now. I'll check up on you later, Padawan Skywalker," Selena said as she quickly departed the room.
"Hello, Anakin. Are you feeling better?" Obi-Wan asked. Anakin nodded.
"That's good. Adi's waiting to see you, she's been dead worried about you. You're like a son to her do you know that?" Anakin nodded again. Obi-Wan
sighed and brushed his hand through his thick hair. "The Healers told me that you haven't talked since you got back."
Anakin shrugged. Why can't I talk? I don't understand! Anakin breathed deeply hoping that his new idea would work successfully. Master, why did you
come back to visit me? Anakin sent to Obi-Wan through their Master/Padawan bond.
Obi-Wan jumped as Anakin's words hit him.
Well I suppose he still hasn't got over the kidnapping yet, Obi-Wan thought, the healers said that he should start talking anytime now - but I don't think
that they meant telepathically.
"I love you, Anakin. How could I not come back?" Obi-Wan told him. Slowly and carefully, Obi-Wan began to approach Anakin hoping not to scare him.
Anakin nodded and felt a small tug at the side of his lips. Anakin's gaze fell on the floor for a few seconds. When he looked up again, he discovered that
Obi-Wan was but a few centimeters away from him.
Without realizing it, Anakin pulled Obi-Wan towards him embracing him in a hug. Obi-Wan smiled and put his arms around his young Padawan - who
was not so young anymore. Anakin buried his head further into Obi-Wan's shoulder, but yet he still refused to cry in front of his Master.
I'm strong, not weak, I shall not cry, Anakin repeated this over and over again in his mind. But what Anakin didn't realize was that he was saying the same
sentence over and over again that the Sith had implanted into his head while he was captured.
" . . . What does your heart tell you?"
...
Anakin sat tentatively on the medical bed waiting for a healer to come and attend to him. He had gotten over his sudden tantrum a few hours ago and was
anxiously waiting for his Master to return. Though many times Anakin had tried to speak, the words did not seem to come out. He had opened his mouth
and tried in a brutal attempt to coax his voice out.
Nothing seemed to work - nothing ever seemed to work out in his life. Ever since Obi-Wan had quickly left, Anakin had been reevaluating his earlier
thoughts. It was widely known that the Sith could somehow bend a person's mind so that their victim was actually convinced that they were insane.
No - that can't be right! Could the Sith had made me think that the whole Temple and most of all Obi-Wan, were against me? he thought, make me think
that I was a disgrace and a disappointment to the whole Jedi Order? Was that possible? But the question now is does Obi-Wan still care for me enough
to come back and see me?
After all, had I not just a few hours ago force-thrown cup, plates - anything I could find at Obi-Wan. I wouldn't exactly be jumping at the chance to come
back in here if I were he. But I'm not him - I'm an insignificant Padawan that just happen to be The Chosen One by chance. I suppose that's how the force
works everything's by chance.'
Everything happens for a reason - well that's what Master Windu says anyway. Then why did the Sith kidnap me - what was the reason behind that? So I
could insult my master and go nearly insane. Insane - oh yes I was beyond that.'
'That Sith, how could have he possibly tricked me? Mind games, the quick movements of his wrinkly hands, the endless pain of the torturing - I was put
through all that day after day. There are really only a few things that I remember about my time with the Sith, one of those being his cruel sickly yellow eyes
which seemed to glow in the darkness.
Nothing could ever bring me to look into those again. Everyday he would flash an evil smile my way and chuckle as I pleaded for Obi-Wan to come and
save me. Every time I would yell out for Obi-Wan or any of the Jedi Masters he would constantly remind me that I was in his clutches and that there was
no way of escaping.
I even yelled out for Nina - my ex-girlfriend - once. Nina was the first girl I ever kissed, she was still a Padawan in the temple not unlike me. I pictured her
adorable smile or her sweet giggle many times in my dreams. The Sith, no doubt keep track of my dreams by invading my mind every day.
There were many dreams that Nina was involved in. But there was no forgetting the first time I ever dreamed of her - now that was a sweet dream. In the
dream, I was about fourteen years old and was quite obnoxious at the time.
*Flashback*
"Anakin!" A tall blonde female in her early teens yelled out. She ran towards a young man who also had blonde hair but was cut in an effective yet sexy
Jedi Padawan haircut. Anakin sat on one of the many seats that were planted around the Jedi garden. He looked up from what he was doing for a quick
second to acknowledge the blonde's presence.
"Anakin Skywalker, where have you been? the blonde asked as she brushed some of her long golden hair out of her eyes, " Master Kenobi has been
looking for you everywhere."
Anakin sighed. Must I get no peace?
"Nina, I've been right here for the last few hours. I always sit here for a few hours everyday, you should now that by now." Sometimes this girl annoyed
him and if she wasn't his training partner he would have totally ignored her.
"Hey Skywalker, don't get cheeky with me," she replied as she playfully slapped his left arm and took a seat beside him.
