Disclaimer: I don't own anybody….except a tiny Vegeta action
figure who's only 1 ½ inches tall.
God bless Akira Toriyama who actually created them.
Here I am
with no where to go…
Sometimes I wish I
could go back in time…to when I didn't have to care, or have to hide these ever
increasing emotions back when I was in cold vastness of space. I just….feel
sometimes that there is no real importance in this life. The ningens say that love
is important, the thing in which many people strive for all of their lives but
never find, yet, something they claim is so strong is so easily tarnished, even
broken.
~No matter how hard
I try, the days keep getting harder to live through~
When I first came
here, to this horrible place, I thought I would be able to leave, able to
surpass Kakkarot, destroy this damnable planet to the burning fires of hell to
which it surely belonged…..I was wrong. That damn blue haired demon stopped me…..that
is what I want to think. She was…so….different from the females from the
Saiya-jin home world. They were tough, almost as disgusting as the males
themselves…hell, sometimes you couldn't even tell the difference between the
males and females.
~I've tried so hard but it's just not
working, these days go slipping by~
I said that no
matter how much she begged and cried I would not stay. I yelled and ranted and
raved for weeks. But I still ended up laying in the same bed with her one
night.
She had been scared of a storm, stupid weak ningen, she was
jumpy and had been taking some kind of pill to calm your nerves….seems to me
they weren't working very well..for the next thing I knew…she was in my
arms…trembling. I think that I will always remember the way her ice blue
eyes looked at me that night. That's when it happened…I lost control.
I took her to my room and made love to her……heh heh heh………HA!
In the past she said I probably wouldn't last twenty minutes…..we were at it
all night long...but how could she possibly know that what a Saiya-jin loves
best is sex.
~That's when
I realized my life wouldn't last forever, and how horrible my life had turned
out to be~
But that
doesn't matter anymore does it? She's gone. Humans have such short life spans.
I didn't realize it at the time. I thought she would be around forever….I wish
I would have said more..but it's too late for that now. She died 3 years
ago..on two months after Bura was born..heh…or as I like to call her,
B-chan.. I never realized how special or precious they all were. Bulma
always said I should pay more attention. But I started to, far to late. The
only thing I can do is take care of our children as best I can. Trunks is 15
and B-chan is 3. That's all I can do now…..they're all I have left of her. But
they're also a reminder of what I used to be..
~That's
when it happened, my soul gave way, and cried to the heavens,"Why have you done
this to me?~
~*AngelBulma*~