She's flirting with me, Anakin chuckled, might as well play along! He clutched his arm protectively as though her slap had hurt him badly.
Nina giggled and flashed her eyelashes at him. Anakin took this moment to take a good look at her. She was quite tall for her age and was nearly Anakin's
height. Her most striking feature was her bright blonde hair that seemed to shine in the sunlight. She had this cute little baby face which was often used to
convince people to either do things for her or to give her things.
Her eyes were a bright green that somehow reminded Anakin of the colour of Opals. Her eyelashes were as black as night and seemed to blend perfectly
with her Opal eyes. Her full lips were a light shade of pink, any man would die to kiss her.
Nearly every boy in the temple had a crush on her even though her attitude annoyed most people including Anakin. However she seemed to be after only
one man - or rather boy - in the temple and that was the unexacting Anakin Skywalker.
Though Anakin was quite the heart breaker himself with his bright blue eyes and his blonde hair that gave him that little glint of mischief. He also looked
as if he was much older than he actually was. In some places it seemed as though his muscles were breaking out of his tunic.
Anakin, like Nina, had some special talent that would make women fall at his feet. His cheeky smile and that spark in his eyes - every time he looked at a
member of the opposite sex he managed to win them over. But still one thing remained - his first kiss.
"So Anakin, what ya doing?" Nina asked in a surprisingly sexy voice. She was after him and boy did he know it.
"Umm . . . nothing really," he almost squeaked back. Now is not the time to get nervous, Skywalker, he reminded himself.
"Doesn't look like nothing, lemme see," Nina insisted as she carefully looked over to see what he was doing. In the process she somehow managed to
brush her lips across his ear - by chance perhaps. Anakin jumped and blushed immediately. Nina smiled - one of his all time favourite smiles.
"See . . . nothing," Anakin managed to spit out. Nina nodded and moved a little bit closer to Anakin. He smiled back and tried frantically to think of
something else to talk about.
"How was your --," He stopped himself immediately when he noticed that Nina's face was barely two centimeters from his own.
He gazed into her opal eyes and could not fight back the urge to smile. She giggled, her breath vibrating on his skin.
"Skywalker," she whispered as she swooped in to catch his lips in a kiss. Anakin's breathing stopped completely as he felt her lips on his.
Anakin's body was boiling by now. He grabbed Nina's head and pulled her closer. Nina moaned and eagerly pressed her lips hard on his.
*End of Flashback*
Okay, course all that was in the past now. He had no desire for women - let alone his one time girlfriend Nina.
All of a sudden the door slid open. Anakin jumped and spun around expecting to see his Master - instead a healer entered the room.
"How are you today, Padawan Skywalker? My name is Master Selena and I'm going to attending to your needs for a while."
Anakin tried to answer, but yet again nothing seemed to come out. Selena glared at him for a second till she realized.
"You really should be over the shock of your whole ordeal. Can you speak for me?" She asked.
Anakin nodded and open his mouth trying to somehow say he was all right. Selena approached him slowly and pressed her finger on his neck checking
certain things.
"Well by all rights you should be able to talk. None of your important vocal cords seem to be injured --," she stopped herself automatically as the door slid
open. Obi-Wan slowly walked through the door, a small smile played on his face.
"Umm . . . Excuse me. I better be going now. I'll check up on you later, Padawan Skywalker," Selena said as she quickly departed the room.
"Hello, Anakin. Are you feeling better?" Obi-Wan asked. Anakin nodded.
"That's good. Adi's waiting to see you, she's been dead worried about you. You're like a son to her do you know that?" Anakin nodded again. Obi-Wan
sighed and brushed his hand through his thick hair. "The Healers told me that you haven't talked since you got back."
Anakin shrugged. Why can't I talk? I don't understand! Anakin breathed deeply hoping that his new idea would work successfully. Master, why did you
come back to visit me? Anakin sent to Obi-Wan through their Master/Padawan bond.
Obi-Wan jumped as Anakin's words hit him.
Well I suppose he still hasn't got over the kidnapping yet, Obi-Wan thought, the healers said that he should start talking anytime now - but I don't think
that they meant telepathically.
"I love you, Anakin. How could I not come back?" Obi-Wan told him. Slowly and carefully, Obi-Wan began to approach Anakin hoping not to scare him.
Anakin nodded and felt a small tug at the side of his lips. Anakin's gaze fell on the floor for a few seconds. When he looked up again, he discovered that
Obi-Wan was but a few centimeters away from him.
Without realizing it, Anakin pulled Obi-Wan towards him embracing him in a hug. Obi-Wan smiled and put his arms around his young Padawan - who
was not so young anymore. Anakin buried his head further into Obi-Wan's shoulder, but yet he still refused to cry in front of his Master.
I'm strong, not weak, I shall not cry, Anakin repeated this over and over again in his mind. But what Anakin didn't realize was that he was saying the same
sentence over and over again that the Sith had implanted into his head while he was captured.